Broken - Ronnea Stiles (ebook reader with android os .TXT) 📗

was very quiet until she start to speak.
"I'm sorry bout last time..."
"It's fine nothing that I'm not used to".
"It's not that I want to hurt you James...it's just we have two lifestyles".
I stopped the car and pulled over into an alley.
"What fucking! Is that your lifestyle!?Because that's all you ever want to do when you come around...then you just up and leave!"
"James you don't know me! Like at all I'm not the girl you need".
"Well excuse me I'm sorry for falling in love with you".
I placed my head on the steering wheel when Queen grabbed my chin and made me look into her dark brown eyes. She then gently kissed my lips. Her lips were soft and moist.
"You don't need to love me".
"I can't help it".
"You're this godly boy and I'll fuck your life up".
"Why do you think you will?"
"Because God doesn't love me...that's why all my life I've been so fucked up! Ever since I was a child nothing has changed!"
"Queen God loves you he's just not going to make your life perfect you have to try and be a better person".
"You don't know shit about having a bad life so don't tell me God loves me cuss he doesn't!"
I couldn't believe Queen was saying this.
"Queen God does love you he just doesn't love the stuff you do!"
"Oh what the hell! He's never loved me he's put me through so much shit...you don't know nothing about me you church boy!"
"You right I don't so why don't you tell me huh!?? You got all these bruises over your body but you never tell me who's hurting you...you must like getting hurt because you keep going back to that same person!"
"Fuck you".
Queen got out as rain started to pour from the sky. I followed her.
"No don't you walk away from me...that's all you know how to do!"
"James just leave me alone!"
"No I won't! You're always dragging me into your mess then call me to pick you up! I'm tired of picking up all the fucking pieces for you!
"You don't have to do shit! You choose to!"
"Yea because unlike all the boys you fuck I'm the only one who gives a fuck about you! But fine I'm done picking up all the pieces for your shitty ass life! Go back to being a hoe!"
I didn't even realize what I was saying until I heard Queen gasped. A tear ran down her face as she stared me hard in my eyes. That's when she balled her fist up and punched me hard as ever in my face.
"God isn't for everyone and he sure isn't for me! No one will ever love me and it's all Gods fault! You think you the shit because you have God well fuck you and God... I'll go back to being a hoe I'm sure your father knows all about it!"
She then ran off into the rain. I felt like shit. I couldn't believe I just talked so bad about Queen but what really stood out from what she said was about my father. I didn't understand what she meant and to be honest I couldn't deal with Queen anymore. She wanted to leave so I had no choice but to let her go. CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

~Queen~

 

His tongue moved around in circles around the outside and inside of my pussy. I grabbed his head as his hands pulled my legs closer into his face, he was trying to keep me from moving but I couldn't help it, it felt so good. I was so aroused by his movements my head fell back making me look up at the ceiling from this magnificent feeling. His tongue moved faster and faster as more and more moans escaped from my mouth. Soon my legs started shaking and my body became weak as I came and squirted all into Cams mouth. He caught and licked all of it up, when he was finished he pulled his head from under the covers and plopped down next to me. He leaned his head back on the head board then lit himself a square. I slowly moved down to lay my head on his chest.
"You liked it?"
"Yea, a lot ".
"Baby if those scars on your body don't heal you getting plastic surgery okay, I'm serious about that ".
"Ok".
"What's really happening everytime you come back you got new scars on you it's disgusting to look at ".
"I told you I got into a fight".
"Well baby girl I'm gone teach you how to fight because apparently who you fighting keeps beating yo ass!"
He chuckled as I got up from the bed.
"That's not funny Cam".
"I'm only kidding baby, you know I love you... Now come on over here and sniff some of this yayo."
I looked over at Cam as he cut a small white rock into four sets on his table. After he finished cutting the lines he got a straw and snorted two lines of it up. I knew this wasn't right but with the way I've been feeling I needed something to distract my mind. So I walked over to the table, he handed me the straw I bent down and snorted the last two rows of the stuff. Instantly I felt my body relax.
"See baby, I told you this that good shit".
I laughed really hard. We both sat there laid back and smoked a square.
~
I laid next to this random man as he started to put his clothes on.
"You sure know how to move them hips of yours baby girl".
I smiled and sat up on the bed. The man stared at me for a while as he was getting dressed. He was as white as snow with sandy brown hair , and real skinny with tattoos covering his chest.
"I'll definitely be seeing you again".
He grabbed his jacket, handed me 300 dollars then walked out. I sat there staring at the money as tears rolled down my eyes. Why was I doing this? I know I'm better then this but I need the money. I felt empty and weak. All I really want to do right now is lay next to James in his bed but I knew me and him were done for good. I could tell by the way he talked about me. He was right though, every word he said was right and I hate that it is. I turned over and cried even more. My heart felt like it was constantly getting stabbed at and I couldn't stop the person who was stabbing it. I didn't like this feeling. I hurried and got up to take sum of those pills came gave me, I swallowed them quick, and got back into the bed and slowly drifted to sleep .

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO

~James~

 

I laid in bed staring up at the ceiling throwing my football in my hands. I tossed it back and forth still thinking about what Queen said. I honestly wanted to know what she was doing and how she was doing. It's only been a week since I've spoken to her but it feels like years. I stopped playing with the ball and stared off into space. I wanted to know what she meant and was talking about when she mentioned my father, or maybe she was just mad and saying things out of emotions. Either way overall I was confused about everything and I wanted to know answers. What I really want is to redo everything with Queen, especially what I said to her. It wasn't me it wasn't my character, I was just pissed! I feel stupid, I lost the girl I love. I guess I need to let it go nobody approves of her anyway and it's probably best if I get back to practicing football, school starts in a month. I got out of bed and started getting dressed so I could go outside and practice. Later on today I'm going to take Sylvia out to dinner. I also need to apologize to her, maybe she is the right girl for me. She is classy, respectful, and pretty. I sighed and kept getting ready to go outside.
~
Sylvia's hair was down and curled up into a million complicated swirls. She had on a black tight fitted dress that showed off every inch of her slim body. She really couldn't look any more beautiful. I sat across from her at the table in a booth with a suit on, as we both looked through the menu.
"This is really nice".
"Yea...but Sylvia I honestly want to apologize to you for everything I said. I was going through a lot and I was really heated and took my anger out on you."
"It's ok...I honestly understand".
"Do you really?"
"Yes I understand you like that dir....Queen very much".
She then gave me a fake smile. I looked down at my hands.
"Actually that's why I brought you here tonight I wanted to tell you I really do like you. It took me a minute and I had to think about it but now I've realized, you're the girl for me".
I then looked up and stared Sylvia in her eyes .
"I...I really don't know what to say".
"Don't say anything...just know I'm really happy you let me take you out and glad we're here together".
She blushed a little then started playing with her napkin.
"Honestly since we're confessing to each other my feelings for you haven't changed...but I just need to know you aren't going to go back to that girl".
"Believe me I'm not...she's long gone...I guess you and the other church people were right".
Sylvia reached over and grabbed my hand.
"Yes they were right, church people are always right hunny...but it's okay because she was unholy and not right for you".
I shook my head ok, as the waitress approached the table.
~
Later on that night after leaving the restaurant Sylvia and I walked around my neighborhood just talking. It was nice out.
"This is...sort of romantic".
Sylvia said.
"Well I'm happy it is to you".
She stopped walking and turned to face me. Her hair blew with the light wind.
"Kiss me."
I was surprised to hear her say that but yet it still made me happy. So I did, I leaned in and kissed Sylvia's lips they were soft. She gently held unto my neck as I grabbed unto her small waist and continued to kiss her. She kept kissing me slowly putting her tongue into my mouth. It felt as if our tongues were dancing around together like ballerinas.
"You want to go inside?"
I asked her.