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“You promised. You said you’d bring me home.” It was childish, but I felt ripped wide open.
“I know.”
“Do you know what he did to me?”
She looked away. She wasn’t getting off that easy. She needed to know.
“First they beat me. Then they starved me, hung me up, and beat me some more. I was shackled to a wall, whacked with a chain, and then they tried to drown me. And what for? Information that I don’t even know.”
A tear escaped one of her eyes and rolled down her cheek. “I’m sorry.”
“You handed me over to them.” I glared at her. “I hate you.”
“I know.”
There was no more talking. We just walked for hours. Keeping the lake on our right, we headed away from the mountains. There was still no sign of intelligent life on this planet.
The words tumbled out of her mouth, surprising me, “It wasn’t personal.”
Tears stung my eyes and I sucked in a shuddering breath. “It was to me.” There was a whimper in my voice I prayed she couldn’t hear. I felt broken and beaten. I was broken and beaten.
“I didn’t want to betray you. It pained me to do so, but I did what needed to be done.”
“I get it. I do.” I took a couple steps backward.
“You are right to be angry.” She stepped closer, eliminating the space between us. “I don’t know how to apologize for what I’ve done. I don’t know how to make it right. I know I did the wrong thing and I feel horrible for it, but I don’t know how to make up for it. I don’t know how to apologize for the biggest mistake of my life. Saying I’m sorry doesn’t seem like enough for the hurt I caused you.”
Even in my anger, I found some measure of comfort in being physically close to her. “I can’t just forgive you in a day. My feelings aren’t like that. Healing is a process. I will say that I don’t hate you as much today as I did yesterday.” My throat felt tight and my eyes stung with tears I refused to let fall.
“I would sacrifice myself for you,” she whispered.
“I know.”
And I did know. I knew she was telling me the truth. She would have turned herself over. She would have been tortured. She would have killed herself for me. But it wasn’t her life that was threatened. It had been the lives of those she loved.
I knew this, but it settled in even more and I understood. The anger had been the only thing holding me together and now it was slipping away.
“You have a knife. Do you think I should die for my betrayal?” she asked.
I sucked in a staggered breath. My heart clenched inside my chest so hard I put my hand to it. “No. No, I don’t.”
Another silence settled between us that went on so long my wobbling knees threatened to give out on me. My breaths came quickly as I tried to fight off the panic flowing through me.
Everleigh quickly slipped her arm around my waist, holding me up. “Breathe.”
I placed my hand on her chest, hating myself for letting her hold me.
Later that night I stared into her eyes as we lay across from one another, the fire between us. “I don’t know how to move on,” I admitted.
“I know,” she answered.
Chapter Eleven
Everleigh
The grass beneath our feet was slowly fading. Up ahead was barren land. It was a dull orange color and hadn’t seen water in so long that cracks ran through it in all directions. Rock formations jutted out of the ground in the distance.
We continued our trek through the desert-like area until it got dark only stopping once to shield ourselves from a dust storm. There wasn’t anything to build a fire with or woods to hunt in, so we just sat staring at the stars.
I wished she would talk to me. It had been two days since her last outburst and I could tell she was still working her way through her emotions. The silence was heavy and overwhelming, but I knew that pushing her would only slow her emotional progress.
I waited until Akacia fell into a deep, restful sleep before I laid down and tried to sleep myself.
When we woke, there was nothing to do but continue on. Our water and food were both long gone and the desert area showed no signs of either. We needed to find the other side and fast.
It took another day until the desert started giving way to rock and before we knew it we were walking between boulders, heading downward for a while before it turned into an uphill trek. The temperature dropped the higher we climbed and I knew if I was tired, Akacia must be too. But we pushed on, hoping that we’d find refuge on the other side.
There was practically a rock wall in front of us. It wasn’t too steep. I could make it, but I wasn’t sure about Akacia. I glanced at her and she nodded.
We started up. She followed in my footsteps. I could have climbed faster, but purposely went slow for Akacia’s sake. Each step took more and more effort, as we got higher up on the rocks. I could hear Akacia breathing heavily behind me.
We were almost there when I heard her foot slip. I spun around and grabbed her wrist before she fell. She was looking down and panting with fear. Her feet kicked wildly under her.
“Hold still!” I struggled to pull her up. Somehow I managed to get both of us over the top and fell onto my back. She landed on top of me and our eyes locked.
“Thank you…”
She rolled off me and closed her eyes, taking deep breaths. A few minutes later, she staggered to her feet and looked down.
“I wouldn’t have let you fall.”
She gave a slight nod.
“You’re bleeding,” I said. “But I suppose we don’t have to worry about that.”
She examined her right arm. She didn’t answer and I turned around to continue on. “I didn’t know,” her voice seemed soft and unsure. “When I was being tortured…” It took her another minute to speak again. “Apparently I heal fast. I didn’t know. I don’t remember getting hurt, so I never knew.” More than anything she sounded confused and a little afraid.
“You—”
She held up her hand. “Caspar said something about my father perfecting nanites to heal injuries. I don’t really know what that means. I think they’re in me though.”
Nanites inside of her? “They’re like macro machines.”
She looked over at me with tears in her blue eyes. “Does that make me a freak?”
“No.” I met her eyes.
Her lip quivered.
I cupped her face and said more firmly, “No.”
She nodded and licked her lips. My gaze shifted from her eyes to her mouth, but when I leaned in, she pulled back. It was daytime. We didn’t do that in the daytime. That was saved for nighttime only.
We made our way over to the other side and I came to an abrupt stop.
“Shit…” I swore as I looked out over the scene in front of us. Icy spikes sprouted out of the ground. There was no flat area to walk across, no easy access to the other side.
“We have to go across that?” Akacia choked.
Ice? Snow? It couldn’t be a city with a way home? Or at least a meadow with water and fruit. It had to be ice and snow? I let out a scream of frustration, kicked some rocks sent them tumbling over the side.
“Enough!” Akacia yelled, reaching out and grabbing my hand. “You won’t be any good if you hurt yourself.”
She was right. I knew she was right, but I was so frustrated that I couldn’t stop from shaking. Why couldn’t we catch a break? Were we ever going to get off this planet? Or would we be stuck here forever?
“Breathe,” she said.
I sat down, put my head between my knees, and took deep breaths. After a few minutes, I looked at her. “I can’t believe how lame that sounds—breathe—but I don’t know what else to say.”
She scoffed and her smile disappeared. “So…we have to get to the other side of the ice?”
I stood up and she followed. Behind us lay the desert, but backtracking almost seemed like a better idea than trying to get through the ice and snow in front of us. “I don’t know. We don’t have the clothes to keep us warm. Nothing to build a fire. We don’t know how far it spans.”
“You should have thought about that before rescuing me. You should have let me die there.”
Spinning toward her, I said, “Our plan was a damn good one. The only way he could have known where the Artemis was is if he had the technology that can detect cloaked ships. Not many people have that.”
“I don’t know if I can make it. Maybe you should go. Find help.”
“I’m not leaving you.”
She nodded, rubbing her wrist.
“We’ll stay the night here. Leave in the morning.”
“Okay.”
With the ice so close, as night fell, it got chillier than it had any other night. I positioned my back against a large boulder. Akacia’s eyes glanced at the ground and then at me. I patted the ground in front of me. She sat in between my legs. Her back against my chest. I opened the blanket and put it over us. Then wrapped my arms around her. She nestled into me and let out a sigh.
The night was clear and we could see the stars. They were beautiful. Being on a planet made it seem surreal that I spent all my time traveling among them.
“What do you dream of?” I asked, wondering if she’d even answer.
She didn’t respond right away, but then she said, “I used to dream of exploring the galaxy. Then it became to be a good leader to my people. Now, food would be great.”
I laughed. “Big plates of food. Meat and vegetables.”
“Dessert.”
“And all the water we could drink.”
“A nice soft bed,” Akacia said. “And someone to fill it.”
We grew quiet again and I listened to her breathing. It was rhythmic and relaxing.
Akacia ran her thumb over the tattoo on my left wrist. “Tell me about this?”
“It’s the warrior symbol of protection. The nine points of the triangles each stand for noble Viking warrior virtues: industriousness, hospitality, discipline, honor, truth, courage, fidelity, self-reliance, and perseverance.”
“I like that.”
“What about yours?” I interlocked my fingers with hers and turned her arm over. The simple black tattoo ran from her left wrist to the middle of her forearm.
“We believe that we’re born with a purpose and a destination. The path to that destination is the journey of life. The destination is the enlightenment. Most of us get lost, we struggle.” She traced her tattoo. “It’s called a unalome, which means reaching enlightenment. It’s an ancient, spiritual symbol. The spiral and zigzags indicate my struggle with life. Eventually, I’ll add a straight line when I find harmony.”
“That’s really squizz.”
We were quiet for a while. I thought maybe she had fallen asleep, until she said, “The stars are brighter here. That cluster of six stars to our right, I can see that from Valinor just over the horizon at dusk. And that shape to our left is the planet, Zariah. I think we might be on Terronda.”
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