My Addiction by Ida Gonzalez (summer reading list TXT) 📗

Chapter 18. Mine

Paula

I am woken up by a noise. Someone is knocking on the door insistently. I put on my robe and come out confused, still asleep, luckily Katy has not woken up. I look through the door peephole and my pulse began to race. What is he doing here at this hour? I take a deep breath before opening the door.

“ Dante, what are you doing here? I questioned angrily.

“We need to talk Paula, let me explain what happened, why I disappeared,” he said

“Dante, we have nothing to talk about and I would appreciate it if you would go,” the tears itch to come out but I will not allow myself to cry in front of him. I already cried enough, he does not deserve my tears.

“Paula, it was all a misunderstanding.”

"Look, Dante, save your explanations." He looks at me with those gray eyes that disarm me. He breathes agitatedly but I must not budge.

"You already had what you wanted. What more are you looking for?

“What? “ He asked, shocked

“You've already used me, Dante. What more do you want from me?” he tensed, his features hardening.

“ Is that what you think of me, Paula? That I used you? You're wrong. I never used you. you have no idea …”

"And you have no idea what I felt, Dante. So, please go away. I never want to see you," Tears run down my cheek.

"No, Paula please let me explain. Don't do this to me."

"Go away, Dante, or I'll call the police," he looks at me sadly. I don't understand his attitude. First, he uses me, leaves me hanging to be with someone else, and now he comes to give me meaningless explanations.

No, he just wants to trick me one more time. He likes to play that game, to feel more of a man by having several women at his disposal and he already got the only thing he wanted from me, but apparently, taking away my dignity was not enough for him. This type of man only wants one thing, his own pleasure.

I no longer let him speak. I close the door in his face. I no longer want to hear him, I no longer want to see him. His presence hurt me like I never imagined it would. While he was just playing with me, I gave him my everything.

I go to Katy's room. Luckily, she is sleeping without noticing anything. I lie next to her and try to sleep. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to think about anything, thinking about him makes me sick.

The next day I woke up with a headache. I got dressed with the first thing I found and I head to the restaurant. Today, I have dinner with Iam. I don't know how I will hide this sadness.

I arrived at the restaurant quickly saying hello to my colleagues and then to my friend without much enthusiasm, to be honest.

“Hi, Isa.”

“Friend!” She hugs and again the tears come out without permission. I'm a stupid crybaby.

"How are you?" She asks.

"Bad Isa, I couldn't sleep at all. Can you believe Dante showed up at my house yesterday?"

“ What? And what did the bastard want? I swear, I'll kick his balls when I see him.”

 "He wanted to explain things, according to him.”  I made a gesture with my fingers.

"He's an idiot, I swear. I had to tell you the truth about him," My friend was furious.

"Isa, it hurts." “ I said feeling the pain tear my chest.

"I understand. But you have to get over it. You have to see it as a mistake in your life and let it go."

"It's easy to say. It's the first time I've liked someone and it's also my first disappointment."

"Life is like that, Paula. Not everything is rosy and that's how you learn to read people but that's not why we give up," I just sigh, shaking my head.

"You're right. It won't be the first or the last time but how do I explain to this foolish heart that Dante isn't and won't be for me, ever?"

We started work. I couldn't focus on anything, his face, his gaze was etched in my mind. At lunchtime, I checked my phone. I had ten missed calls from Dante, with three messages asking me to answer the phone so that he could explain things. I don't know what you are going to explain to me. One more of your lies, If you have time to call me now then why not yesterday? Look, how convincing !!

At the same time, I am also nervous because today I will go out with Iam and I do not feel comfortable. I wish, I could finish this damn contract but I cannot. I need the money, what he gave me has helped me a lot. Thanks to that money, Katy is following her treatment but I do not feel good doing this, having another man in my head and in my heart. Because yes, damn I have fallen in love with Dante. I did not want it to happen but it happened and now I can not pretend anymore because I had to be an idiot. Oh god, you put him in my way.

My head was really a mess. I had to stop thinking about him or I would go crazy.

At the end of my shift, I changed my clothes and suspected that Iam was waiting for me outside, and in fact, he was. I saw him leaning in his car, he raised his head to look at me and smiled.

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