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very sorry that you have learned to care for Owen, because, as things are, it will only make you more unhappy.ā€

ā€œI didnā€™t LEARN to care,ā€ said Leslie, walking on and speaking passionately. ā€œIf it had been like that I could have prevented it. I never dreamed of such a thing until that day, a week ago, when he told me he had finished his book and must soon go away. Thenā€” then I knew. I felt as if someone had struck me a terrible blow. I didnā€™t say anythingā€”I couldnā€™t speakā€”but I donā€™t know what I looked like. Iā€™m so afraid my face betrayed me. Oh, I would die of shame if I thought he knewā€”or suspected.ā€

Anne was miserably silent, hampered by her deductions from her conversation with Owen. Leslie went on feverishly, as if she found relief in speech.

ā€œI was so happy all this summer, Anneā€”happier than I ever was in my life. I thought it was because everything had been made clear between you and me, and that it was our friendship which made life seem so beautiful and full once more. And it WAS, in partā€”but not allā€”oh, not nearly all. I know now why everything was so different. And now itā€™s all overā€”and he has gone. How can I live, Anne? When I turned back into the house this morning after he had gone the solitude struck me like a blow in the face.ā€

ā€œIt wonā€™t seem so hard by and by, dear,ā€ said Anne, who always felt the pain of her friends so keenly that she could not speak easy, fluent words of comforting. Besides, she remembered how well-meant speeches had hurt her in her own sorrow and was afraid.

ā€œOh, it seems to me it will grow harder all the time,ā€ said Leslie miserably. ā€œIā€™ve nothing to look forward to. Morning will come after morningā€”and he will not come backā€”he will never come back. Oh, when I think that I will never see him again I feel as if a great brutal hand had twisted itself among my heartstrings, and was wrenching them. Once, long ago, I dreamed of loveā€”and I thought it must be beautifulā€”and NOWā€”its like THIS. When he went away yesterday morning he was so cold and indifferent. He said `Good-bye, Mrs. Mooreā€™ in the coldest tone in the worldā€”as if we had not even been friendsā€”as if I meant absolutely nothing to him. I know I donā€™tā€”I didnā€™t want him to careā€”but he MIGHT have been a little kinder.ā€

ā€œOh, I wish Gilbert would come,ā€ thought Anne. She was racked between her sympathy for Leslie and the necessity of avoiding anything that would betray Owenā€™s confidence. She knew why his good-bye had been so coldā€”why it could not have the cordiality that their good-comradeship demandedā€”but she could not tell Leslie.

ā€œI couldnā€™t help it, Anneā€”I couldnā€™t help it,ā€ said poor Leslie.

ā€œI know that.ā€

ā€œDo you blame me so very much?ā€

ā€œI donā€™t blame you at all.ā€

ā€œAnd you wonā€™tā€”you wonā€™t tell Gilbert?ā€

ā€ Leslie! Do you think I would do such a thing?ā€

ā€œOh, I donā€™t knowā€”you and Gilbert are such CHUMS. I donā€™t see how you could help telling him everything.ā€

ā€œEverything about my own concernsā€”yes. But not my friendsā€™ secrets.ā€

ā€œI couldnā€™t have HIM know. But Iā€™m glad YOU know. I would feel guilty if there were anything I was ashamed to tell you. I hope Miss Cornelia wonā€™t find out. Sometimes I feel as if those terrible, kind brown eyes of hers read my very soul. Oh, I wish this mist would never liftā€”I wish I could just stay in it forever, hidden away from every living being. I donā€™t see how I can go on with life. This summer has been so full. I never was lonely for a moment. Before Owen came there used to be horrible momentsā€”when I had been with you and Gilbertā€”and then had to leave you. You two would walk away together and I would walk away ALONE. After Owen came he was always there to walk home with meā€”we would laugh and talk as you and Gilbert were doingā€”there were no more lonely, envious moments for me. And NOW! Oh, yes, Iā€™ve been a fool. Letā€™s have done talking about my folly. Iā€™ll never bore you with it again.ā€

ā€œHere is Gilbert, and you are coming back with us,ā€ said Anne, who had no intention of leaving Leslie to wander alone on the sandbar on such a night and in such a mood. ā€œThereā€™s plenty of room in our boat for three, and weā€™ll tie the flat on behind.ā€

ā€œOh, I suppose I must reconcile myself to being the odd one again,ā€ said poor Leslie with another bitter laugh. ā€œForgive me, Anneā€”that was hateful. I ought to be thankfulā€”and I AMā€”that I have two good friends who are glad to count me in as a third. Donā€™t mind my hateful speeches. I just seem to be one great pain all over and everything hurts me.ā€

ā€œLeslie seemed very quiet tonight, didnā€™t she?ā€ said Gilbert, when he and Anne reached home. ā€œWhat in the world was she doing over there on the bar alone?ā€

ā€œOh, she was tiredā€”and you know she likes to go to the shore after one of Dickā€™s bad days.ā€

ā€œWhat a pity she hadnā€™t met and married a fellow like Ford long ago,ā€ ruminated Gilbert. ā€œTheyā€™d have made an ideal couple, wouldnā€™t they?ā€

ā€œFor pityā€™s sake, Gilbert, donā€™t develop into a matchmaker. Itā€™s an abominable profession for a man,ā€ cried Anne rather sharply, afraid that Gilbert might blunder on the truth if he kept on in this strain.

ā€œBless us, Anne-girl, Iā€™m not matchmaking,ā€ protested Gilbert, rather surprised at her tone. ā€œI was only thinking of one of the might-have-beens.ā€

ā€œWell, donā€™t. Itā€™s a waste of time,ā€ said Anne. Then she added suddenly:

ā€œOh, Gilbert, I wish everybody could be as happy as we are.ā€

CHAPTER 28 ODDS AND ENDS

ā€œIā€™ve been reading obituary notices,ā€ said Miss Cornelia, laying down the Daily Enterprise and taking up her sewing.

The harbor was lying black and sullen under a dour November sky; the wet, dead leaves clung drenched and sodden to the window sills; but the little house was gay with firelight and spring-like with Anneā€™s ferns and geraniums.

ā€œItā€™s always summer here, Anne,ā€ Leslie had said one day; and all who were the guests of that house of dreams felt the same.

ā€œThe Enterprise seems to run to obituaries these days,ā€ quoth Miss Cornelia. ā€œIt always has a couple of columns of them, and I read every line. Itā€™s one of my forms of recreation, especially when thereā€™s some original poetry attached to them. Hereā€™s a choice sample for you:

Sheā€™s gone to be with her Maker, Never more to roam. She used to play and sing with joy The song of Home, Sweet Home.

Who says we havenā€™t any poetical talent on the Island! Have you ever noticed what heaps of good people die, Anne, dearie? Itā€™s kind of pitiful. Hereā€™s ten obituaries, and every one of them saints and models, even the men. Hereā€™s old Peter Stimson, who has `left a large circle of friends to mourn his untimely loss.ā€™ Lord, Anne, dearie, that man was eighty, and everybody who knew him had been wishing him dead these thirty years. Read obituaries when youā€™re blue, Anne, dearieā€”especially the ones of folks you know. If youā€™ve any sense of humor at all theyā€™ll cheer you up, believe ME. I just wish I had the writing of the obituaries of some people. Isnā€™t `obituaryā€™ an awful ugly word? This very Peter Iā€™ve been speaking of had a face exactly like one. I never saw it but I thought of the word OBITUARY then and there. Thereā€™s only one uglier word that I know of, and thatā€™s RELICT. Lord, Anne, dearie, I may be an old maid, but thereā€™s this comfort in itā€”Iā€™ll never be any manā€™s `relict.ā€™ā€

ā€œIt IS an ugly word,ā€ said Anne, laughing. ā€œAvonlea graveyard was full of old tombstones `sacred to the memory of So-and-So, RELICT of the late So-and-So.ā€™ It always made me think of something worn out and moth eaten. Why is it that so many of the words connected with death are so disagreeable? I do wish that the custom of calling a dead body `the remainsā€™ could be abolished. I positively shiver when I hear the undertaker say at a funeral, `All who wish to see the remains please step this way.ā€™ It always gives me the horrible impression that I am about to view the scene of a cannibal feast.ā€

ā€œWell, all I hope,ā€ said Miss Cornelia calmly, ā€œis that when Iā€™m dead nobody will call me `our departed sister.ā€™ I took a scunner at this sister-and-brothering business five years ago when there was a travelling evangelist holding meetings at the Glen. I hadnā€™t any use for him from the start. I felt in my bones that there was something wrong with him. And there was. Mind you, he was pretending to be a Presbyterianā€”PresbyTARian, HE called itā€”and all the time he was a Methodist. He brothered and sistered everybody. He had a large circle of relations, that man had. He clutched my hand fervently one night, and said imploringly, `My DEAR sister Bryant, are you a Christian?ā€™ I just looked him over a bit, and then I said calmly, `The only brother I ever had, MR. Fiske, was buried fifteen years ago, and I havenā€™t adopted any since. As for being a Christian, I was that, I hope and believe, when you were crawling about the floor in petticoats.ā€™ THAT squelched him, believe ME. Mind you, Anne dearie, Iā€™m not down on all evangelists. Weā€™ve had some real fine, earnest men, who did a lot of good and made the old sinners squirm. But this Fiske-man wasnā€™t one of them. I had a good laugh all to myself one evening. Fiske had asked all who were Christians to stand up. I didnā€™t, believe me! I never had any use for that sort of thing. But most of them did, and then he asked all who wanted to be Christians to stand up. Nobody stirred for a spell, so Fiske started up a hymn at the top of his voice. Just in front of me poor little Ikey Baker was sitting in the Millison pew. He was a home boy, ten years old, and Millison just about worked him to death. The poor little creature was always so tired he fell asleep right off whenever he went to church or anywhere he could sit still for a few minutes. Heā€™d been sleeping all through the meeting, and I was thankful to see the poor child getting a rest, believe ME. Well, when Fiskeā€™s voice went soaring skyward and the rest joined in, poor Ikey wakened with a start. He thought it was just an ordinary singing and that everybody ought to stand up, so he scrambled to his feet mighty quick, knowing heā€™d get a combing down from Maria Millison for sleeping in meeting. Fiske saw him, stopped and shouted, `Another soul saved! Glory Hallelujah!ā€™ And there was poor, frightened Ikey, only half awake and yawning, never thinking about his soul at all. Poor child, he never had time to think of anything but his tired, overworked little body.

ā€œLeslie went one night and the Fiske-man got right after herā€”oh, he was especially anxious about the souls of the nice-looking girls, believe me!ā€”and he hurt her feelings so she never went again. And then he prayed every night after that, right in public, that the Lord would soften her hard heart. Finally I went to Mr. Leavitt, our minister then, and told him if he didnā€™t make Fiske stop that Iā€™d just rise up the next night and throw my hymn book at him when he mentioned that `beautiful but unrepentant

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