Doctor Thorne - Anthony Trollope (historical books to read .txt) 📗

with both her hands. She was determined, however, to come

to the point, and after considering for a while how best she might

do it, she ceased to beat any longer about the bush, and asked him a

plain question.

 

“The Thornes are as good a family as the Greshams, are they not?”

 

“In absolute genealogy they are, my dear. That is, when I choose to

be an old fool and talk of such matters in a sense different from

that in which they are spoken of by the world at large, I may say

that the Thornes are as good, or perhaps better, than the Greshams,

but I should be sorry to say so seriously to any one. The Greshams

now stand much higher in the county than the Thornes do.”

 

“But they are of the same class.”

 

“Yes, yes; Wilfred Thorne of Ullathorne, and our friend the squire

here, are of the same class.”

 

“But, uncle, I and Augusta Gresham—are we of the same class?”

 

“Well, Minnie, you would hardly have me boast that I am the same

class with the squire—I, a poor country doctor?”

 

“You are not answering me fairly, dear uncle; dearest uncle, do you

not know that you are not answering me fairly? You know what I mean.

Have I a right to call the Thornes of Ullathorne my cousins?”

 

“Mary, Mary, Mary!” said he after a minute’s pause, still allowing

his arm to hang loose, that she might hold it with both her hands.

“Mary, Mary, Mary! I would that you had spared me this!”

 

“I could not have spared it to you for ever, uncle.”

 

“I would that you could have done so; I would that you could!”

 

“It is over now, uncle: it is told now. I will grieve you no more.

Dear, dear, dearest! I should love you more than ever now; I would,

I would, I would if that were possible. What should I be but for

you? What must I have been but for you?” And she threw herself on

his breast, and clinging with her arms round his neck, kissed his

forehead, cheeks, and lips.

 

There was nothing more said then on the subject between them. Mary

asked no further question, nor did the doctor volunteer further

information. She would have been most anxious to ask about her

mother’s history had she dared to do so; but she did not dare to ask;

she could not bear to be told that her mother had been, perhaps was,

a worthless woman. That she was truly a daughter of a brother of the

doctor, that she did know. Little as she had heard of her relatives

in her early youth, few as had been the words which had fallen from

her uncle in her hearing as to her parentage, she did know this, that

she was the daughter of Henry Thorne, a brother of the doctor, and a

son of the old prebendary. Trifling little things that had occurred,

accidents which could not be prevented, had told her this; but not

a word had ever passed any one’s lips as to her mother. The doctor,

when speaking of his youth, had spoken of her father; but no one had

spoken of her mother. She had long known that she was the child of a

Thorne; now she knew also that she was no cousin of the Thornes of

Ullathorne; no cousin, at least, in the world’s ordinary language, no

niece indeed of her uncle, unless by his special permission that she

should be so.

 

When the interview was over, she went up alone to the drawing-room,

and there she sat thinking. She had not been there long before her

uncle came up to her. He did not sit down, or even take off the hat

which he still wore; but coming close to her, and still standing, he

spoke thus:—

 

“Mary, after what has passed I should be very unjust and very cruel

to you not to tell you one thing more than you have now learned. Your

mother was unfortunate in much, not in everything; but the world,

which is very often stern in such matters, never judged her to have

disgraced herself. I tell you this, my child, in order that you may

respect her memory;” and so saying, he again left her without giving

her time to speak a word.

 

What he then told her he had told in mercy. He felt what must be her

feelings when she reflected that she had to blush for her mother;

that not only could she not speak of her mother, but that she might

hardly think of her with innocence; and to mitigate such sorrow as

this, and also to do justice to the woman whom his brother had so

wronged, he had forced himself to reveal so much as is stated above.

 

And then he walked slowly by himself, backwards and forwards through

the garden, thinking of what he had done with reference to this girl,

and doubting whether he had done wisely and well. He had resolved,

when first the little infant was given over to his charge, that

nothing should be known of her or by her as to her mother. He was

willing to devote himself to this orphan child of his brother, this

last seedling of his father’s house; but he was not willing so to do

this as to bring himself in any manner into familiar contact with the

Scatcherds. He had boasted to himself that he, at any rate, was a

gentleman; and that she, if she were to live in his house, sit at his

table, and share his hearth, must be a lady. He would tell no lie

about her; he would not to any one make her out to be aught other or

aught better than she was; people would talk about her of course,

only let them not talk to him; he conceived of himself—and the

conception was not without due ground—that should any do so, he

had that within him which would silence them. He would never claim

for this little creature—thus brought into the world without a

legitimate position in which to stand—he would never claim for her

any station that would not properly be her own. He would make for her

a station as best he could. As he might sink or swim, so should she.

 

So he had resolved; but things had arranged themselves, as they often

do, rather than been arranged by him. During ten or twelve years no

one had heard of Mary Thorne; the memory of Henry Thorne and his

tragic death had passed away; the knowledge that an infant had been

born whose birth was connected with that tragedy, a knowledge never

widely spread, had faded down into utter ignorance. At the end of

these twelve years, Dr Thorne had announced, that a young niece, a

child of a brother long since dead, was coming to live with him. As

he had contemplated, no one spoke to him; but some people did no

doubt talk among themselves. Whether or not the exact truth was

surmised by any, it matters not to say; with absolute exactness,

probably not; with great approach to it, probably yes. By one person,

at any rate, no guess whatever was made; no thought relative to Dr

Thorne’s niece ever troubled him; no idea that Mary Scatcherd had

left a child in England ever occurred to him; and that person was

Roger Scatcherd, Mary’s brother.

 

To one friend, and only one, did the doctor tell the whole truth,

and that was to the old squire. “I have told you,” said the doctor,

“partly that you may know that the child has no right to mix with

your children if you think much of such things. Do you, however, see

to this. I would rather that no one else should be told.”

 

No one else had been told; and the squire had “seen to it,” by

accustoming himself to look at Mary Thorne running about the house

with his own children as though she were of the same brood. Indeed,

the squire had always been fond of Mary, had personally noticed her,

and, in the affair of Mam’selle Larron, had declared that he would

have her placed at once on the bench of magistrates;—much to the

disgust of the Lady Arabella.

 

And so things had gone on and on, and had not been thought of with

much downright thinking; till now, when she was one-and-twenty

years of age, his niece came to him, asking as to her position, and

inquiring in what rank of life she was to look for a husband.

 

And so the doctor walked backwards and forwards through the garden,

slowly, thinking now with some earnestness what if, after all, he

had been wrong about his niece? What if by endeavouring to place her

in the position of a lady, he had falsely so placed her, and robbed

her of all legitimate position? What if there was no rank of life to

which she could now properly attach herself?

 

And then, how had it answered, that plan of his of keeping her all

to himself? He, Dr Thorne, was still a poor man; the gift of saving

money had not been his; he had ever had a comfortable house for her

to live in, and, in spite of Doctors Fillgrave, Century, Rerechild,

and others, had made from his profession an income sufficient for

their joint wants; but he had not done as others do: he had no three

or four thousand pounds in the Three per Cents. on which Mary might

live in some comfort when he should die. Late in life he had insured

his life for eight hundred pounds; and to that, and that only, had

he to trust for Mary’s future maintenance. How had it answered,

then, this plan of letting her be unknown to, and undreamed of by,

those who were as near to her on her mother’s side as he was on the

father’s? On that side, though there had been utter poverty, there

was now absolute wealth.

 

But when he took her to himself, had he not rescued her from the very

depths of the lowest misery: from the degradation of the workhouse;

from the scorn of honest-born charity-children; from the lowest of

the world’s low conditions? Was she not now the apple of his eye, his

one great sovereign comfort—his pride, his happiness, his glory?

Was he to make her over, to make any portion of her over to others,

if, by doing so, she might be able to share the wealth, as well as

the coarse manners and uncouth society of her at present unknown

connexions? He, who had never worshipped wealth on his own behalf;

he, who had scorned the idol of gold, and had ever been teaching her

to scorn it; was he now to show that his philosophy had all been

false as soon as the temptation to do so was put in his way?

 

But yet, what man would marry this bastard child, without a sixpence,

and bring not only poverty, but ill blood also on his own children?

It might be very well for him, Dr Thorne; for him whose career was

made, whose name, at any rate, was his own; for him who had a fixed

standing-ground in the world; it might be well for him to indulge in

large views of a philosophy antagonistic to the world’s practice; but

had he a right to do it for his niece? What man would marry a girl

so placed? For those among whom she might have legitimately found

a level, education had now utterly unfitted her. And then, he well

knew that she would never put out