What's behind the eye's - Shaebugzee (easy to read books for adults list txt) 📗

turned my head to face Mr.Holt. His eyes showed sympathy as if he was trying to tell me that this was completely necessary and that he knew I would understand. That's another thing I hated about him, since I was his son's best friend, he knew all of my weaknesses.

"Miss. Leah Tanner, I believe since you're being so kind and friendly with people, you may show the new student and Cascade high around and introduce him to everyone.
"Stay after class and I will give you a note to give to Mrs.Dietzen so can show him around."

I rolled my eyes and slammed my head down onto the table. As I just told you he knew all my weaknesses and that was one of them. I hated to be around people, and I absolutely hated strangers, obviously because I grew up with the slogan 'stranger danger', I also grew up with a slogan and the only good advise my mother gave to me which was 'Don't become a slut or sleep with too many guys without protection or you will end up with a child you don't want and no father to claim the child.'

It was a long slogan, but she always said it to me. So I try to keep a down low on the sex and I take birth control, because of the rape.

A shiver ran through my spine as I remembered the icy blue eyes of the guy who shoved the pill into my mouth.

I pushed the memory as far back in my brain as possible.

It just hurt too much to think about what's going to happen later on, and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
I've tried moving out of town, but they came after me. I tried to tell someone but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth.

There was no point in it anyways, there was nothing anyone or anything could do.

I close my eyes and go to the place where nothing exist. Where all you hear is white noise. there is no color, no pictures, no fun, or pain. I went to the place I call my happy place.

I blanked out until I heard a distant ding, ding, ding. I brought my head up and let my eyes adjust to the sudden brightness. I watched as the last student leaves the room and stand up. I walk forward up to Mr.Holts desk as he pretends to shuffle papers.

"so who is it this time?" I sigh.

"This time you get to show a student named Ashton Davidson. He has my class this period, so he can be excused." he looked down and scribbled on a piece of paper.
"Here you go, you can give this to Mrs. Dietzen."

He held out the paper and I snatched it out of his hands. I walked out the door and pulled a pencil out of my pocket. I copied his hand writing and wrote Austin next to my name.

I rush down the sidewalks until I come to a building with a large number five on it.
I step in and walk slowly to Mrs.Dietzen. She had long black hair that fell don to the mid-section of her back. She had light brown indian skin and deep chocolate eyes.

I smile sweetly and she smiles back. I hand her the note and she puts on little blue glasses and scans the note.

"Austin, you are free to leave." as she finished the sentence Austin's eyes lit up and he stood and walked to my side.

As soon as we take a step outside, he turns his head to the side, looking like a little puppy.

"Remember when your father was being a jackass and he told me to show the new kid around? Well, You know how I hate strangers, so you're coming with me." I made sure that I phrased it so that he had no choice.

We walked in silence down the sidewalks until we came to a building with a large number three on it. I stepped in and looked everywhere until my eyes rested on Mr.Holt. He looked at me suspiciously, then to Austin. I knew that he would not yell at Austin because he was his son. Austin got special treatment.

"Miss. Leah Tanner, this is Ashton Davidson."

My gaze lifted up as a boy about my age, blond hair, and icy blue eyes looked at me.



chapter 2


I stared into those icy blue eyes as the memory of last night resurfaced. The boy who popped that pill into my mouth. The boy that helped rape me. The boy that I know I will never forgive.

A silent alarm went of inside my head. I take a couple steps back and ram my shoulder into the door frame. I wince but instantly forget the pain. As the silent alarm drones on inside my head I barley hear Austin's voice speak to me.

I then shut all my emotions down. All the fear and insecurity just mystically disappears.

I let my face soften as I looked at Austin.

"We should go now." I said as I practically ran out of the room.

I risked a glance back and I saw Austin's eyes soften. I felt a shudder ripple down my spine and I stop moving.

I let my mind wonder why I was running. As my mind scanned every possible answer it finally settled upon the answer that I was scared.

I lifted my head up and felt the stubbornness creep out from the black pit that was my emotions. A voice in the back of my mind spoke swiftly.

'Why do you run? Why do let him take bits of your dignity, strength, and peace away from you? You are strong, and he needs to learn that. Show the creep you are not afraid!'

I let the thought roll around in my mind and decided to take the advice.

I turned and both boys were almost to me. I walked forward and push out my hand. I let my body move instinctively.

"Hello, my name is Leah. It's very nice to meet you Ashton. I'm pretty sure you and Austin have already gotten to know each other on your way over here. Just tell me your next two classes and we will show you around."

He looked down at my hand and I saw secret knowledge pass behind his eyes.

His hand slowly snaked forward and grasped my hand. His hand felt soft and warm. Inviting.

Memories came flooding back. Every memory that slowly killed. Every memory that I hated and made me go numb inside.

I felt that icy numbness fill my eyes and I turn away. Although Austin had known me for five years, he had never seen my eyes go cold. I wasn't about to let him see them now.

I clenched my fist as a hands fell onto my shoulders. I flinched.

"Austin, I'm fine. I didn't get enough sleep last night. I'm just tired." I wanted to just run out of this place and never look back.

I felt one hand slip away but the other hand stayed.

I felt the anger rise in me and I turned around.

"I said I was fine Austin!" But as I finished the sentence I wanted to eat my words and pretend that I never said them.

Austin's hand wasn't the hand that hadn't moved, it was Ashton's. It took a second for the shock to ware off and the anger to return.

I pointed my finger at his face and shouted "Don't you ever, EVER, touch me again or I swear to God I will kick your ass!" As I finished the sentence the voice in the back of my head spoke up again. 'I don't think you could take him, he's not what you think he is.'

I roll my eyes and laugh in my head. 'What? He's not a jackass then?' I reply in my head but no one responds back.

"What's your next class?" My voice sounded grumpy and I mentally changed it.

"I have P.E. then I have science." As he spoke a coy smile split across his face. He was making fun of me. I almost let it get to me, but I was smarter than that. He had P.E. with me, but at least I didn't have to see his face at the end of the day.

I turned on my heal and started to walk towards the building with a number two on it. the room where all physical activities took place. i didn't have to look back to know that they were following me.

I open the gym door and walk through. I felt both boys eyes on me. I walked toward coach Richardson. A.K.A. my old nanny.

Her head swung my way as i approached. Her face had slight wrinkles around the edges. Her brown and grey hair swung back and forth as she stepped forward. Her small waist and height made her look younger than what she really was.

I blinked and the next thing I knew her arms were around me.

Her strong voice spoke through my daze. "Leah! You haven't been at school lately. I was starting to worry that it was because of P.E."

she let me go and I stepped back. "Nah, I just didn't want to come. but I thought mabye you missed me."

she took her eyes off of me and looked over at Ashton. "well who could this young man be? your boyfriend?"

I almost gagged "NO! thats gross, he's the new student and I got stuck with showing him around."
she stepped forward and whispered in my ear. "Too bad, cuz if i was your age and not forty-five, I would date him myself."

I wanted to hurl. that was one of those moments that wanted to scream 'EEEEWWWWWW' to the world.

"Nanna that is just wrong in so many ways." I said accidentally loud enough for the boys to hear.

"what's so wrong in so many ways?" austin asked.

"None of your business, thats what." Nana Gordon shouted at him.

I heard him mutter "whatever"

Afterwards i heard an angry squeal "CHERY WHY THE FUCK DID YOU HIT ME WITH THE BALL YOU KNEW I WAS DISTRACTED WITH THE NEW GUY, NEXT TIME USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN!"

I knew that voice, i knew it well. I didn't have to look over to know that it was Ashley Steele, which of course she won runner up for bitch of the year.

she had blond brown hair to her shoulders, she was about five foot eight and a bitch all the way through with her snooty attitude and tan skin and perfect green eyes. freaking pushy and never stops running her mouth. God I hated her.

She always got everything she wanted and never gives anything up.
I started to laugh at her expression. geeze she was such a stupid person.she got