Great Expectations - Charles Dickens (i want to read a book .txt) 📗

and my Christian name Philip,

my infant tongue could make of both names nothing longer or more

explicit than Pip. So, I called myself Pip, and came to be called

Pip.

I give Pirrip as my father’s family name, on the authority of his

tombstone and my sister,—Mrs. Joe Gargery, who married the

blacksmith. As I never saw my father or my mother, and never saw

any likeness of either of them (for their days were long before the

days of photographs), my first fancies regarding what they were

like were unreasonably derived from their tombstones. The shape of

the letters on my father’s, gave me an odd idea that he was a

square, stout, dark man, with curly black hair. From the character

and turn of the inscription, “Also Georgiana Wife of the Above,” I

drew a childish conclusion that my mother was freckled and sickly.

To five little stone lozenges, each about a foot and a half long,

which were arranged in a neat row beside their grave, and were

sacred to the memory of five little brothers of mine,—who gave up

trying to get a living, exceedingly early in that universal

struggle,—I am indebted for a belief I religiously entertained

that they had all been born on their backs with their hands in

their trousers-pockets, and had never taken them out in this state

of existence.

Ours was the marsh country, down by the river, within, as the river

wound, twenty miles of the sea. My first most vivid and broad

impression of the identity of things seems to me to have been

gained on a memorable raw afternoon towards evening. At such a time

I found out for certain that this bleak place overgrown with

nettles was the churchyard; and that Philip Pirrip, late of this

parish, and also Georgiana wife of the above, were dead and buried;

and that Alexander, Bartholomew, Abraham, Tobias, and Roger, infant

children of the aforesaid, were also dead and buried; and that the

dark flat wilderness beyond the churchyard, intersected with dikes

and mounds and gates, with scattered cattle feeding on it, was the

marshes; and that the low leaden line beyond was the river; and

that the distant savage lair from which the wind was rushing was

the sea; and that the small bundle of shivers growing afraid of it

all and beginning to cry, was Pip.

“Hold your noise!” cried a terrible voice, as a man started up from

among the graves at the side of the church porch. “Keep still, you

little devil, or I’ll cut your throat!”

A fearful man, all in coarse gray, with a great iron on his leg. A

man with no hat, and with broken shoes, and with an old rag tied

round his head. A man who had been soaked in water, and smothered

in mud, and lamed by stones, and cut by flints, and stung by

nettles, and torn by briars; who limped, and shivered, and glared,

and growled; and whose teeth chattered in his head as he seized me

by the chin.

“Oh! Don’t cut my throat, sir,” I pleaded in terror. “Pray don’t do

it, sir.”

“Tell us your name!” said the man. “Quick!”

“Pip, sir.”

“Once more,” said the man, staring at me. “Give it mouth!”

“Pip. Pip, sir.”

“Show us where you live,” said the man. “Pint out the place!”

I pointed to where our village lay, on the flat in-shore among the

alder-trees and pollards, a mile or more from the church.

The man, after looking at me for a moment, turned me upside down,

and emptied my pockets. There was nothing in them but a piece of

bread. When the church came to itself,—for he was so sudden and

strong that he made it go head over heels before me, and I saw the

steeple under my feet,—when the church came to itself, I say, I

was seated on a high tombstone, trembling while he ate the bread

ravenously.

“You young dog,” said the man, licking his lips, “what fat cheeks

you ha’ got.”

I believe they were fat, though I was at that time undersized for

my years, and not strong.

“Darn me if I couldn’t eat em,” said the man, with a threatening

shake of his head, “and if I han’t half a mind to’t!”

I earnestly expressed my hope that he wouldn’t, and held tighter to

the tombstone on which he had put me; partly, to keep myself upon

it; partly, to keep myself from crying.

“Now lookee here!” said the man. “Where’s your mother?”

“There, sir!” said I.

He started, made a short run, and stopped and looked over his

shoulder.

“There, sir!” I timidly explained. “Also Georgiana. That’s my

mother.”

“Oh!” said he, coming back. “And is that your father alonger your

mother?”

“Yes, sir,” said I; “him too; late of this parish.”

“Ha!” he muttered then, considering. “Who d’ye live with,—

supposin’ you’re kindly let to live, which I han’t made up my mind

about?”

“My sister, sir,—Mrs. Joe Gargery,—wife of Joe Gargery, the

blacksmith, sir.”

“Blacksmith, eh?” said he. And looked down at his leg.

After darkly looking at his leg and me several times, he came

closer to my tombstone, took me by both arms, and tilted me back as

far as he could hold me; so that his eyes looked most powerfully

down into mine, and mine looked most helplessly up into his.

“Now lookee here,” he said, “the question being whether you’re to

be let to live. You know what a file is?”

“Yes, sir.”

“And you know what wittles is?”

“Yes, sir.”

After each question he tilted me over a little more, so as to give

me a greater sense of helplessness and danger.

“You get me a file.” He tilted me again. “And you get me wittles.”

He tilted me again. “You bring ‘em both to me.” He tilted me again.

“Or I’ll have your heart and liver out.” He tilted me again.

I was dreadfully frightened, and so giddy that I clung to him with

both hands, and said, “If you would kindly please to let me keep

upright, sir, perhaps I shouldn’t be sick, and perhaps I could

attend more.”

He gave me a most tremendous dip and roll, so that the church

jumped over its own weathercock. Then, he held me by the arms, in

an upright position on the top of the stone, and went on in these

fearful terms:—

“You bring me, tomorrow morning early, that file and them wittles.

You bring the lot to me, at that old Battery over yonder. You do

it, and you never dare to say a word or dare to make a sign

concerning your having seen such a person as me, or any person

sumever, and you shall be let to live. You fail, or you go from my

words in any partickler, no matter how small it is, and your heart

and your liver shall be tore out, roasted, and ate. Now, I ain’t

alone, as you may think I am. There’s a young man hid with me, in

comparison with which young man I am a Angel. That young man hears

the words I speak. That young man has a secret way pecooliar to

himself, of getting at a boy, and at his heart, and at his liver.

It is in wain for a boy to attempt to hide himself from that young

man. A boy may lock his door, may be warm in bed, may tuck himself

up, may draw the clothes over his head, may think himself

comfortable and safe, but that young man will softly creep and

creep his way to him and tear him open. I am a keeping that young

man from harming of you at the present moment, with great

difficulty. I find it wery hard to hold that young man off of your

inside. Now, what do you say?”

I said that I would get him the file, and I would get him what

broken bits of food I could, and I would come to him at the

Battery, early in the morning.

“Say Lord strike you dead if you don’t!” said the man.

I said so, and he took me down.

“Now,” he pursued, “you remember what you’ve undertook, and you

remember that young man, and you get home!”

“Goo-good night, sir,” I faltered.

“Much of that!” said he, glancing about him over the cold wet flat.

“I wish I was a frog. Or a eel!”

At the same time, he hugged his shuddering body in both his arms,—

clasping himself, as if to hold himself together,—and limped

towards the low church wall. As I saw him go, picking his way among

the nettles, and among the brambles that bound the green mounds, he

looked in my young eyes as if he were eluding the hands of the dead

people, stretching up cautiously out of their graves, to get a

twist upon his ankle and pull him in.

When he came to the low church wall, he got over it, like a man

whose legs were numbed and stiff, and then turned round to look for

me. When I saw him turning, I set my face towards home, and made

the best use of my legs. But presently I looked over my shoulder,

and saw him going on again towards the river, still hugging himself

in both arms, and picking his way with his sore feet among the

great stones dropped into the marshes here and there, for

stepping-places when the rains were heavy or the tide was in.

The marshes were just a long black horizontal line then, as I

stopped to look after him; and the river was just another

horizontal line, not nearly so broad nor yet so black; and the sky

was just a row of long angry red lines and dense black lines

intermixed. On the edge of the river I could faintly make out the

only two black things in all the prospect that seemed to be

standing upright; one of these was the beacon by which the sailors

steered,—like an unhooped cask upon a pole,—an ugly thing when

you were near it; the other, a gibbet, with some chains hanging to

it which had once held a pirate. The man was limping on towards

this latter, as if he were the pirate come to life, and come down,

and going back to hook himself up again. It gave me a terrible turn

when I thought so; and as I saw the cattle lifting their heads to

gaze after him, I wondered whether they thought so too. I looked

all round for the horrible young man, and could see no signs of

him. But now I was frightened again, and ran home without

stopping.