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“Beyond the overdue interest there are not many floating liabilities,
Henry, for I have always made it a practice to pay cash. Of course,
when the farms come on hand at Michaelmas the case will be different,
for then, unless they can be let in the meantime, a large sum of money
must be found to pay the covenants and take them over, or they must go
out of cultivation. Till then, however, you need have no anxiety, for,
as it chances, at the moment I have ample funds at command.”
“Ample funds! Where do they come from?”
“Of all my fortune, Henry, there remained to me my jewels, the
diamonds and sapphires that my grandmother left me, which she
inherited from her grandmother. They should have gone to Ellen, but
when our need was pressing, rather than trouble your poor father any
more, I sold them secretly. They realized between two and three
thousand pounds—about half their value, I believe—of which I have a
clear two thousand left. Do not tell Ellen of this, I pray you, for
she would be very angry, and I do not feel fit to bear any scenes at
present. And now, my dear, it is luncheon time, so I think that I will
leave you, hoping that you will consider the advice which I have
ventured to give you.” And again she kissed him affectionately and
left the room.
“Sold her jewels!” thought Henry, “the jewels that she valued above
any possession in the world! My poor mother! And if I marry this girl,
or do not marry the other, what will her end be? The workhouse, I
suppose, unless Milward gives her a home out of charity, or I can earn
sufficient to keep her, of which I see no prospect. Indeed, I begin to
think that she is right, and that my first duty is owing to my family.
And yet how can I abandon Joan? Or if I do, how can I marry Emma
Levinger with this affair upon my hands, begun since I became
acquainted with her? Oh! what an unhappy man am I! Well, there is one
thing to be said—my evil doing is being repaid to me full measure,
pressed down and running over. It is not often that punishment follows
so hard upon the heels of error.”
CONGRATULATIONS
Joan was not really ill: she had contracted a chill, accompanied by a
certain amount of fever, but this was all. Indeed, the fever had
already taken her on the night of her love scene with Henry, and to
its influence upon her nerves may be attributed a good deal of the
conduct which to Lady Graves had seemed to give evidence of art and
experienced design. Nothing further was said by her aunt as to her
leaving the house, and things went on as usual till the morning when
she woke up and learned that her lover had gone under such sad
circumstances. It was a shock to her, but she grieved more for him
than for herself. Indeed, she thought it best that he should be gone;
it even seemed to her that she had anticipated it, that she had always
known he must go and that she would see him no more. The curtain was
down for ever; her short tragedy had culminated and was played out, so
Joan believed, unaware that its most moving acts were yet to come. It
was terrible, and henceforth her life must be a desolation; but it
cannot be said that as yet her conscience caused her to grieve for
what had been: sorrow and repentance were to overtake her when she
learned all the trouble and ruin which her conduct had caused.
No, at present she was glad to have met him and to have loved him,
winning some share of his love in return; and she thought then that
she would rather go broken-hearted through the remainder of her days
than sponge out those memories and be placid and prosperous without
them. Whatever might be her natural longings, she had no intention of
carrying the matter any further, least of all had she any intention of
persuading or even of allowing Henry to marry her, for she had been
quite earnest and truthful in her declarations to him upon this point.
She did not even desire that his life should be burdened with her in
any way, or that she should occupy his mind to the detriment of other
persons and affairs; though of course she hoped that he would always
think of her with affection, or perhaps with love, and she would have
been no true woman had she not done so. Curiously enough, Joan seemed
to expect that Henry would adopt the same passive attitude towards
herself which she contemplated adopting towards him. She knew that men
are for the most part desirous of burying their dead loves out of
sight—sometimes, in their minds, marking the graves with a secret
monument visible to themselves alone, be it a headstone with initials
and a date, or only a withered wreath of flowers; but more often
suffering the naked earth of oblivion to be trodden hard upon them, as
though fearful lest their poor ghosts should rise again, and, taking
flesh and form, come back to haunt a future in which they have no
place.
She did not understand that Henry was not of this class, that in many
respects his past life had been different to the lives of the majority
of men, or that she was absolutely the first woman who had ever
touched his heart. Therefore she came to the conclusion, sadly enough,
and with an aching jealousy which she could not smother, but with
resignation, that the next important piece of news she was likely to
hear about her lover would be that of his engagement to Miss Levinger.
As it chanced, tidings of a totally different nature reached her on
the following day, though whether they were true or false she could
not tell. It was her aunt who brought them, when she came in with her
supper, for Joan was still confined to her room.
“There are nice doings up there at Rosham,” said Mrs. Gillingwater,
eyeing her niece curiously.
Joan’s heart gave a leap.
“What’s the matter?” she asked, trying not to look too interested.
“Well, the old baronet is gone for one thing, as was expected that he
must; and they say that he slipped off while he was cursing and
swearing at his son, the Captain, which don’t seem a right kind of way
to die, to my mind.”
“Died cursing and swearing at Captain Graves? Why?” murmured Joan
faintly.
“I can’t tell you rightly. All I know about it came to me from Lucilla
Smith, who is own sister to Mary Roberts, the cook up there, who, it
seems, was listening at the door, or, as she puts it, waiting to be
called in to say good-bye to her master, and she had it from the
gardener’s boy.”
“She? Who had it, aunt?”
“Why, Lucilla Smith had, of course. Can’t you understand plain
English? I tell you that old Sir Reginald sat up in bed and cursed and
swore at the Captain till he was black in the face. Then he screeched
out loud and died.”
“How dreadful!” said Joan. “But what was he cursing about?”
“About? Why, because the Captain wouldn’t promise to marry Miss
Levinger, who’s got bonds on all the property, down to the plate in
the pantry, in her pocket. That old fox of a father of hers stole them
when he was agent there, I expect–-” Here Mrs. Gillingwater checked
herself, and added hastily, “But that’s neither here nor there; at any
rate she’s got them, and can sell the Graves’s up to-morrow if she
likes, which being so, it ain’t wonderful that old Sir Reginald cursed
when he heard his son turn round coolly and say that he wouldn’t marry
her at any price.”
“Did he tell why he wouldn’t marry her?” asked Joan, with a desperate
effort to look unconcerned beneath her aunt’s searching gaze.
“I don’t know that he did. If so, Lucilla doesn’t know, so I suppose
that Mary Roberts couldn’t hear. She did hear one thing, however: she
heard your name, miss, twice, so there wasn’t no mistake about it.”
“My name? Oh! my name!” gasped Joan.
“Yes, yours, unless there is another Joan Haste in these parts, which
I haven’t heard on. And now, perhaps, you will tell me what it was
doing there?”
“How can I tell you when I don’t know, aunt?”
“How can you tell me when you won’t say, miss? That’s what you mean.
Look here, Joan: do you take me for a fool? Do you suppose that I
haven’t seen through your little game? Why, I have watched it all
along, and I’m bound to say that you don’t play half so bad for a
young hand. Well, it seems that you pulled it off this time, and I’m
not saying but what I am proud of you, though I still hold that you
would have done better to have married Samuel; for I believe, when all
is said and finished, he will be the richer man of the two. It’s very
nice to be a baronet’s lady, no doubt; but if you have nothing to live
in—and I don’t fancy that there are many pickings left up there at
Rosham—I can’t see that it helps you much forrarder.”
“What do you mean, aunt?”
“Mean? Now, Joan, don’t you begin trying your humbug on me: keep that
for the men. You’re not going to pretend that you haven’t been making
love to the Captain—I beg his pardon, Sir Henry he is now—as hard as
you know how. Well, it seems that you have bamboozled him finely, and
have made him so sweet on your pretty face that he’s going to throw
over marrying the Levinger girl in order to marry you, for that’s what
it comes to, and you may very well be proud of it. But don’t you be
carried away; you wouldn’t take my advice about Samuel Rock, and I
spoke to you rough that night on purpose, for I wanted you to make
sure of one or the other. Well, take my advice about Sir Henry.
Remember there is many a slip between the cup and the lip, and that
out of sight is apt to be out of mind. Don’t you keep out of sight too
long. You strike while the iron is hot, and marry him; on the quiet if
you like, but marry him. Of course there will be a row, but all the
rows under heaven can’t unmake a wife and a ladyship. Now listen to
me. I have gone out of my way to talk to you like this, because you
are a fine girl and I’m fond of you, which is more than you are of me,
and I should like to see you get on in the world; and perhaps when
you’re up you will not forget your old aunt who is down. I tell you I
have gone out of my way to give you this tip, for there’s some as
won’t be pleased to see you turned into Lady Graves. Yes, there’s some
who’d give a good deal to stop it: Samuel Rock, for instance; he don’t
like parting, but he’d lay down something handsome, and I doubt if
I’ll ever see the coin out of you that I might out of him and others,
for after all you won’t be a rich woman at best. However, we must
sacrifice ourselves at times,
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