The Life of a Teenage Vampire - Cody Brinkerhoff (good books to read for women txt) 📗

I got very dizzy and fell over she did more damage to my head than I thought. Sarah said, “You’re done for the night you fought well.” Sarah helped me onto a cot to get some rest the last thing I remember was looking over at my opponent she was surrounded by doctors I guess I hurt her a lot more than I intended to.
The Recovery

I awoke several hours later and I looked over too check on Silentnight I guess I was worried I hurt her too badly to my surprise she was laying there watching me. She told me her real name was Susan. I told her my real name is Chris but everyone calls me Azazel. Susan simply smiled through her pain and said, “You learn quickly in battle Azazel I didn’t thing you would be able to beat me.” Being my modest self I said, “It wasn’t me it was my guardian that helped me win without her I wouldn’t have been able to do it.” At that point Susan threw a shoe at me and said, “Your guardian only gave advice you were the one who used it to win you dumbass.” Sarah came in and asked, “How ya feelin’?” I told her much better I’m not weak anymore and I tried to get up and felt pain but I would not let that stop me I had pushed through the pain and sat up trying to hide the pain I was in. Sarah looked at me and said in a sarcastic voice, “You are terrible at hiding pain Chris.” This shocked me because she never calls me Chris. I played dumb and stood up looking at her and smiled weakly. It obviously didn’t fool her because she just rolled her eyes at me and said, “Let’s go tough guy.” She is very good at reading me I can’t hide anything from her. Later that day when I arrived back at my home I seen a message on the computer that read, “ Chris I hope to hear from you soon things aren’t going so well – Rose.” I began to get worried I quickly replied to it asking what happened. She replied a few hours later with, “My boyfriend cheated on me, all I could think was that doushebag.” I wanted to hunt him down and beat the living daylights out of him but she said no so I respected that even though I wanted to kill him. That night even though I was sore I went out and went on a fight spree because I was so angry. I loved her and I would do anything to protect her. I wanted to meet her in person so badly I needed to comfort her. I remember making an oath that night that I will always be there for her and will always do everything in my power to protect her until my last breathe. It wouldn’t be another two years until I showed myself to her but I was there watching and protecting from the shadows until that day.

The Mistake

It has been several months since that day and I grew very close to Rose I wanted to be hers very badly but I screwed up she broke up with her boyfriend for me and I did not know and I helped a friend of mine and I ended up losing Rose because of it. I never spoke to the friend I helped again not after the person I lost because of it. I would keep my oath however I was always there watching over her protecting her even though she hated me. I became very sick due to the lack of blood in my system but I swore I would not feed again or anything ever or until I fixed things. I hated myself for what I did and punished myself by making sure I was constantly in pain because I wouldn’t get what I so desperately needed. I began to get weaker and weaker by the day. I would endure that pain for over a year seeing her grow close to another guy. Drake was his name he picked up the pieces I left behind and I began to see her grow happy once more. Seeing her happy with another guy tore me up inside knowing I would never have that girl again. By now Sarah had left to see the council where we first began this journey I was watching Rose with Drake when Sarah came up to me and asked me , “ Chris are you ever going to forgive yourself and stop watching over her?” I looked at her and shook my head as I could never forgive myself for what I did. Over the course of that year I became cold and dead inside from seeing the girl I needed with him. Until one day I had enough and kept messaging her nonstop until she replied. She spoke to me like she had completely forgotten about me. She looked like she had seen a ghost when we video chatted that day. It would still be another year before I would even meet her in person but over that year her and Drake were together on and off a few times every time I was rejected. She was with a few other guys in between but her and Drake always seemed to find their way back to each other like a magnet. I knew I deserved to not even have her in my life at all but I wanted her back so badly I couldn’t give up. One day she told me she was moving this broke my heart until she said she would be going to my school. I asked her to meet me at our towns local garden I was shocked when she said she would I would finally get to meet her in person other when I visited her when she was working. I was so worried that day on how I looked and what I wore that I almost was late. When I finally got to talk to her in person I was having trouble finding the words I was choking and almost lost my chance when she grabbed my hand and leaned into me that’s when all felt right in my world again and I wrapped my arms around her I couldn’t believe it I honestly felt I was dreaming. My half soul finally started to shine again and my heart warmed and started beating normally again. I remember wanting to tell her what I was so badly I gave her everything my heart what little soul I had and my body without fear I loved her with my entire being. I remember never letting go of that hand when we were together. That is until my worst nightmare came true Drake was back. I lost her to him again only to find out she tested me and I failed that test. I beat myself up badly that day for letting myself fall into the hole I dug a long time ago. You see every time I even heard that name I instantly became shy and felt I was not good enough. I remember that she felt terrible for that test and hurting me that she fought to get me back I never thought she would actually fight for me I was not worth it in my opinion but she kept telling me I was always there for her and that’s what won her over again. I remember when I told her what I really was she just looked at me with disbelief. I remembering how deathly scared I was I would lose her for telling her this.

The New Start

I remember how she cried every day that I was lost and how I messed up and I pushed her away for two months while I found myself. I regret every second I did not spend with her in those two months she started moving on and falling for Drake again. It took me two months to find the old me and she didn’t want me anymore. To this day I am still trying to get her back I did research because I wanted to bring the Chris she knew back and I finally found the secrets. That night I did the ceremony and I reversed the change it took all of my strength and everything I had in me to reverse it the next day I was human once again but I was very weak. I remember her smile when she seen me it has been so long since I seen that smile. I will take everything I have but I have to get her back I need her I can’t do this without her. If she ever reads this journal I hope she sees how much she means to me these are the secrets of my past and my journey through hell and back to get back to her. I need to hear those words with everything I have I need to hear those ten words. I would do anything to hear I love and choose you will you be mine again? Those words are the world to me to hear them from her is my life’s goal. I just can’t believe I was that stupid and lost her I just hope I can change this destiny and have her back. This is my last entry for now as I am back to the present and I will never give up.I will never give up on her she is everything to me. One day I hope I can get my rose to bud