MY HATCH POCKET JOURNAL - BILLY COY (ebook reader 7 inch TXT) 📗

imagine. I am not a very spiritual guy but I think I walk with a good spirit. It’s hard


to understand this, but if you look closely and think seriously about it, it wouldn’t really hurt or crash you deeper. It’s just a way of direction!

Yours still, Richie


Hi Richie,

If I could see a flower bloom, I would have seen you growing up. But that’s in the past now, and I’ll never be there with you. Sorry for your mother. Both my parents are still alive but I don’t speak to either one of them anymore. I’ve got my good reasons.

How come you’re so caught-up? Isn’t it free enough to escape the holdup? I am so surprised that you’re that weak and so determined at the same time. If you had a child like I do, you would know that a bond is really hard to break, even when you have to throw one stone to one bird. Many years ago I thought I would be young forever, but as a woman, I saw my years pass me by so fast, and so I had to grow-up before the time was right for me to grow up.

Do you ever feel like you don’t belong, yet you truly do? I guess I am writing out of pity or I’m being so pathetic, but I’m really lost, yet still very conscious. I’m really sorry for putting all that clean garbage before you, in my last reply. You know, a woman can never go by without being moody, at least once in a while; it’s human nature Richie.

Whenever I sleep I dream of a land that is so green for me to feel unhappy, and when I look up at the blue sky, my joy intensifies. I don’t know if I am just lost in between the two, but I guess life can never really tell you, only time does!


I’ve been playing with my son; the more he grows up, he tends to look more like his mummy and daddy: I guess that’s why I love him more than anything else I’ve ever or could ever love in this world.

Isn’t it funny how years go by unnoticed? My birth day was yesterday and it made me more mature and happier than I’ve ever been.

Say you’re standing on a diving-board, would you first look down in the pool before you dive or you would just dive? The consequences maybe good or bad respectively; isn’t it a wonder Richie? All I can say to you is that, I think your mind has a real understanding about what is real and what is not; I am hesitant to say this, but I think you’re quite smart Richie. Maybe we can keep being strangers!

Yours distantly, Anita


Hi Anita,

I now understand that you want us to be just friends; of course, what more could we be? We were never anything but strangers. Anyway, I can live with that though. I was aiming for something more close. It’s not my fault I want and love you. I believe we’re both to blame for being at that party.

Anita, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know we don’t really know each other, but I feel like I’ve known you for ages, though still, I’ve seen you only once. I guess it’s that feeling that all those who fall immensely in love experience. The way I feel about you has never been wrong or a mistake to me; I guess something like this must be real.


You know, while growing up, I always dreamt about walking down the aisle with the woman of my dreams, but it’s so ironic: what we have in mind about our Mr. or Miss Right is most of the time just a silent fantasy. Most of the time we never realize it, but, that person next to you or that man or woman that you can’t stand for even a second, could be that person suited for you or The One. We tend to fool ourselves and look far and always fall out of marriage as soon as the clouds start darkening; rain always falls and the sun will shine again, but most married partners once the clouds get dark, all that they can see ahead is a storm that will last forever. But I tell you Anita, it’s just a mind game; you can always have sunlight after a storm, it takes an attitude change and a correct mindset.

You may wonder why I am getting in marriage issues yet I am not married and you’re; in other words, you should be the one giving me that kind of lecture; anyway, the reason I bring out such detailed coverage about marriage is because, a lasting happy marriage has always been one of my biggest dreams, but sadly, that has not befallen me as of yet. But I guess for you it’s where you are.

Anita, being a part of your life as a friend will change me; I hope it will be for the best. Thank you!

Yours sincerely, Richie


Richie dear,

I am not yet there too; you say that you think I am permitting friendship with you, relating to my last letter to you. Well, I didn’t say we could be friends, but if it’s okay with you, which I believe has already


been, we can be stranger-friends. By that I mean, friends, but not ever meeting or having any physical presence.

Anyway, I’ve just had a promotion at work and I really feel on top of the world. You know, I’ve been praying for this for a very long time now, and I finally got it. “I won’t be kicked back by men,” that’s a promise I made to myself long time ago. I am not saying that I am not submissive to my husband, but a woman has got to realize and know her rights as a woman, and as a human-being too; that doesn’t imply that women emancipation as a movement is right; women can never be equal to men, but we can have equal rights with you guys, if you know what I mean.

Long time ago my mother told me that love is the fundamental definition of a wife and husband, and I believe in it. Some might ask, especially you guys, that, what about sex? Well, I think the definition of love, when it comes to a wife and husband, sex is just a part of it all; these days sex is mostly termed as love-making per se. I guess everything falls back to love after all; abusing sex is abusing love, hence, abusing God. Don’t you think so Richie?

I get perplexed with all this confusion that goes around us when we’re settled in, but I guess it’s just curiosity. Many times I find myself still looking at my husband as a beautiful stranger, and I guess that’s why our relationship rejuvenates whenever it’s threatening to go down. Revival is a very important aspect in all areas of life. So Richie, we can always revive our relationship, though it hasn’t yet started, so to speak. Tell me all about you. In this case, I guess it will be gents first!

Yours sincerely, Anita


Hi Anita,

You sometimes leave me hanging, in what you write, but I guess it’s just the wisdom that you possess that makes it all complicated for me. I am right from bed and I am writing this letter; the birds are singing so beautifully and they make me think of you more.

I won’t say I am happy we’re just friends, but I am not sad we’re not anything more either. I find myself asking me: “why do you love a married woman Richie?” But I also know that I can’t run away from the truth. The truth can never be escaped; it comes after you even when you hide away for ages. I’d be glad to see you, but that’s something you leave at bay for your own reasons. I won’t push you because that’s something that won’t result into a juicy outcome.

I may be caught in the middle, so to speak; I’m an outsider stepping my one foot in between a happy marriage, but I’ll be aggressively stronger and wiser, so as to get on top of the game. Do you ever think of an occurrence that’s irreversible? I think of it a lot; as a matter of fact, I dream about it every night I lay me down to sleep.

Anita, friendship is so intense if it’s going to be true. Are you really ready to be my friend? Aren’t you afraid of the consequences of it all? I know you’re a strong and straight-up lady, but can’t your weakness set in if you set out of your true personality? I am not trying to put you under interrogation here, but I am just concerned about you. And I just want to make sure that what you do is straight from where it feels peaceful. I wouldn’t in a million years want to see you hurt or make a blunder that you’re not determined to make.


I still read through your first ‘aggressive’ letters to me, and I find myself scared of you already. I am sorry to say, but the love of a tough and so beautiful woman is like sweet poison.

Yours faithfully, Richie


Hi Richie,

“An occurrence that’s irreversible?” Well, my marriage is irreversible! And yes, I am ready to be your friend, unless you’re not. I can easily reverse that, you know. My personality is guarded; faith is what keeps me far from my weaknesses, so, yes, I can stand firm and strong when my weakness sets in. Richie, you’re a really funny and unpredictable man.

Last night my husband almost caught me while I was starting to write this letter; I had to hide it away fast. This morning I continued with it while at work, but my boss too, almost read it. And so I guess that’s how funny and weird being your friend is, to me.

I asked you to tell me all about yourself, but you instead go off being insecure. I am not a teenager or a young girl. I am a grownup woman, Richie; so, I know exactly where I’m going when I start walking. Don’t be afraid of what you can’t see or what you don’t really understand. Fear only keeps us numb. I don’t think you would love to be in that kind of situation. Anyway, I believe you’re a man enough to stand your ground in everything you do or say. I won’t say I find you weak; as a matter of fact, from the letters, I’ve realized that you’re a very determined man; one who doesn’t take ‘No!’ for an answer of course.


But as I re-read through your letters every time I’m bored and alone or when I want to checkup your consistence, I find something missing. Richie, are you being all straight with me? You know, I think a lot and