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he called me Pip, and whenever he relapsed into politeness he
called me sir; “when there come up in his shay-cart, Pumblechook.
Which that same identical,” said Joe, going down a new track, “do
comb my ‘air the wrong way sometimes, awful, by giving out up and
down town as it were him which ever had your infant companionation
and were looked upon as a playfellow by yourself.”
“Nonsense. It was you, Joe.”
“Which I fully believed it were, Pip,” said Joe, slightly tossing
his head, “though it signify little now, sir. Well, Pip; this same
identical, which his manners is given to blusterous, come to me at
the Bargemen (wot a pipe and a pint of beer do give refreshment to
the workingman, sir, and do not over stimilate), and his word
were, ‘Joseph, Miss Havisham she wish to speak to you.’”
“Miss Havisham, Joe?”
“‘She wish,’ were Pumblechook’s word, ‘to speak to you.’” Joe sat
and rolled his eyes at the ceiling.
“Yes, Joe? Go on, please.”
“Next day, sir,” said Joe, looking at me as if I were a long way
off, “having cleaned myself, I go and I see Miss A.”
“Miss A., Joe? Miss Havisham?”
“Which I say, sir,” replied Joe, with an air of legal formality, as
if he were making his will, “Miss A., or otherways Havisham. Her
expression air then as follering: ‘Mr. Gargery. You air in
correspondence with Mr. Pip?’ Having had a letter from you, I were
able to say ‘I am.’ (When I married your sister, sir, I said ‘I
will;’ and when I answered your friend, Pip, I said ‘I am.’) ‘Would
you tell him, then,’ said she, ‘that which Estella has come home
and would be glad to see him.’”
I felt my face fire up as I looked at Joe. I hope one remote cause
of its firing may have been my consciousness that if I had known
his errand, I should have given him more encouragement.
“Biddy,” pursued Joe, “when I got home and asked her fur to write
the message to you, a little hung back. Biddy says, “I know he will
be very glad to have it by word of mouth, it is holiday time, you
want to see him, go!” I have now concluded, sir,” said Joe, rising
from his chair, “and, Pip, I wish you ever well and ever prospering
to a greater and a greater height.”
“But you are not going now, Joe?”
“Yes I am,” said Joe.
“But you are coming back to dinner, Joe?”
“No I am not,” said Joe.
Our eyes met, and all the “ir” melted out of that manly heart as
he gave me his hand.
“Pip, dear old chap, life is made of ever so many partings welded
together, as I may say, and one man’s a blacksmith, and one’s a
whitesmith, and one’s a goldsmith, and one’s a coppersmith.
Diwisions among such must come, and must be met as they come. If
there’s been any fault at all to-day, it’s mine. You and me is not
two figures to be together in London; nor yet anywheres else but
what is private, and beknown, and understood among friends. It
ain’t that I am proud, but that I want to be right, as you shall
never see me no more in these clothes. I’m wrong in these clothes.
I’m wrong out of the forge, the kitchen, or off th’ meshes. You
won’t find half so much fault in me if you think of me in my forge
dress, with my hammer in my hand, or even my pipe. You won’t find
half so much fault in me if, supposing as you should ever wish to
see me, you come and put your head in at the forge window and see
Joe the blacksmith, there, at the old anvil, in the old burnt
apron, sticking to the old work. I’m awful dull, but I hope I’ve
beat out something nigh the rights of this at last. And so GOD
bless you, dear old Pip, old chap, GOD bless you!”
I had not been mistaken in my fancy that there was a simple dignity
in him. The fashion of his dress could no more come in its way when
he spoke these words than it could come in its way in Heaven. He
touched me gently on the forehead, and went out. As soon as I could
recover myself sufficiently, I hurried out after him and looked for
him in the neighboring streets; but he was gone.
It was clear that I must repair to our town next day, and in the
first flow of my repentance, it was equally clear that I must stay
at Joe’s. But, when I had secured my box-place by tomorrow’s coach,
and had been down to Mr. Pocket’s and back, I was not by any means
convinced on the last point, and began to invent reasons and make
excuses for putting up at the Blue Boar. I should be an
inconvenience at Joe’s; I was not expected, and my bed would not be
ready; I should be too far from Miss Havisham’s, and she was
exacting and mightn’t like it. All other swindlers upon earth are
nothing to the self-swindlers, and with such pretences did I cheat
myself. Surely a curious thing. That I should innocently take a bad
half-crown of somebody else’s manufacture is reasonable enough;
but that I should knowingly reckon the spurious coin of my own
make as good money! An obliging stranger, under pretence of
compactly folding up my bank-notes for security’s sake, abstracts
the notes and gives me nutshells; but what is his sleight of hand
to mine, when I fold up my own nutshells and pass them on myself as
notes!
Having settled that I must go to the Blue Boar, my mind was much
disturbed by indecision whether or not to take the Avenger. It was
tempting to think of that expensive Mercenary publicly airing his
boots in the archway of the Blue Boar’s posting-yard; it was almost
solemn to imagine him casually produced in the tailor’s shop, and
confounding the disrespectful senses of Trabb’s boy. On the other
hand, Trabb’s boy might worm himself into his intimacy and tell him
things; or, reckless and desperate wretch as I knew he could be,
might hoot him in the High Street, My patroness, too, might hear of
him, and not approve. On the whole, I resolved to leave the Avenger
behind.
It was the afternoon coach by which I had taken my place, and, as
winter had now come round, I should not arrive at my destination
until two or three hours after dark. Our time of starting from the
Cross Keys was two o’clock. I arrived on the ground with a quarter
of an hour to spare, attended by the Avenger,—if I may connect
that expression with one who never attended on me if he could
possibly help it.
At that time it was customary to carry Convicts down to the
dock-yards by stage-coach. As I had often heard of them in the
capacity of outside passengers, and had more than once seen them on
the high road dangling their ironed legs over the coach roof, I had
no cause to be surprised when Herbert, meeting me in the yard, came
up and told me there were two convicts going down with me. But I
had a reason that was an old reason now for constitutionally
faltering whenever I heard the word “convict.”
“You don’t mind them, Handel?” said Herbert.
“O no!”
“I thought you seemed as if you didn’t like them?”
“I can’t pretend that I do like them, and I suppose you don’t
particularly. But I don’t mind them.”
“See! There they are,” said Herbert, “coming out of the Tap. What a
degraded and vile sight it is!”
They had been treating their guard, I suppose, for they had a
gaoler with them, and all three came out wiping their mouths on
their hands. The two convicts were handcuffed together, and had
irons on their legs,—irons of a pattern that I knew well. They
wore the dress that I likewise knew well. Their keeper had a brace
of pistols, and carried a thick-knobbed bludgeon under his arm; but
he was on terms of good understanding with them, and stood with
them beside him, looking on at the putting-to of the horses, rather
with an air as if the convicts were an interesting Exhibition not
formally open at the moment, and he the Curator. One was a taller
and stouter man than the other, and appeared as a matter of course,
according to the mysterious ways of the world, both convict and
free, to have had allotted to him the smaller suit of clothes. His
arms and legs were like great pincushions of those shapes, and his
attire disguised him absurdly; but I knew his half-closed eye at
one glance. There stood the man whom I had seen on the settle at
the Three Jolly Bargemen on a Saturday night, and who had brought
me down with his invisible gun!
It was easy to make sure that as yet he knew me no more than if he
had never seen me in his life. He looked across at me, and his eye
appraised my watch-chain, and then he incidentally spat and said
something to the other convict, and they laughed and slued
themselves round with a clink of their coupling manacle, and looked
at something else. The great numbers on their backs, as if they
were street doors; their coarse mangy ungainly outer surface, as if
they were lower animals; their ironed legs, apologetically
garlanded with pocket-handkerchiefs; and the way in which all
present looked at them and kept from them; made them (as Herbert
had said) a most disagreeable and degraded spectacle.
But this was not the worst of it. It came out that the whole of the
back of the coach had been taken by a family removing from London,
and that there were no places for the two prisoners but on the seat
in front behind the coachman. Hereupon, a choleric gentleman, who
had taken the fourth place on that seat, flew into a most violent
passion, and said that it was a breach of contract to mix him up
with such villainous company, and that it was poisonous, and
pernicious, and infamous, and shameful, and I don’t know what else.
At this time the coach was ready and the coachman impatient, and we
were all preparing to get up, and the prisoners had come over with
their keeper,—bringing with them that curious flavor of
bread-poultice, baize, rope-yarn, and hearthstone, which attends
the convict presence.
“Don’t take it so much amiss, sir,” pleaded the keeper to the angry
passenger; “I’ll sit next you myself. I’ll put ‘em on the outside
of the row. They won’t interfere with you, sir. You needn’t know
they’re there.”
“And don’t blame me,” growled the convict I had recognized. “I
don’t want to go. I am quite ready to stay behind. As fur as I am
concerned any one’s welcome to my place.”
“Or mine,” said the other, gruffly. “I wouldn’t have incommoded
none of you, if I’d had my way.” Then they both laughed, and began
cracking nuts, and spitting the shells about.—As I really think I
should have liked to do myself, if I had been in their place and so
despised.
At length, it was voted that there was no help for the angry
gentleman, and that he must either go in his chance company or
remain behind. So he got into his place, still making complaints,
and the keeper got into the place next him, and the convicts hauled
themselves up as well as they could, and the convict I had
recognized sat behind me with his breath on the hair of my head.
“Good
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