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All this the goggle-eyed mate had said in a resentful and melancholy voice, with pauses, to the gentle murmur of the sea. It was for him a bitter sort of pleasure to have a fresh pair of ears, a newcomer, to whom he could repeat all these matters of grief and suspicion talked over endlessly by the band of Captain Anthonyās faithful subordinates. It was evidently so refreshing to his worried spirit that it made him forget the advisability of a little caution with a complete stranger. But really with Mr. Powell there was no danger. Amused, at first, at these plaints, he provoked them for fun. Afterwards, turning them over in his mind, he became impressed, and as the impression grew stronger with the days his resolution to keep it to himself grew stronger too.
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What made it all the easier to keepāI mean the resolutionāwas that Powellās sentiment of amused surprise at what struck him at first as mere absurdity was not unmingled with indignation. And his years were too few, his position too novel, his reliance on his own opinion not yet firm enough to allow him to express it with any effect. And thenāwhat would have been the use, anyhowāand where was the necessity?
But this thing, familiar and mysterious at the same time, occupied his imagination. The solitude of the sea intensifies the thoughts and the facts of oneās experience which seems to lie at the very centre of the world, as the ship which carries one always remains the centre figure of the round horizon. He viewed the apoplectic, goggle-eyed mate and the saturnine, heavy-eyed steward as the victims of a peculiar and secret form of lunacy which poisoned their lives. But he did not give them his sympathy on that account. No. That strange affliction awakened in him a sort of suspicious wonder.
Onceāand it was at night again; for the officers of the Ferndale keeping watch and watch as was customary in those days, had but few occasions for intercourseāonce, I say, the thick Mr. Franklin, a quaintly bulky figure under the stars, the usual witnesses of his outpourings, asked him with an abruptness which was not callous, but in his simple way:
āI believe you have no parents living?ā
Mr. Powell said that he had lost his father and mother at a very early age.
āMy mother is still alive,ā declared Mr. Franklin in a tone which suggested that he was gratified by the fact. āThe old lady is lasting well. Of course sheās got to be made comfortable. A woman must be looked after, and, if it comes to that, I say, give me a mother. I dare say if she had not lasted it out so well I might have gone and got married. I donāt know, though. We sailors havenāt got much time to look about us to any purpose. Anyhow, as the old lady was there I havenāt, I may say, looked at a girl in all my life. Not that I wasnāt partial to female society in my time,ā he added with a pathetic intonation, while the whites of his goggle eyes gleamed amorously under the clear night sky. āVery partial, I may say.ā
Mr. Powell was amused; and as these communications took place only when the mate was relieved off duty he had no serious objection to them. The mateās presence made the first half-hour and sometimes even more of his watch on deck pass away. If his senior did not mind losing some of his rest it was not Mr. Powellās affair. Franklin was a decent fellow. His intention was not to boast of his filial piety.
āOf course I mean respectable female society,ā he explained. āThe other sort is neither here nor there. I blame no manās conduct, but a well-brought-up young fellow like you knows that thereās precious little fun to be got out of it.ā He fetched a deep sigh. āI wish Captain Anthonyās mother had been a lasting sort like my old lady. He would have had to look after her and he would have done it well. Captain Anthony is a proper man. And it would have saved him from the most foolishāā
He did not finish the phrase which certainly was turning bitter in his mouth. Mr. Powell thought to himself: āThere he goes again.ā He laughed a little.
āI donāt understand why you are so hard on the captain, Mr. Franklin. I thought you were a great friend of his.ā
Mr. Franklin exclaimed at this. He was not hard on the captain. Nothing was further from his thoughts. Friend! Of course he was a good friend and a faithful servant. He begged Powell to understand that if Captain Anthony chose to strike a bargain with Old Nick to-morrow, and Old Nick were good to the captain, he (Franklin) would find it in his heart to love Old Nick for the captainās sake. That was so. On the other hand, if a saint, an angel with white wings came along andāā
He broke off short again as if his own vehemence had frightened him. Then in his strained pathetic voice (which he had never raised) he observed that it was no use talking. Anybody could see that the man was changed.
āAs to that,ā said young Powell, āit is impossible for me to judge.ā
āGood Lord!ā whispered the mate. āAn educated, clever young fellow like you with a pair of eyes on him and some sense too! Is that how a happy man looks? Eh? Young you may be, but you arenāt a kid; and I dare you to say āYes!āā
Mr. Powell did not take up the challenge. He did not know what to think of the mateās view. Still, it seemed as if it had opened his understanding in a measure. He conceded that the captain did not look very well.
āNot very well,ā repeated the mate mournfully. āDo you think a man with a face like that can hope to live his life out? You havenāt knocked about long in this world yet, but you are a sailor, you have been in three or four ships, you say. Well, have you ever seen a shipmaster walking his own deck as if he did not know what he had underfoot? Have you? Damāme if I donāt think that he forgets where he is. Of course he can be no other than a prime seaman; but itās lucky, all the same, he has me on board. I know by this time what he wants done without being told. Do you know that I have had no order given me since we left port? Do you know that he has never once opened his lips to me unless I spoke to him first? I? His chief officer; his shipmate for full six years, with whom he had no cross wordānot once in all that time. Aye. Not a cross look even. True that when I do make him speak to me, there is his dear old self, the quick eye, the kind voice. Could hardly be other to his old Franklin. But whatās the good? Eyes, voice, everythingās miles away. And for all that I take good care never to address him when the poop isnāt clear. Yes! Only we two and nothing but the sea with us. You think it would be all right; the only chief mate he ever hadāMr. Franklin here and Mr. Franklin thereāwhen anything went wrong the first word you would hear about the decks was āFranklin!āāI am thirteen years older than he isāyou would think it would be all right, wouldnāt you? Only we two on this poop on which we saw each other firstāhe a young masterātold me that he thought I would suit him very wellāwe two, and thirty-one days out at sea, and itās no good! Itās like talking to a man standing on shore. I canāt get him back. I canāt get at him. I feel sometimes as if I must shake him by the arm: āWake up! Wake up! You are wanted, sir . . . !ā
Young Powell recognized the expression of a true sentiment, a thing so rare in this world where there are so many mutes and so many excellent reasons even at sea for an articulate man not to give himself away, that he felt something like respect for this outburst. It was not loud. The grotesque squat shape, with the knob of the head as if rammed down between the square shoulders by a blow from a club, moved vaguely in a circumscribed space limited by the two harness-casks lashed to the front rail of the poop, without gestures, hands in the pockets of the jacket, elbows pressed closely to its side; and the voice without resonance, passed from anger to dismay and back again without a single louder word in the hurried delivery, interrupted only by slight gasps for air as if the speaker were being choked by the suppressed passion of his grief.
Mr. Powell, though moved to a certain extent, was by no means carried away. And just as he thought that it was all over, the other, fidgeting in the darkness, was heard again explosive, bewildered but not very loud in the silence of the ship and the great empty peace of the sea.
āThey have done something to him! What is it? What can it be? Canāt you guess? Donāt you know?ā
āGood heavens!ā Young Powell was astounded on discovering that this was an appeal addressed to him. āHow on earth can I know?ā
āYou do talk to that white-faced, black-eyed . . . Iāve seen you talking to her more than a dozen times.ā
Young Powell, his sympathy suddenly chilled, remarked in a disdainful tone that Mrs. Anthonyās eyes were not black.
āI wish to God she had never set them on the captain, whatever colour they are,ā retorted Franklin. āShe and that old chap with the scraped jaws who sits over her and stares down at her dead-white face with his yellow eyesāconfound them! Perhaps you will tell us that his eyes are not yellow?ā
Powell, not interested in the colour of Mr. Smithās eyes, made a vague gesture. Yellow or not yellow, it was all one to him.
The mate murmured to himself. āNo. He canāt know. No! No more than a baby. It would take an older head.ā
āI donāt even understand what you mean,ā observed Mr. Powell coldly.
āAnd even the best head would be puzzled
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