Closer To Heaven - Patrick Sean Lee (rosie project .txt) š
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I had an idea.
āCan we go back to Fatherās house and get some blankets and pillows? Iām very tired, Lashawna.ā
āWe sleep in Fatherās bed!ā said Jerrick.
āYou do?ā
āYes,ā Lashawna said. āItās big enough for all of us, and itās warm and toasty.ā
āI canāt sleep with boys, and at Munsterās house I didnāt sleep with him. My Momma saidā¦ā
āSilly. Iāll sleep in the middle, and then tomorrow morning we can get up and have Rice Krispies. Without milk, though, because itās all sour, and cereal tastes yucky with water,ā Lashawna said giggling.
āThereās water here?ā I asked.
āOf course! Tons of bottles,ā she said. Lashawna jumped up and grabbed my arm. āLetās go, Iām sleepy too.ā
Jerrick had gotten to his feet. He was still smiling, and I didnāt think he ever frowned. I was worried about leaving him, though, because if he couldnāt see, he might bump into everything, or trip on the altar steps, or fall down the back stepsāif he could even make it through the sacristy room.
āWait, Lashawna! We canāt leave Jerrick here. You have to help him.ā
āWhy? He knows his way.ā
āHow? He canāt see,ā I said. I looked back at Jerrick. He walked around me and Lashawna, just like he would lead the way through the dark sacristy room.
āLashawna helped me twice,ā Jerrick said. āThatās all I needed.ā
āIf we walk outside I have to be careful for him,ā Lashawna whispered. āI say, bump. Crack. Curb. Thatās all he needs.ā
I liked that, and I liked Lashawna and Jerrick. I wasnāt afraid to sleep with them. I was happy to.
We were in bed soon, and I asked Lashawna if we could light a candle so that it wouldnāt be dark in Fatherās big bedroom. She said of course, and then she had Jerrick get up and light one because she was stuck in between us and sheād have to climb over her brother or me to go light the candle. I thought of the church after Jerrick lit the little candle beside the bed.
āWait! We didnāt blow out the candles in church!ā I said.
āWe never blow out the candles in church,ā both of them answered at the same time.
āWhy? What if someone sees them and knows weāre here?ā I said.
āEveryone knows weāre here,ā Jerrick said.
āYes, and as long as the candles burn, the prayer we said when we lit them will keep going up to God,ā Lashawna added.
So thatās why my momma lit candles and knelt down to pray every Sunday after Mass. She never told me that. Still, the thought of āeveryoneā knowing made me a little scared.
āWhat if that man who murdered Munster sees them and comes in?ā I asked.
āHe wonāt,ā said Jerrick. āI prayed for our safety when I lit the candle beside you. What did you pray for?ā
āI didnāt. I didnāt know I was supposed to,ā I said.
āWell you can still ask God for something, Amelia. If you had one wish, what would it be tonight?ā Jerrick said.
I knew at once what that would be. That Momma and Daddy could come back. But then I thought about Munster. I wished he hadnāt been murdered. And I thought about Jerrick being blind. There were too many things that were important, so many that one little candle couldnāt make them all come true. I didnāt know what to pray for.
As I thought about all of this, I heard Jerrick begin to snore. I looked over at Lashawna. Her eyes were closed. I prayed that Momma and Daddy were happy, and that somehow they could come back. Thatās what I prayed for before closing my eyes, and I wasnāt afraid that night.
THREEJerrick woke me the next morning. I was so warm under the covers and didnāt want to get up, but he said it was time for breakfast. He stood at the side of the bed, looking straight ahead as usual. That made me feel funny because I still wasnāt used to having people talk to me but not look at me.
āAre you awake?ā he asked when I didnāt say anything.
āYes,ā I answered.
āOkay. Iāll see you in the kitchen. Lashawnaās there already.ā
Jerrick walked around the bed, and then out of the room. If I hadnāt known better, I would never have thought he couldnāt see.
The bedroom was very bright. The curtains at the windows were open, and the sun shined so bright through them. The candle Jerrick had lit the last night was still burning, and as I got out of bed I wondered if my prayer to God would be answered? Or if it maybe needed to keep going over and over until the flame burned out, and then God would hear it?
I pulled on the big pants of Fatherās that were still rolled way up, and I tied the belt, but I didnāt put his big jacket on. Iād slept in the white shirt, and it was all wrinkled now, but I didnāt care because I was sure Lashawna wouldnāt mind, and Jerrick for sure because he couldnāt see it.
The kitchen was a nice room, especially with the sun shining in the windows. The table was in front of one window that looked like a curled upā¦noā¦a U, like the letter U, that was cut off. It was poking out of the house. I donāt know what they call that kind of window, but it reminded me of sitting outdoors when we sat there. And the sun was warm. I could see the grass through the window, and the grass was SO tall because no one had cut it in months and months and months. It fell over because it was so tall, and also because the rainwater on it made it so heavy. It was very green, and parts of it sparkled.
We ate Cornflakes for our breakfast. Jerrick put a little bowl of dried up fruit on the table, too, and some water, but not for my cereal. The dried up fruit was good, and it wasnāt from dead apples or oranges, or any of that. Fruit that had been lying around and never gotten eaten because Father disappeared. It came from a package, and so I knew it was still good to eat. I ate a whole bowl of cornflakes, and three pieces of dried up fruit. Jerrick watched me, but I knew he couldnāt really see me. But he looked at me anyway. Lashawna was at the counter where the sink was. She was wiping her bowl with a towel, and looking inside the pantry.
āWhat do you guys want to do today?ā I asked that after I finished eating my last piece of fruit.
Lashawna put her bowl in the cupboard and turned around.
āI think we should go for a walk. Jerrick and I need sun! We didnāt go outside yesterday at all,ā she said.
I had to think about that, but then I said okay. If a murderer was outside and he was waiting for us, we couldnāt run very fast to get away because I didnāt think Jerrick could run. But I said okay.
āWhere should we go?ā I asked Lashawna.
āLetās go to your house. Iād like to see where you lived.ā Lashawna said that.
āYes, thatād be great! I could feel the steps and the door, and if it has a knocker, I could feelā¦ā
I didnāt like that idea. And so I told them when Jerrick was speaking,ā No! I donāt ever, ever want to go back to my old house because my momma and daddy are still inside and theyāre dead and there are germy flies on them I KNOW, and I donāt want to see that. And besides, Munster lives on the way. Thatās where I stayed until last night when I came here all wet and cold and very hungry. If we go past his house, which was my new house that didnāt have germy flies and didnāt smell bad, maybe the man who murdered him at the mini-mart will be inside, and heāll see us, and then weāll all be dead for sure!ā I didnāt want to go to my old house, or Munsterās.
āBut how would the man know where Munster lives?ā Jerrick asked me.
āI donāt know. Maybe he made Munster tell him before he murdered him.ā
āAre you sure the man murdered Munster?ā Lashawna asked me.
āYes. Munster didnāt come back out, and so if he didnāt come back out, the man got him,ā I said.
āBut you said you didnāt hear the gun,ā Jerrick said to me.
āNo. I didnāt, but then the man probably hit him on the head, and I couldnāt hear that anyway. And after he hit him, he took his gun, and then I knew heād come after me. I donāt want to go to my house or Munsterās.ā
So we decided we wouldnāt go to my house or Munsterās. Lashawna wanted to go to the mini-mart to see if Munster was dead there, but I said no, no, no. So instead we would go somewhere else so that Jerrick could be in the sun. I knew Munster was dead at the mini-mart.
We left Fatherās house and walked away from where I used to live, and there was a park with a playground and sand and lots of trees that wasnāt too far away. Lashawna said, āCurb. Big crackā sometimes when we were walking, but she didnāt hold Jerrickās hand. He just walked by himself. She held my hand, but not because I couldnāt see.
I asked her on the way where she lived because she never told me, and neither did Jerrick. She said that she and Jerrick lived in San Diego, which is a long, long way from Marysville. I asked how she got here, and she said her and Jerrick had come with their parents to visit her mommaās sister the day everything, when it happened, whatever that was. Her mommaās sister, which is her aunt, were in the house with her mommaās husband and her auntās husband, and they were talking. Lashawna and Jerrick were out in their backyard looking at bugsāwell, she wasā because there was no swing set or toys, and she saw a flash of light, and the sky got dark, but Jerrick couldnāt see it. It was a very bright light, and I remembered that too. They stopped looking at bugs and ran in to tell their momma and daddy what theyād seen and they found everyone just dead, like I found my momma and my daddy. They cried, even though Jerrick couldnāt see them all dead. They ran around like I had, trying to tell the neighbors, but all the neighbors were dead, too, even their pets. They went back to their auntās house, which Lashawna said was very close to the park we were walking to, and shook their
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