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Adam was determined to stay no longer; no one wanted him, and no one would notice if he slipped away. As soon as he got out of doors, he began to walk at his habitual rapid pace, hurrying along without knowing why, busy with the painful thought that the memory of this day, so full of honour and promise to him, was poisoned for ever. Suddenly, when he was far on through the Chase, he stopped, startled by a flash of reviving hope. After all, he might be a fool, making a great misery out of a trifle. Hetty, fond of finery as she was, might have bought the thing herself. It looked too expensive for thatāit looked like the things on white satin in the great jewellerās shop at Rosseter. But Adam had very imperfect notions of the value of such things, and he thought it could certainly not cost more than a guinea. Perhaps Hetty had had as much as that in Christmas boxes, and there was no knowing but she might have been childish enough to spend it in that way; she was such a young thing, and she couldnāt help loving finery! But then, why had she been so frightened about it at first, and changed colour so, and afterwards pretended not to care? Oh, that was because she was ashamed of his seeing that she had such a smart thingāshe was conscious that it was wrong for her to spend her money on it, and she knew that Adam disapproved of finery. It was a proof she cared about what he liked and disliked. She must have thought from his silence and gravity afterwards that he was very much displeased with her, that he was inclined to be harsh and severe towards her foibles. And as he walked on more quietly, chewing the cud of this new hope, his only uneasiness was that he had behaved in a way which might chill Hettyās feeling towards him. For this last view of the matter must be the true one. How could Hetty have an accepted lover, quite unknown to him? She was never away from her uncleās house for more than a day; she could have no acquaintances that did not come there, and no intimacies unknown to her uncle and aunt. It would be folly to believe that the locket was given to her by a lover. The little ring of dark hair he felt sure was her own; he could form no guess about the light hair under it, for he had not seen it very distinctly. It might be a bit of her fatherās or motherās, who had died when she was a child, and she would naturally put a bit of her own along with it.
And so Adam went to bed comforted, having woven for himself an ingenious web of probabilitiesāthe surest screen a wise man can place between himself and the truth. His last waking thoughts melted into a dream that he was with Hetty again at the Hall Farm, and that he was asking her to forgive him for being so cold and silent.
And while he was dreaming this, Arthur was leading Hetty to the dance and saying to her in low hurried tones, āI shall be in the wood the day after to-morrow at seven; come as early as you can.ā And Hettyās foolish joys and hopes, which had flown away for a little space, scared by a mere nothing, now all came fluttering back, unconscious of the real peril. She was happy for the first time this long day, and wished that dance would last for hours. Arthur wished it too; it was the last weakness he meant to indulge in; and a man never lies with more delicious languor under the influence of a passion than when he has persuaded himself that he shall subdue it to-morrow.
But Mrs. Poyserās wishes were quite the reverse of this, for her mind was filled with dreary forebodings as to the retardation of to-morrow morningās cheese in consequence of these late hours. Now that Hetty had done her duty and danced one dance with the young squire, Mr. Poyser must go out and see if the cart was come back to fetch them, for it was half-past ten oāclock, and notwithstanding a mild suggestion on his part that it would be bad manners for them to be the first to go, Mrs. Poyser was resolute on the point, āmanners or no manners.ā
āWhat! Going already, Mrs. Poyser?ā said old Mr. Donnithorne, as she came to curtsy and take leave; āI thought we should not part with any of our guests till eleven. Mrs. Irwine and I, who are elderly people, think of sitting out the dance till then.ā
āOh, Your Honour, itās all right and proper for gentlefolks to stay up by candlelightātheyāve got no cheese on their minds. Weāre late enough as it is, anā thereās no lettinā the cows know as they mustnāt want to be milked so early to-morrow morninā. So, if youāll please tā excuse us, weāll take our leave.ā
āEh!ā she said to her husband, as they set off in the cart, āIād sooner haā brewinā day and washinā day together than one oā these pleasurinā days. Thereās no work so tirinā as danglinā about anā starinā anā not rightly knowinā what youāre goinā to do next; and keepinā your face iā smilinā order like a grocer oā market-day for fear people shouldna think you civil enough. Anā youāve nothing to show forāt when itās done, if it isnāt a yallow face wiā eatinā things as disagree.ā
āNay, nay,ā said Mr. Poyser, who was in his merriest mood, and felt that he had had a great day, āa bit oā pleasuringās good for thee sometimes. Anā thee dancāst as well as any of āem, for Iāll back thee against all the wives iā the parish for a light foot anā ankle. Anā it was a great honour for the young squire to ask thee firstāI reckon it was because I sat at thā head oā the table anā made the speech. Anā Hetty tooāshe never had such a partner beforeāa fine young gentleman in regāmentals. Itāll serve you to talk on, Hetty, when youāre an old womanāhow you danced wiā thā young squire the day he come oā age.ā
A crisis
It was beyond the middle of Augustānearly three weeks after the birthday feast. The reaping of the wheat had begun in our north midland county of Loamshire, but the harvest was likely still to be retarded by the heavy rains, which were causing inundations and much damage throughout the country. From this last trouble the Broxton and Hayslope farmers, on their pleasant uplands and in their brook-watered valleys, had not suffered, and as I cannot pretend that they were such exceptional farmers as to love the general good better than their own, you will infer that they were not in very low spirits about the rapid rise in the price of bread, so long as there was hope of gathering in their own corn undamaged; and occasional days of sunshine and drying winds flattered this hope.
The eighteenth of August was one of these days when the sunshine looked brighter in all eyes for the gloom that went before. Grand masses of cloud were hurried across the blue, and the great round hills behind the Chase seemed alive with their flying shadows; the sun was hidden for a moment, and then shone out warm again like a recovered joy; the leaves, still green, were tossed off the hedgerow trees by the wind; around the farmhouses there was a sound of clapping doors; the apples fell in the orchards; and the stray horses on the green sides of the lanes and on the common had their manes blown about their faces. And yet the wind seemed only part of the general gladness because the sun was shining. A merry day for the children, who ran and shouted to see if they could top the wind with their voices; and the grown-up people too were in good spirits, inclined to believe in yet finer days, when the wind had fallen. If only the corn were not ripe enough to be blown out of the husk and scattered as untimely seed!
And yet a day on which a blighting sorrow may fall upon a man. For if it be true that Nature at certain moments seems charged with a presentiment of one individual lot must it not also be true that she seems unmindful, unconscious of another? For there is no hour that has not its births of gladness and despair, no morning brightness that does not bring new sickness to desolation as well as new forces to genius and love. There are so many of us, and our lots are so different, what wonder that Natureās mood is often in harsh contrast with the great crisis of our lives? We are children of a large family, and must learn, as such children do, not to expect that our hurts will be made much ofāto be content with little nurture and caressing, and help each other the more.
It was a busy day with Adam, who of late had done almost double work, for he was continuing to act as foreman for Jonathan Burge, until some satisfactory person could be found to supply his place, and Jonathan was slow to find that person. But he had done the extra work cheerfully, for his hopes were buoyant again about Hetty. Every time she had seen him since the birthday, she had seemed to make an effort to behave all the more kindly to him, that she might make him understand she had forgiven his silence and coldness during the dance. He had never mentioned the locket to her again; too happy that she smiled at himāstill happier because he observed in her a more subdued air, something that he interpreted as the growth of womanly tenderness and seriousness. āAh!ā he thought, again and again, āsheās only seventeen; sheāll be thoughtful enough after a while. And her aunt allays says how clever she is at the work. Sheāll make a wife as Motherāll have no occasion to grumble at, after all.ā To be sure, he had only seen her at home twice since the birthday; for one Sunday, when he was intending to go from church to the Hall Farm, Hetty had joined the party of upper servants from the Chase and had gone home with themāalmost as if she were inclined to encourage Mr. Craig. āSheās takinā too much likinā to them folks iā the housekeeperās room,ā Mrs. Poyser remarked. āFor my part, I was never overfond oā gentlefolksās servantsātheyāre mostly like the fine ladiesā fat dogs, nayther good for barking nor butcherās meat, but onāy for show.ā And another evening she was gone to Treddleston to buy some things; though, to his great surprise, as he was returning home, he saw her at a distance getting over a stile quite out of the Treddleston road. But, when he hastened to her, she was very kind, and asked him to go in again when he had taken her to the yard gate. She had gone a little farther into the fields after coming from Treddleston because she didnāt want to go in, she said: it was so nice to be out of doors, and her aunt always made such a fuss about it if she wanted to go out. āOh, do come in with me!ā she said, as he was going to shake hands with her at the gate, and he could not resist that. So he went in, and Mrs. Poyser was contented with only a slight remark on Hettyās being later than was expected; while Hetty, who had looked out of spirits when he met her, smiled and talked and waited on them all with unusual promptitude.
That was the last time he had seen her; but he meant to make leisure for going to the Farm to-morrow. To-day, he knew, was her day for going to the Chase to sew with the ladyās maid, so he would get as much work done as possible this evening, that the next might be clear.
One piece of work that Adam was superintending was some slight repairs at the Chase Farm, which had been hitherto occupied by Satchell, as bailiff, but which it was now rumoured that the old squire was going to let to a smart man in top-boots, who had been seen to ride over it one day. Nothing but the desire to get a tenant could account for the squireās undertaking repairs, though the Saturday-evening party at Mr. Cassonās agreed over their pipes that no man in his senses would take
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