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class="calibre1">“Yes, my husband finds the work too heavy.”

 

“I sympathize with you. Dr. Steel never would take

club and dispensary work; not wcrth his while, you

know; he is worked to death as it is. The curse of popularity, I tell him. How are the children? I hear the

younger looks very frail and delicate.”

 

Mrs. Steel’s condescension was cunningly conveyed

by her refined drawl. Catherine colored slightly, her

pride repelled by the suave assumption of patronage

Parker Steel’s wife adopted.

 

“Gwen is very well,” she said, curtly.

 

“Ah, one hears so much gossip. Roxton is full of

tattlers. I am often astonished by the strange tales I

hear.”

 

She flashed a smiling yet eloquent look into her rival’s

eyes, and was rewarded by the sudden rush of color that

spread over Catherine Murchison’s face. Mrs. Betty

exulted inwardly. The shaft had flown true, she thought,

and had transfixed the conscience of the originator of the

Pennington scandal.

 

“Please remember me to your husband, Mrs. Murchison,” and she passed on with a glitter of the eyes and a

graceful lifting of the chin, feeling that she had challenged

her rival and seen her quail.

 

But Catherine was thinking of that frosty night in

March when she had found her husband drink drugged

in his study.

CHAPTER VI

A DOCTOR’S life is not lightly to be envied. Like a

traveller in a half-barbarous country, he must be

prepared for all emergencies, trusting to his own motherwit and the resourcefulness of his manhood. He may be

challenged from cock-crow until midnight to do battle

with every physical ill that affects humanity on earth, and

to act as arbiter between life and death. The common

functions of existence are hardly granted him; he is a

species of supramundane creature to whom sleep and

food are scarcely considered vital. However critical the

strain, he must never slacken, never show temper when

pestered by the old women of the sick-room, never lose

the suggestion of sympathy. People will run to catch

him “at his dinner-hour,” poor wretch, and drag him

from bed to discover that some fat old gentleman has

eaten too much crab. Of all men he must appear the

most infallible, the most assured and resolute of philosophers. He walks on the edge of a precipice, for the

glory of a thousand triumphs may be swallowed up in the

blunder of a day.

 

The responsibilities of such a life are heavy, and may

be said to increase with the sensitiveness of the practitioner’s conscience. The man of heart and of ideals will

give out more of the vital essence than the mere intellectual who works like a marvellous machine. Yet, flow of

soul is necessary to true success in the higher spheres of

the healing art. There is a vast difference between the

mere chemist who mixes tinctures in a bottle, and the

psychologist whose personality suggests the cure that he

wishes to complete.

 

James Murchison was a practitioner of the higher

type, a man who wrestled Jacob-like with problems, and

took his responsibilities to heart. He was no clever

automaton, no perfunctory juggler with the woes and

sufferings of his fellows. Life touched him at every turn,

and there was none of the cynical adroitness of the mere

materialist about Murchison. He worked both with his

heart and with his head, a man whose mingled strength

and humility made him beloved by those who knew him

best.

 

The winter’s work had been unusually heavy, and the

burden of it had not lightened with the spring. Murchison enjoyed the grappling of difficulties, that keen

tautness of the intellect that vibrates to necessity. Strong

as he was, the strain of the winter’s work had told on him,

and his wife, ever watchful, had seen that he was spending himself too fast. Interminable night work, the rush

of the crowded hours, and hurried meals, grind down the

toughest constitution. Murchison was not a man to confess easily to exhaustion, possessing the true tenacity of

the Saxon, the spirit that will not realize the nearness of

defeat. It was only by constant pleading that Catherine

persuaded him to consider the wisdom of hiring help.

Sleeplessness, the worker’s warning, had troubled her

husband as the spring drew on.

 

One Wednesday evening in May, Murchison came home

dead tired and faint for want of food. The day had been

rough and stormy, a keen wind whirling the rain in gray

sheets across the country, beating the bloom from the

apple-trees, and laying Miss Gwen’s proud tulips in red

ruin along the borders. Murchison’s visiting-list would

have appalled a man of frailer energy and resolution.

The climbing of interminable stairs, the feeling of pulses,

and all the accurate minutes of the craft, the interviewing

of anxious relatives, slave work in the slums! A premature maternity case had complicated the routine. Murchison looked white and almost hunted when he sat down

at last to dinner.

 

Catherine dismissed the maid and waited on him in

person.

 

“Thanks, dear, this is very sweet of you.”

 

She bent over him and kissed him on the forehead.

 

“You look tired to death.”

 

“Not quite that, dear; I have been rushed off my legs

and the flesh is human.”

 

“Crocker will send a suitable man down in a day or

two. He can take the club work off your hands. You

have finished for tonight?”

 

He lay back in his chair, the lines of strain smoothed

from his face a little, the driven look less evident in his

eyes.

 

“Only a consultation or two, I hope. I shall get to

bed early. Ah, coffee, that is good!”

 

Catherine played and sang to him in the drawingroom

after dinner, with the lamp turned low and a brave fire

burning on the hearth. Murchison had run up-stairs to

kiss his children, and was lying full length on the sofa

when the “detestable bell” broke in upon a slumber song.

 

The inevitable message marred the relaxation of the

man’s mind and body, and the tired slave of sick humanity found himself doomed to a night’s watching.

 

“What is it, dear?”

 

He had read the note that the maid had brought him.

 

“No peace for the wicked!” and he almost groaned;

“a maternity case. Confound the woman, she might

have left me a night’s rest!”

 

His wife looked anxious, worried for him in her heart.

 

“How absolutely hateful! Can’t Hicks act for you

tonight?”

 

“No, dear, I promised my services.”

 

“Will it take long?”

 

“A first case all night, probably.”

 

He got up wearily, threw the letter into the fire, and

going to his study took up his obstetric bag and examined

it to see that he had all he needed. Catherine was waiting for him with his coat and scarf, wishing for the moment that the Deity had arranged otherwise for the

bringing of children into the world.

 

“Shall you walk?” she asked.

 

“Yes, it is only Carter Street. Go to bed, dear, don’t

wait up.”

 

She kissed him, and let her head rest for a moment on

his shoulder.

 

“I wish I could do the work for you, dear.”

 

He laughed, a tired laugh, looking dearly at her, and

went out into the dark.

 

A vague restlessness took possession of Catherine that

night, when she was left alone in the silent house. She

had sent the servants to bed, and drawing a chair before

the fire, tried to forget herself in the pages of romance.

 

Color and passion had no glamour for her in print, however. It was as though some silent watcher stood behind her chair, and willed her to brood on thoughts that

troubled her heart.

 

She put the book aside at last, and sat staring at the

fire, listening to the wind that moaned and sobbed about

the house. The curtains swayed before the windows,

and she could hear the elm-trees in the garden groaning

as though weary of the day’s unrest. There was something in the nature of the night that gave a sombre setting

to her thoughts. She remembered her husband’s tired

and jaded face, and her very loneliness enhanced her

melancholy.

 

The Dutch clock in the hall struck eleven, the antique

whir of wheels sounding strange in the sleeping house.

Catherine stirred the fire together, rose and put out the

lamp. She lit her candle in the hall, leaving a light burning there, and climbed the stairs slowly to her room.

Instinct led her to cross the landing and enter the nursery

where her children slept.

 

The two little beds stood one in either corner beside

the fireplace, each headed by some favorite picture, and

covered with red quilts edged with white. Gwen was

sleeping with a doll beside her, her hair tied up with a

blue ribbon. The boy had a box of soldiers on the bed,

and one fist cuddled a brass cannon.

 

Catherine stood and looked at them with a mother’s

tenderness in her eyes. They spelled life to her these

little ones, flesh of her flesh, bone of her bone. They

were her husband’s children, and they seemed to bring

into her heart that night a deep rush of tenderness towards the man who had given her motherhood. All the

joy and sorrow that they had shared together stole up

like the odor of a sacrifice.

 

“When the strength’s out of a man, the devil’s in.”

 

She remembered those words he had spoken, and shuddered. Was it prophetic, this voice that came to her out

of the deeps of her own heart? Tenderly, wistfully, she

bent over each sleeping child, and stole a kiss from the

land of dreams. Betty Steel’s speech recurred to her as

she passed to her own room, feeling lonely because the

arms she yearned for would not hold her close that night.

 

Catherine went to bed, but she did not sleep. Her

brain seemed clear as a starlit sky, the thoughts floating

through it like frail clouds over the moon. She heard the

wind wailing, the rain splashing against the windows, the

slow voice of the hall clock measuring out the hours.

Some unseen power seemed to keep her wakeful and

afraid, restless in her loneliness, listening for the sound

of her husband’s return.

 

The clock struck five before she heard the jar of a

closing door. Footsteps crossed the hall, and she heard

some one moving in the room below. For some minutes

she sat listening in bed, waiting to hear her husband’s

step upon the stairs. Her heart beat strangely when he

did not come; the room felt cold to her as she shivered and

listened.

 

A sudden, vague dread seized her. She slipped out of

bed, lit the candle with trembling hands, and throwing

her dressing-gown round her, went out on to the landing.

The lamp was still burning in the hall, and the door of

the diningroom stood ajar. Shading the candle behind

her hand, she went silently down the stairs into the hall.

The only sound she heard was the clink of a glass.

 

“James, husband!”

 

Catherine stood on the threshold, her hair loose about

her, the candle quivering in her hand. For the moment

there was an agony of reproach upon her face. Then she

had swayed forward, snatched something from the table,

and broke it upon the floor.

 

“My God, Kate, forgive me!”

 

He sank down into a chair and buried his head in his

arms upon the table. Catherine bent over him, her

hands resting on his shoulders.

 

“Oh, my beloved, I had dreaded this.”

 

He groaned.

 

“Miserable beast that I am!”

 

“No, no, you are tired,

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