I Can't Deal with the Pain of Losing you - Vanessa K. Alcaraz (feel good books .txt) 📗

Rmembering Our past

Going through my ming how jack and I were almost getting msrried, How I was so close of calling myself Angela Hodgins. But one stupid thing I said was," Jack, im not ready to be married yet". An instead of pushing back the wedding he told me," Angela I don't know about you but I feel that we shouldn't wait. We love eachother so why wait"? Exactly and I did the most stupiest thing in my life I told him that," if you can't respect my wishes and push the wedding back then whats the point on getting married anyway! Then he had to push his luck and tell me," Or is it because you dont love me? Cause it seems that everytime I try to make something happen, you always say no! There those words he said,"YOU DON'T LOVE ME". I loved him so much and maybe i was scared to be rushed into marrige, but I loved that man with all my heart. Sfter hearing him say those words I just called it's over between us and left.

There I am walking though my job's doors also known as the Jeffersonian. I worked here for a few years and not only that my ex-fiance works here to. I wish could just leave and never come back, But I could never do that my freinds are here and I can't just leavr them without saying good-bye. Seeing Hodgins at his station bring back old memories. T o avoid him I always rush to my office everyday. It might be a year but it just doesn't feel right to be talking to man that accuse me of not loving him even though it was a lie. an he has a new girlfriend anyway, her name is Elana. i hope Elana never comes over and talk to me, I wouldn't be able to hold in all the mean things I would say. Well that's just love babe, well to me.

Working in my office , bored of doing work that is not needed my phone goes off, hoping it was no one that I want to talk to. It was actually an old friend of mines from California. He called and asked me if he could sign me to his record label and I told him I can't my heart belongs where I am now but maybe soon. Telling how great I was when I was a popstar was fun the glamor, the fans, the money was all great but touring every free minute I had, missing my friends and Family wasn't fun so I gave up on singing and went to college and thats where I got here.

I was about to leave when the gang asked me if I want to come with them to the Founding Farthers Bar, I was about to say yes when Elana came up o Hodgins and was going to join also so I respectfully decline their answer and turn my heel to walk towards the exit when they said why not, so then I had to say,"Well im not in the mood, and I have alot of things I have to do so next time.

Then Elana had to say," I hope you do come next time, I really don't know anything about you excpet that your friends with Hodgins and your an amazing artist". So I turned around to face her and said."yah, well see you uys tomorrow". an left walked over to my car and started to dial the number I would never do for the rest of my life. three rings till the person had to pick up and then the other person voice was surprised that I called him.

Text: The photo on the cover belongs to shippers-united.com
Publication Date: 12-05-2010

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