Doctor Thorne - Anthony Trollope (historical books to read .txt) 📗

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“Then it is indeed impossible that you should be received at

Greshamsbury.”

 

“At present, quite so, no doubt: in saying so, Lady Arabella, you

only repeat the answer I made to your first question. I can now go

to Greshamsbury only in one light: that of Mr Gresham’s accepted

daughter-in-law.”

 

“And that is perfectly out of the question; altogether out of the

question, now and for ever.”

 

“I will not dispute with you about that; but, as I said before, my

being at Beatrice’s wedding is not to be thought of.”

 

Lady Arabella sat for a while silent, that she might meditate, if

possible, calmly as to what line of argument she had now better take.

It would be foolish in her, she thought, to return home, having

merely expressed her anger. She had now an opportunity of talking to

Mary which might not again occur: the difficulty was in deciding in

what special way she should use the opportunity. Should she threaten,

or should she entreat? To do her justice, it should be stated, that

she did actually believe that the marriage was all but impossible;

she did not think that it could take place. But the engagement might

be the ruin of her son’s prospects, seeing how he had before him one

imperative, one immediate duty—that of marrying money.

 

Having considered all this as well as her hurry would allow her,

she determined first to reason, then to entreat, and lastly, if

necessary, to threaten.

 

“I am astonished! you cannot be surprised at that, Miss Thorne: I am

astonished at hearing so singular a confession made.”

 

“Do you think my confession singular, or is it the fact of my being

engaged to your son?”

 

“We will pass over that for the present. But do let me ask you, do

you think it possible, I say possible, that you and Frank should be

married?”

 

“Oh, certainly; quite possible.”

 

“Of course you know that he has not a shilling in the world.”

 

“Nor have I, Lady Arabella.”

 

“Nor will he have were he to do anything so utterly hostile to his

father’s wishes. The property, you are aware, is altogether at Mr

Gresham’s disposal.”

 

“I am aware of nothing about the property, and can say nothing about

it except this, that it has not been, and will not be inquired after

by me in this matter. If I marry Frank Gresham, it will not be for

the property. I am sorry to make such an apparent boast, but you

force me to do it.”

 

“On what then are you to live? You are too old for love in a cottage,

I suppose?”

 

“Not at all too old; Frank, you know is ‘still quite a boy.’”

 

Impudent hussy! forward, ill-conditioned saucy minx! such were

the epithets which rose to Lady Arabella’s mind; but she politely

suppressed them.

 

“Miss Thorne, this subject is of course to me very serious; very

ill-adapted for jesting. I look upon such a marriage as absolutely

impossible.”

 

“I do not know what you mean by impossible, Lady Arabella.”

 

“I mean, in the first place, that you two could not get yourselves

married.”

 

“Oh, yes; Mr Oriel would manage that for us. We are his parishioners,

and he would be bound to do it.”

 

“I beg your pardon; I believe that under all the circumstances it

would be illegal.”

 

Mary smiled; but she said nothing. “You may laugh, Miss Thorne, but I

think you will find that I am right. There are still laws to prevent

such fearful distress as would be brought about by such a marriage.”

 

“I hope that nothing I shall do will bring distress on the family.”

 

“Ah, but it would; don’t you know that it would? Think of it, Miss

Thorne. Think of Frank’s state, and of his father’s state. You know

enough of that, I am sure, to be well aware that Frank is not in a

condition to marry without money. Think of the position which Mr

Gresham’s only son should hold in the county; think of the old name,

and the pride we have in it; you have lived among us enough to

understand all this; think of these things, and then say whether it

is possible such a marriage should take place without family distress

of the deepest kind. Think of Mr Gresham; if you truly love my son,

you could not wish to bring on him all this misery and ruin.”

 

Mary now was touched, for there was truth in what Lady Arabella said.

But she had no power of going back; her troth was plighted, and

nothing that any human being could say should shake her from it. If

he, indeed, chose to repent, that would be another thing.

 

“Lady Arabella,” she said, “I have nothing to say in favour of this

engagement, except that he wishes it.”

 

“And is that a reason, Mary?”

 

“To me it is; not only a reason, but a law. I have given him my

promise.”

 

“And you will keep your promise even to his own ruin?”

 

“I hope not. Our engagement, unless he shall choose to break it off,

must necessarily be a long one; but the time will come—”

 

“What! when Mr Gresham is dead?”

 

“Before that, I hope.”

 

“There is no probability of it. And because he is headstrong, you,

who have always had credit for so much sense, will hold him to this

mad engagement?”

 

“No, Lady Arabella; I will not hold him to anything to which he does

not wish to be held. Nothing that you can say shall move me: nothing

that anybody can say shall induce me to break my promise to him. But

a word from himself will do it. One look will be sufficient. Let him

give me to understand, in any way, that his love for me is injurious

to him—that he has learnt to think so—and then I will renounce my

part in this engagement as quickly as you could wish it.”

 

There was much in this promise, but still not so much as Lady

Arabella wished to get. Mary, she knew, was obstinate, but yet

reasonable; Frank, she thought, was both obstinate and unreasonable.

It might be possible to work on Mary’s reason, but quite impossible

to touch Frank’s irrationality. So she persevered—foolishly.

 

“Miss Thorne—that, is, Mary, for I still wish to be thought your

friend—”

 

“I will tell you the truth, Lady Arabella: for some considerable time

past I have not thought you so.”

 

“Then you have wronged me. But I will go on with what I was saying.

You quite acknowledge that this is a foolish affair?”

 

“I acknowledge no such thing.”

 

“Something very much like it. You have not a word in its defence.”

 

“Not to you: I do not choose to be put on my defence by you.”

 

“I don’t know who has more right; however, you promise that if Frank

wishes it, you will release him from his engagement.”

 

“Release him! It is for him to release me, that is, if he wishes it.”

 

“Very well; at any rate, you give him permission to do so. But will

it not be more honourable for you to begin?”

 

“No; I think not.”

 

“Ah, but it would. If he, in his position, should be the first to

speak, the first to suggest that this affair between you is a foolish

one, what would people say?”

 

“They would say the truth.”

 

“And what would you yourself say?”

 

“Nothing.”

 

“What would he think of himself?”

 

“Ah, that I do not know. It is according as that may be, that he will

or will not act at your bidding.”

 

“Exactly; and because you know him to be high-minded, because you

think that he, having so much to give, will not break his word to

you—to you who have nothing to give in return—it is, therefore,

that you say that the first step must be taken by him. Is that

noble?”

 

Then Mary rose from her seat, for it was no longer possible for her

to speak what it was in her to say, sitting there leisurely on her

sofa. Lady Arabella’s worship of money had not hitherto been so

brought forward in the conversation as to give her unpardonable

offence; but now she felt that she could no longer restrain her

indignation. “To you who have nothing to give in return!” Had she not

given all that she possessed? Had she not emptied his store into his

lap? that heart of hers, beating with such genuine life, capable of

such perfect love, throbbing with so grand a pride; had she not given

that? And was it not that, between him and her, more than twenty

Greshamsburys, nobler than any pedigree? “To you who have nothing to

give,” indeed! This to her who was so ready to give everything!

 

“Lady Arabella,” she said, “I think that you do not understand me,

and that it is not likely that you should. If so, our further talking

will be worse than useless. I have taken no account of what will be

given between your son and me in your sense of the word giving. But

he has professed to—to love me”—as she spoke, she still looked on

the lady’s face, but her eyelashes for a moment screened her eyes,

and her colour was a little heightened—“and I have acknowledged that

I also love him, and so we are engaged. To me my promise is sacred. I

will not be threatened into breaking it. If, however, he shall wish

to change his mind, he can do so. I will not upbraid him; will not,

if I can help it, think harshly of him. So much you may tell him if

it suits you; but I will not listen to your calculations as to how

much or how little each of us may have to give to the other.”

 

She was still standing when she finished speaking, and so she

continued to stand. Her eyes were fixed on Lady Arabella, and her

position seemed to say that sufficient words had been spoken, and

that it was time that her ladyship should go; and so Lady Arabella

felt it. Gradually she also rose; slowly, but tacitly, she

acknowledged that she was in the presence of a spirit superior to her

own; and so she took her leave.

 

“Very well,” she said, in a tone that was intended to be

grandiloquent, but which failed grievously; “I will tell him that he

has your permission to think a second time on this matter. I do not

doubt but that he will do so.” Mary would not condescend to answer,

but curtsied low as her visitor left the room. And so the interview

was over.

 

The interview was over, and Mary was alone. She remained standing as

long as she heard the footsteps of Frank’s mother on the stairs; not

immediately thinking of what had passed, but still buoying herself up

with her hot indignation, as though her work with Lady Arabella was

not yet finished; but when the footfall was no longer heard, and the

sound of the closing door told her that she was in truth alone, she

sank back in her seat, and, covering her face with her hands, burst

into bitter tears.

 

All that doctrine about money was horrible to her; that insolent

pretence, that she had caught at Frank because of his worldly

position, made her all but ferocious; but Lady Arabella had not the

less spoken much that was true. She did think of the position which

the heir of Greshamsbury should hold in