Optimality Of I Potentiality - Santosh Jha (best free ebook reader .txt) 📗

years back, my lower back pain came to stay as a permanent thing in my life. Initially, the pain was very crippling in the morning and as the day progressed, it was bearable. I sort of accepted that as it was something very common, especially for tall man like me, I ignored it. I did some yoga exercise but it worsened the pain. In the next two months, pain and stiffness worsened and it became tough for me to do even my daily routine. I had in my mind the ‘magic’ that I had earlier experimented as only a year back, I had repeated this successfully with another fever bout. However, I realized that as lower back was something always there with me, even since my youth days and so I believed it was something related with my skeletal frame, which was naturally deteriorating with age. I was reluctant to repeat my experiment with back pain as I was sure it was not a malaise but a physical reality of a degenerative body that was only natural.

This time, it all happened unplanned and spontaneous. One morning not only the back pain was acute and intense but also, the pain moved up to upper back and reached bottom of my neck. The whole day, I had nothing to do and there was no business at hand. I just kept lying on my bed, was silent and as usual, surrendered myself to the situation. I didn’t sing. I could not as even breathing was a tough ask. Didn’t remember my father, didn’t invoke divinity. I simply focused on my pain. It was like I called up my pain and sat with it and respectfully and humbly showed up my tears. I remembered a folklore about a fakeer (hermit) who wailed and wept inconsolably and cured any diseased person who came to him. I wept and wailed and all along consciously focused on the pain as if it was a person and I was directing my tears and wails to ‘him’…

Nothing magical happened next day. Probably, the pain and intensity were the same. However, next day, there were troubles with my mother. She had serious trouble with her health and I simply forgot my own self and almost subconsciously dived into a routine of unending work to extend best possible care and support to her. Almost 15 days passed and as she continued to be serious all these days, I simply could not even register the actuality of severity of my own pain and incapacitation. My mother started to be well and I too had some leisure time first time in 15 days. Suddenly, I registered that somehow I had managed single-handedly everything in past 15 days, even when my condition was such that I even had huge trouble moving around. I realized the lower back pain was still there but very mild and even disappeared for day or two and would again come back. In months to come, the inflammation that was so intense that even slight press of the affected area was impossible, I could now massage it and felt no pain. Of course, lower back pain is not fully gone but it is not permanent; comes back occasionally and that too very mild, whenever I overstretch things.

Similar success happened with what looked like initial prostate trouble. It is common in maternal side of my family and I was already expecting it. This experiment was somewhat similar to what had happened with back pain. Again, it was like summoning the problem, having an audience with it and respectfully expressing my incapacitation with simplicity of honesty and humility. This time, there were no tears, no wails just an intense and long conscious talk with my own ‘self’. Things began to improve after a week and I kept the ‘talk process’ on for two-three times…

Most interesting and very appealing is the last experience, which happened a few months back. I had tooth pain and it had lasted a week. I rarely take a pain killer but I did all home remedies like salt-turmeric paste rubbing, clove oil, etc. No relief. After a week, the pain shot up and spread to ears and forehead. The pain was shooting and pulsating, making it hard even to sleep. I took painkillers reluctantly for two days but it only provided relief for few hours. The pain intensified.

On probably 9th day of my tooth pain, it was unbearable and still, there was no rest possible. I had a long day of work and it could not be possibly avoided. As I mustered up courage to begin the day with my work, it flashed in my mind that I should do the experiment that had thrice been successful. However, deep inside, I felt this time it wouldn’t work as I thought, as I had planned it, my brain has already got aware that I was consciously attempting to selfishly use the experiment for relieving pain and that would alert my subconscious. I dropped the idea.

An hour later, I changed my mind and thought, why not take a chance, the pain is killing me, what is the loss; anyway I am up and doing my work. This time however, very consciously, I changed the core element of my experiment. I chose a song I had heard from the legendary musician of India, Bharat Ratna, Ustad Bismillah Khan Saheb, based on Raag Bhairav Of Indian classical musical tradition that is worded like, ‘Allah Hi Allah Jalle Shan Allah… Rim jhim Baras Ho Noor Tazalla… Allah Hi Allah…(A praise of the almighty Allah).

I kept with my work and recited the composition 40-50 times throughout the day. It is irrelevant, yet being mentioned just for information that I am born Hindu, Brahmin but do not engage in the question of traditional religion and divinity. The day passed and late in the night, I could manage to sleep. It was a dreamless sleep and so deep that I could not even register how long I had slept. Early morning, I woke up an hour before sunrise on my fixed time. It was winter night and I had my quilt over me. As I awoke, I felt numbness in my body. It took a few seconds before I could register that I could move my body. Seconds later I could realize I was in a pool of sweat and as I checked my skin, I could feel that sweating had been profuse and probably the whole night as there was thick sticky layer on my skin. Probably after five minutes I could shift my attention to my tooth pain, which was still there but felt very much bearable. As the day progressed, the pain died down considerably and in the next two days, there was only this somatic sensation that reminded that there was this massive pain there. Third day, everything was normal…

Before we proceed to interpretation of different probable aspects of the experiments and experiences sketched above, there are a few important things that need categorical mention. The experiments may seem to suggest religious insinuations as it may look like God or divinity are being invoked and connected with. However, I must make it amply clear that it was not. My position regarding God and divinity is neither atheist nor a theist nor an agnostic. I have already written an eBook on this issue titled, ‘I Am God’. We shall deal with it later.

Secondly, it may seem that experiment is primarily associated with pain, physical trouble and its cure, but I must say it is not. The broad idea is about a situation of destabilization of any sort and then the way out of it. The experiments may seem like an intangible process facilitating a solution of tangible trouble but it can also be intangible situations too. These four experiences or experiments have been mentioned for ease of accepting a hypothesis about media and communication of consciousness.

The experiments narrated above broadly falls in the domain of three probabilities. Though I have experimented and experienced things and successfully worked out a process of solution and relief, I shall not say what exactly it is. I shall rather analyze all possible aspects and dimensions of these processes and shall always call them as probabilities. I shall also appeal you not to fall for any interpretation or conclusion and always remain skeptic. We are not dealing here with science, which itself is not always above the scope of skepticism. We are essentially attempting scientific philosophizing, building up probabilities to unravel and decipher the entire spectrum of realism that ‘I’ or self can associate itself with. That is why I said we shall discuss these experiments and experiences under three probabilities.

The first probability is that we can say, there is no definitive link between process of conscious input of emotional appeal and cure or subsidence of trouble. Why? Because, we all know, even while the emotional processes may be accepted as effecting some relief to the pain and disability, there are still many other elements both tangible and intangible working towards the same goal. Like, we can say, most fevers have a cycle and it anyways comes to an end. Also, body’s own immune system is working, which takes it time and may culminate on a particular time-space coinciding with the emotional process. Also, some sort of medication is there and it also works gradually. The simple point is as emotional appeal is only one among many processes going on simultaneously, we cannot definitively say, emotional process alone did the solution or it alone was the dominant element. True it is as such a finality of assertion can be accepted only when such experiments have a sample size as big and diverse as possible. Four experiments is a very miniscule sample size. We shall analyze this probability later…

True that there always are multiple elements in milieus inside the body and outside working simultaneously on a situation and they keep working silently to a point when a finality of its shape is unraveled and installed. However, it is very much possible that emotional processes catalyze all other elements, speeding up and optimizing the cure mechanism.

The third probability is that conscious emotional elements are the singular media that matters as it alone has the communication potential and pathways that body-brain media accepts, which then in turn activates all other elements of immunity within to begin the work. In other words, body-brain mechanism essentially has the cure and magic that finally works but, it is this language of emotion or thoughtfulness, or this communication causality of emotions that brain and body either listens to or lends critical importance to for any action. This probability rests on the premise that subconscious processes probably require clear and categorical ‘critical’ communication from conscious layer of self or ‘I’ to work out actionable processes for solutions. In other words, subconscious is a neutral media but requires specific ‘communication’ from conscious part to actualize or at least catalyze certain causality.

Ideally, how our brain functions and how different layers of consciousnesses connect and communicate with each other is not something that should be talked in terms of probabilities and philosophizing. However, as contemporary science has not yet fully and irrevocably concluded this knowledge, we have this freedom and also the necessity to explore all probabilities. These probabilities themselves have been made possible because of great deal of objective and definitive knowledge that science has provided us. Also, there is surely no better empowerment for an individual to have inquisitiveness and knowledge about how our body-mind works and how we, as conscious selves can effectively use this ‘media’ of body-mind mechanism to attain optimal wellness and success in life and living. Therefore, we are always better off analyzing all possible ‘causalities’ of this media and communication that our conscious selves can have. This is what we are attempting in this eBook.

Gradually, we shall move towards a sense or system of Everythingness that may be accepted as the right