36 days - Katerina Rose (best ereader for pc txt) 📗

around here" I mumbled to myself as I opened the door.

Tyler at the door again.

"Oh, Hey... wow I did it again didn't I?" He laughed.

"Huh? Oh, no.. I was awake. Apparently my phone has an active social life because it refuses to stop ringing" ---"what time is it anyway?" I asked

"Its 11:30"

"Well super, would you like some coffee? I sure would" I turned around and left the door open for him. I tossed my blanket to the couch and grabbed my jeans off the floor. I should really start doing laundry.

Went into my bedroom and slipped them on, Came back out and Tyler was now in my living room. My phone continued to go off behind him on the coffee table.

"Your not kidding" he looked down at it, "you've had 4 missed calls just since ive been standing here"

"yeah well, guess they can come find me if its an emergency" I rolled my eyes and grabbed my bag off the table "Coffee?"

He swiped my phone off the table and followed me out.

He handed me the phone in the hallway and it was Levi calling me repeatedly. I shut the phone off and kept walking. Anything having to do with Daniel was not my concern anymore.

We walked down the hallway to the staircase, and out the front door of the apartment complex.

Daniel was standing by my car.

Tyler followed me.

"Go home" I yelled.

Daniel looked up at me "Who the F- Is this?"

"None of your business Daniel, Your WIFE miss you yet?" I snapped as I pushed him to get to my drivers side door.

Tyler tried to go to the passengers side Daniel started for him. "Did you know she's taken? she's with me" He said and attempted to get into Tyler's face.

"Hey--" Tyler faced him "Back up man clearly she doesn't want you around"

Daniel looked like he had been awake for days, he was ragged and had a crazy look on his face.

Daniel pushed farther into Tyler's face. Tyler pushed him back.

"Guys--"

Daniel pushed Tyler back towards the car and Tyler's back was pushed up against it.

"Daniel GO HOME!" I yelled and was growing more angry by the second.

Daniel backed off for a moment and focused on me "THIS GUY!?"! He shouted.

"Go home! your Wife needs you doesn't she!? We aren't together, You blew that forever ago, go deal with your problems!"

Daniel came around to my side of the car and grabbed me by my arms "YOUR my problem, Cassie! I can't just let this go! I'm In love with you! I don't want sara! I don't want this! I want you! I just want it to go back to the way it was! I can't do this! I don't want her!" He continued to shout.

Tyler came around to our side and tried to wedge himself between us because Daniels grip was hurting my arms.

"hey, man your hurting her, back up a second" Tyler said as calm as he could. I could tell he wanted to defend me further but didnt want it to turn into something.

Daniel pushed Tyler off "back up this doesn't concern you pretty boy" he snapped.

Tyler tried to come back and I forced myself out of Daniels one arm grip at that point. I pushed Tyler back and told him to get in the car.

Tyler stood there a moment then walked away.

I looked at Daniel, clearly distraught.

"We can't do this, we don't belong together, this is fate telling us its not supposed to happen, she's pregnant!" I sighed "Can't you understand this is killing me? Every time you come here you KILL ME because I have to let you go to someone else! Don't you understand that!? I can't do this! It hurts too much! So just go home and let me be! Please!" I started crying and got in my car. Left Daniel standing to the side. Tyler didn't speak but was sitting in the passenger seat. I pulled out of the parking lot and drove away. I prayed to God Daniel wouldn't keep doing this to me.


I drove around the corner to the starbucks and sat in the parking lot for a moment. I was sure I blew any chance with Tyler that I had now and I was embarrassed and mad.

I looked at Tyler, eyes watery. "I'm so sorry"

"Oh that wasn't your fault Cassie I'm sorry for you, is this your life? No wonder you said it was drama" he sighed "You don't deserve that"

I stayed silent for a moment, gathered myself and then spoke "Look, I'm not looking for anything right now, I just want you to know that up front. I'm better off being someone's friend because I'm damaged right now. If you want to be my friend that's what I need, if its anything more than that, I don't know if I can handle this-- I'm probably not making any sense---"

He smiled "Hey, its okay, i'm not looking for anything either. I just got out of a relationship myself, I'd prefer this be nothing but friends either, I think we've both got some baggage"--

a pause in the conversation, I was mortified I had just had to endure that side of Daniel. This just wasn't what I needed today- Or ever. I left all this drama back in Aus...

"lets just go get some coffee? " He smiled breaking the silence.

I half smiled and followed him out of the car...
chapter 16

Months passed. I hadn't heard a word from Daniel. I closed the book on that part of my life. Tyler and I kept close company. Found a good friend in him. I suspected he wanted more but he was gracious enough not to push me. I was still not ready for anything but being single. Frankly getting back into my music was what I wanted. I thought it was time to call the band together and see where we were.

"We need to record again guys" Levi pointed out. I had invited them over to have a band meeting in the living room. Tyler was over as well, I figured he had been around for the bad, he might as well be involved in the calm aspects of my life as well.

"Have you written anything lately Cass?" Ally asked.

"I can't because our cd will come out like a blog of hate letters" I half laughed.

"The greatest bands create music from their life" Tyler said "I say go for it, screw who it hurts"

"Finally! Someone with my kind of attitude" Levi laughed and pointed at Tyler.

"It would be geared towards certain people, they would know who it was about" I said.

"Who cares" Ally said. "This is about the music, writing calms you down, this is how you vent anyway isn't it? Just create some stuff"

"Well to be honest I already have" I sighed. I got up and went to get my journal out of my room.

I brought the journal out and tossed it to Levi. "Enter at your own risk" I walked into the kitchen to get a bottle of wine. Letting them read my private lyrics was going to stress me out.

I came back with a few glasses and poured myself one.

Sitting on the floor I saw Levi's reaction.

"Wow!".... "Wow!"...

"Really? Let me read it!" Ally said getting up and sitting next to Levi.

I put my hand over my face. "Oh this can't be good" I sighed.

"Oh my gosh Cass, you really shred them dont you?"

"Ok Ok thats enough!" I got up and snatched the book from them.

"I want to see" Tyler said snatching the book from me.

He was too quick.. and I had a glass of wine in my hands... I sat back down and waited for him to get through a few lines.

"I can actually hear the tune in my head" Tyler said.

Levi "Really?"

"Yeah is your guitar around?"

Ally took off for my bed room and grabbed my electric.

I don't play as often as I would like but its always there to strum out songs to.


She came back a moment later, with the book in front of Tyler he took the guitar from Ally and began strumming a song to my lyrics.
Ally grabbed a piece of paper to help them write down the notes in the guitar. I sat there stunned. Did they think I was going to let them use my most personal thoughts on stage?

Tyler began to sing a little. I had never heard his voice. So raspy, so sweet. I suddenly heard my lyrics become a song and it was almost impossible to say no.

A few moments later Tyler stopped and we had a song...

Within a few hours my entire notebook became 7 more songs, with a mixture of Levi Tyler Ally and Myself, we created almost an entire new demo.

Days turned into weeks and after meeting a few more times we completed our demo and had it ready for Alex to help us record again. I missed the studio
It had been so long since I'd screamed my heart out and heard it played back to me. I couldn't wait to get back to it!

Monday morning weeks after our band meeting Tyler accompanied me to the studio. Alex met us at the door. He had the demo over night today we were supposed to record for real.

"Come in guys!" he said hugging me "How have you been cassie!? You look great kid"

"I'm good! How's leah and the baby?"

"Good good... Healthy and Happy thats what matters" He smiled and greeted Tyler. The official meeting though they knew of each other by now.

We entered the studio and sat down Alex walked in behind us and leaned against the sound board.

"So I've been up reviewing the demo all night, and I have a radical suggestion"

"Okay?"

"Why don't we let Tyler accompany you on vocals?"

I looked at Ty, he looked at me. both a little shocked.

"Me?, seriously?" He said "I dont know anything about this kind of stuff"

"See the funny thing is, most artist don't know they have talent, but you have talent, and I