Etiquette and Vitriol by Nicky Silver (classic fiction .txt) š
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AMANDA: Who cares? Who cares? I donāt care anymore . . .
BEA: You fancy yourself some modern woman. But you know, things donāt change. Some things are forever. The food chain is as it always was. Men rule the world. But penises rule men! And who rules the penises? We do, darling. People panic. People do things. But heāll be back. And when he comes back, not one word out of you! You hear me? Donāt ask him where heās been. Act like nothing happened.
AMANDA: Youāre insane.
BEA: I will not tolerate rudeness! . . . Let me tell you, when I married my late husband, I was pregnantānot with his kid, but I was pregnant. I was very good-looking when I was younger. But the father wasnāt Jewish, so I decidedāor actually, my mother decided, it wouldnāt go. So I married whatāshisname, my dead husband. Iāll never forget waking up, in Atlantic City, the day after. Iām wide awake, staring at this fat lump of hairy nothing that I married, and, let me tell you, if I coulda run, I woulda. But I was going to have a child. So, instead, I just pulled the hair on his back as hard as I could. You see my point?
(A key turns in the door.)
AMANDA: Shut up!
BEA: I will not tolerateā
AMANDA: Someoneās at the door!
(Bea disappears. The door opens, revealing Ford. He and Amanda stand, just looking at each other for a moment.)
Ford. . . . WHEREāVE YOU BEEN?
BEA (On the speaker phone): I told ya not to ask him that!
(Amanda hangs up the phone.)
AMANDA (After a pause): I mean it doesnāt really matter where youāve been, does it? Youāve been working on a film. I understand. I know that the creative process is a very delicate flower. And youāve been working. Havenāt you?
(Ford sits. He is deep in thought and deeply troubled. He has something to say, but it is very difficult for him. He puts his head in his hands for a moment and agonizes.)
FORD: Wellā
AMANDA: I drove you away! Didnāt I? We shouldnātāve gotten married. It was a bad idea. Iām sorry. It was my idea and you felt cornered, or something. Is that it? Do you want to talk about it? Is that it? . . . Are you tired? We can talk tomorrow. Thatās fine. Youāre probably tired. We can talk tomorrow after a good nightās sleep.
(Ford rises, looks at her and starts to head for the bedroom.)
We do love each other though, donāt we? I love you and you love me, so we love each other.
(Ford stops. He turns and looks at her.)
Youāre in love with someone else, arenāt you! I can tell.
(Ford moves towards her, reaching out.)
Iām babbling. I realize Iām babbling. I find that Iām babbling. But you see, Iāve been cooped up here latelyānot that I didnāt go out, while you were gone. I did. But not much.
(He looks away.)
Is there someone else? Perhaps we rushed into this a bit too quickly. But then, perhaps we didnāt. Timeāll tell. Would you like something to eat? Are you hungry? We donāt have any foodābut we could order something . . . if you have a credit card. Iāve lost my purse.
(He sits again and struggles to find the words to say what he must. He looks around the room, scratches his head, takes a deep breath and just as he is about to speak, she cuts him off.)
YOU THINK IāM UGLY, DONāT YOU? TELL ME, WHAT PART OF ME DO YOU THINK IS UGLIEST?
(He rises to protest. She cuts him off.)
I know Iām beautiful. Youāre right. Iām a beautiful woman. I wasnāt always. When I was a child, I was painfully fat. Did you know that?
(He shakes his head and sits.)
I never mentioned that. Did you ever wonder why there are no pictures around here, of me? Before I turned twenty? Did you think I was a vampire? Did you think I had a Nosferatu childhood?
(He shrugs.)
When I was twenty, I went on a diet. I fasted for three weeks. I lost forty-five pounds.. I dieted all summer and when I went back to school I told everyone I was my own cousin. Isnāt that something?āYOU MAKE ME FEEL SO FAT!
(He puts his head in his hands.)
Everyone believed I was my own cousin. That was the summer my mother died. We had a house on the Cape. We went to the beach one day and she drowned. She went out into the ocean and swam and swam and I never saw her again. Maybe she swam to France and became a chanteuse. I changed my name to Amanda that summer.
(He looks up, surprised.)
Between my sophomore and junior years at Sarah Lawrence. Betty was a fat girl whose only friends were societyās castoffs. Amanda had no more friends than Betty, but people assumed it was by choice. āIs it someone I know? The person youāve found?
(He rises again, about to speak. She cuts him off.)
I can be Betty again, if youād prefer that. My mother used to say you can be whatever you want. She meant, you can be WHOMever you want. Everyone said she drowned. They said it was an accident. My father said, āThings happen.ā I think she killed herself. I think she wanted to die. Maybe we should talk tomorrow.
(He starts to exit.)
While you were gone, I did some work!
(He turns to her.)
Iāve been writing as well. I wrote a new poem. I did. Itās very unusualāfor me. This poem. I call itāwell, I donāt have a name for it yet. But itās a narrative poem, and well, itās about this man. And heās very attractive and very . . . loved. And one day, he finds himself married. And he loves his wife and she loves him, but he feels . . . confined, I think is the word I used. Maybe it was trapped. I canāt remember. You see heās an artist and heās very,
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