Mrs. Kennedy and Me: An Intimate Memoir by Clint Hil (love letters to the dead TXT) 📗

only a few moments ago, this evening at 10:15 Eastern time at the age of sixty-four.

I COULDN’T BELIEVE she was gone. I always expected I’d be dead long before her. God knows I should have been. I never imagined what it would feel like to no longer have her in the world. Hardly a week has gone by without a photo of her in some magazine, some tabloid—the kinds she always used to have me buy so she could see what was being said about her. And every time I saw a paparazzi-snapped picture, I knew exactly what she was thinking in every shot. I could see it in her eyes. There were no secrets from me in those eyes.

We had gone through so much together, Mrs. Kennedy and me.

I sat there, staring at the television set, the images of her playing over and over, my memories right there on the screen. I was overcome with a deep sense of loss. The tears streamed down my face, and I was not ashamed.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

We would not have been able to write this book without the assistance and encouragement of many people. First and foremost, we must acknowledge former Secret Service agent Paul Landis. Your willingness to share and relive the good and bad times of those four unforgettable years made the writing of this tribute possible. You opened your home and your notes to us without question, and supported us every step of the way. Our friendship with you and Mary Jo is priceless.

Louise Burke, Jen Bergstrom, and Mitchell Ivers at Gallery/Simon and Schuster—your suggestion to write and bring to life the close relationship between Mrs. Kennedy and Clint Hill was the impetus for this project, and we are grateful you convinced us to do it. We truly appreciate your sincere interest and support throughout the process. Mitchell—we are so fortunate to have you in our corner.

To our publicists, Mary McCue and Jen Robinson, we hope you know how much we appreciate your tireless efforts, creativity, and enthusiasm. Thank you also to Natasha Simons, Sally Franklin, Larry Pekarek, Jaime Putorti, Lisa Litwack, and Alexandre Su for your behind-the-scenes efforts to help make this book one of which we are very proud.

To our literary manager, Ken Atchity, thanks for believing we could do it and for your ongoing efforts to bring this story to life.

To former Secret Service agents Tom Wells, Ron Pontius, and Ken Giannoules—your memories and retained notes and reports were of immeasurable assistance, and we can’t thank you enough.

To our editor-in-chief extraordinaire, Wyman Harris, and his wife, Gay, your assistance, guidance, and encouragement were invaluable. We are grateful for your limitless gift of time and keen eye for detail. You kept us on track. A special thank-you to Connor McCubbin, our intern for the summer of 2011, for your research skills and proofreading.

One of the most enjoyable yet arduous tasks was sorting through the thousands of photos of the Kennedy White House years, and choosing which ones to include in the book. Thank you to Mindy Parsons for your tenacious research and liberal gift of time to help source the photographs. To David Shaw and Juliet Cuming, thank you for allowing us to use those wonderful images from the Fifty Mile Hike taken by David’s father, Mark Shaw. And to Tom Putnam and the staff at the John F. Kennedy Library, including Laurie Austin, Maryrose Grossman, Amy MacDonald, and many others—your pride in what you do is evident, and we are so grateful for your support, enthusiasm, and generous assistance.

To Gary Silversmith, you are to be commended for your care and restoration of the USS Sequoia. Our special thanks to you and the crew for allowing us to experience a memorable evening on that famous yacht.

To Managing Director Erich Steinbock and the incomparable staff of the Carlyle Hotel in New York City, thank you for helping us remember those glorious days in the 1960s when the Kennedys were in residence by experiencing it ourselves. It is wonderful to know that the Carlyle’s unparalleled service and timeless elegance is the same as it always has been.

Finally, to all the men and women we encountered in our travels who told us, “I can’t wait to read it!”—your enthusiasm gave us the much-needed push to keep moving forward.

LISA McCUBBIN: Thank you to my sons, Connor and Cooper—you are the lights of my life—and I am grateful to you for your strength and support during this difficult year. To Clint, well, I think you know how I feel about you. It has been an honor and a privilege to work with you on this story. Your trust in me, and your willingness to open your heart to relive this part of your life, made this a rewarding experience I will never forget. You are extraordinary—a gentleman in every sense of the word.

CLINT HILL: To my sons, Chris and Corey, thank you for giving me the time and space to pursue this project. Your assistance with personal family issues has been above and beyond the norm. You continue to be my pride and joy. Thank you, Gerald Blaine, for introducing me to Lisa McCubbin, your coauthor of the book The Kennedy Detail. I vowed I would never write or contribute to a book about my life in the Secret Service, but through my participation in that project, I realized that the information I had was of historical interest and should be available to the general public. It was also emotionally beneficial and therapeutic for me.

Thank you, Lisa McCubbin, for bringing me out of my dungeon, where I languished for years in my emotional prison. You got me to slowly release some of that emotional baggage by providing a trustworthy outlet. You were someone in whom I could trust and have confidence. You listened and were interested. You cared. You helped me find a reason to live, not just exist. I will never forget when my friends told me I never looked better; I