Discovering Truths by B. Benfield (book series to read .TXT) 📗

was crazy to think that anything between us could be saved. We were past the point of repair. I felt sick all weekend.

How were we so far gone? How did I feel more comfortable with another man? I wasn’t sure I’d ever find the answers. All of this had to end at some point. That was one thing I was sure of.

The weekend progressed as usual and Monday approached quickly. I was thankful to get out of the house and return to a sense of normalcy. My life wasn’t normal at all, but it was my new normal.

Gage: Hope you have a great day.

I sat at my desk waiting for my computer to load. I’d barely talked to Gage over the weekend, which sucked, but I felt dirty and was having a hard time with…everything. I knew he always stayed busy with his son, so it was fine. I was sure he was busy anyway. At least, that’s what I told myself.

Me: Thank you. You too!

Gage: You alright? Been kind of quiet.

Me: I’m good. Just had a blah weekend.

Gage: I’m sorry. I need to see you soon.

Me: Yes please.

 

***

I’d been working for an hour when Mike stepped in front of my desk.

“You alright, girl?” he asked.

I turned to him, perplexity evident in my face. “I’m fine. Why?”

“You just have this mean look on your face and you’re pounding away at that keyboard.”

“Am I? Oops. I’m sorry.”

He laughed. “No problem. Just wanted to make sure you’re all good.”

“Yeah, I’m good. Thanks for checking.”

I hadn’t realized that I was killing the keyboard and obviously couldn’t see my own face. Everything was still occupying my mind…I suppose work was my release.

“Hey, Mike,” I said, stopping him before he walked off. “Are there any lunch meetings or anything I need to put on the calendar for this week? I know your mind is starting to slip…”

We’d gotten comfortable with each other and I loved messing with him.

He burst into laughter. “Very funny. Good one, girl…but let me think on it. I’ll let you know.”

Gage: Can you meet on lunch?

Me: Yes, but I’m going in like, twenty minutes.

Gage: Okay, I’ll head that way now.

Me: Head where?

Gage: Just meet me in that hotel’s parking lot.

Me: Okay.

 

I finished my task and grabbed my purse. I headed to the bathroom to freshen up before I left. I never knew what was going to happen when we were together and I wanted to make sure I appeared my best. I didn’t expect to see him so soon, but I wasn’t complaining. I’d take what I could get.

I drove around the large parking lot until I spotted him parked in a back corner. I pulled up beside him and hopped in his truck.

He reached for my face immediately, pulling me into him. He kissed me hard, and in that moment, I felt at peace. I felt like I belonged here, with him, not with the man I lived with.

“Gosh I’ve missed you.” He said.

“I’ve missed you too,” I whispered, willing myself not to cry. I couldn’t cry in front of him. I didn’t want him to think I was crazy. He didn’t need to know my feelings were that strong.

“Come here,” he said, pulling me closer.

I leaned into his open arms and we sat there in silence for a moment. I was close to him, resting my head on his neck as he ran his fingers through my hair. It was these moments that I felt like I really was his.

He turned his head towards mine and kissed me again. Unlike what happened in my home, I didn’t want this to end. I was silently begging for more.

I was wearing a blue dress, exposing my thighs. He ran his fingers along my legs, teasing me with every touch. Before I realized it, his fingers were around my panties, jerking them down.

“What are you doing?” I whispered.

“I want you so bad,” he said, his voice sexy and full of need.

“In here? Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

He pulled down his pants slightly and then pulled me on top of him. Initially, I was nervous, afraid that someone might see us. I finally convinced myself that being secluded with tinted windows, we’d be alright. It was a thrill.

It didn’t last long anyway. It only took a few minutes of grinding on Gage for him to completely fall apart. He held my hips and looked me directly in my eyes as I moved on top of him. We moved in sync and I came apart with him, both of us breathing heavily through our release.

This is what should have made me feel disgusting, but it was just the opposite. Everything with Gage felt completely right.

***

When I walked back into my building at work, I passed Mike in the hallway on the way to my desk.

“Looks like you’re in a better mood.”

Was it that obvious? I really hoped I didn’t have that look—sated eyes, and messy hair. I’d have to start paying more attention.

“I guess I am,” I said. “I needed that break to re-charge.”

I had just sat down at my desk when my phone beeped. I picked it up and smiled.

Gage: It’s always so amazing with you. Wish I could have you every day.

Me: Is that all you want me for?

Gage: Don’t say stuff like that…

Me: I’m just kidding. It was amazing. Always is.

Gage: I wish things were simpler.

Me: Me too. Maybe one day…

Gage: Maybe

What did that mean? I hoped he wouldn’t say things like that unless he truly meant them. This was my heart on the line. I’d already told him my feelings were deep. This was serious to me and I hoped he realized it.