Forever You by Lynn, Sandi (autobiographies to read .txt) 📗

that was before you told me that you were going to fuck me

really hard.”

My jaw dropped and horror swept over my face. “I said that to you?” I asked very embarrassed.

“Yeah, but you were drunk, so I forgave you,” she smiled.

Damn that smile. “A one hundred-dollar tip, Ellery?” I kept saying as I started walking towards

her. She had an excited look in her eyes.

“Connor, relax, it’s only money, and you said yourself that you have plenty of it,” she said as she

ran behind a chair. I started to chase after her around the suite. She was screaming as I kept saying

over and over, “A hundred dollars?”

She ran into the bedroom, and I chased after her. I caught her and threw her on the bed. We both

were smiling as I straddled her and had her arms pinned above her head. We were both out of breath

as I just stared into her beautiful, ice blue eyes. The feelings I had at that moment overtook me. I’ve

never felt so strongly for someone before. All I know is that I wanted her. I needed to feel her. Her

lips were begging to be kissed as mine were begging me to oblige. My heart was racing, and my body

ached for her. As I held her wrists, I lowered my head, and gently brushed my lips against hers. I

stopped and held her gaze; it wasn’t enough, I needed more. I let go of her wrists and softly stroked

her cheek with the back of my hand. She brought her hands to my head and lightly ran her fingers

through my hair. I was highly aroused, and there was no hiding it. I could feel the rapid beating of her

heart, and it was at that moment that I knew she felt the same way about me as I did about her. I

brought my lips to hers once more and fell onto her as she parted her lips, allowing our tongues to

meet for the first time. Kissing her was amazing; it was everything I knew that it would be. I took my

time exploring her mouth and licking her soft lips. I wanted her to feel me and feel the love I was

giving her. I gently held the sides of her face with my hands and started tracing her jaw line with my

tongue. Suddenly, the images of Amanda, lying dead on the floor and covered in blood, flooded my

mind as did all the other women I’ve used and had sex with. What the hell was I doing? How could I

cross the line like that? I wanted her so bad, but I couldn’t risk losing our friendship. She was too

important to me. I abruptly broke our kiss, pulled back, and sat on the edge of the bed, running my

hands through my hair.

“I’m sorry, Ellery, but I can’t,” I said.

She sat up on the bed behind me. I couldn’t bring myself to look at her and see the hurt and

rejection she must be feeling. I was appalled by the words that she spat at me.

“Why not, Connor? Is it because I’m not one of your whores?”

She knew about the other women and never let on that she did. I got up from the bed and walked

across the room.

“You’re not a whore, Ellery, and I just can’t.”

“Please just tell me what’s wrong and why you don’t want me,” she pleaded.

It was breaking my heart to have to stand here and do this to her. “I do want you, Ellery, and that’s

the problem; I want you too fucking much.”

“How’s that a problem?!” she yelled.

I turned and looked at her with rage in my eyes. Maybe if I tell her about the real me, she won’t

want me and this will all be over. “You don’t want to know the real me. I’m not a good person; I use

women for sex. I can’t have real relationships; I don’t want to.”

“We don’t have to have a relationship; we can just be friends with benefits,” she said.

I couldn’t believe she would stoop to such a level that she would sleep with me with no strings

attached. I would never do that to her, and I would never use her that way. She took a step closer to

me and whispered.

“Connor, please; I need you.” A single tear fell from her eye.

“Don’t, Elle, don’t do this to me, to us; I can’t sleep with you.”

She turned and walked out of the bedroom, telling me to fuck off. The tone of her voice was angry

and hurt. I followed her out of the room as she was about to walk out the door. She put her hand on the

doorknob and started to turn it. There was no way I was letting her walk out of this room and possibly

out of my life.

“Don’t you dare walk out that door, Ellery!” I yelled.

She stood there for a moment with her head down and then started to open it. I came up behind her

and put my