Cast the First Stone by David Warren (i have read the book a hundred times txt) 📗

all over me, and I dropped my camera.”

“You knocked the coffee out of my hands. I wasn’t fast enough to grab the camera.”

“You were standing right behind me. Invading my personal space.”

“Checking you out, actually.”

“I knew it.” She’s really grinning now.

“You were so beautiful, I couldn’t think straight. I nearly said it right then, just blurted it out. At least I got your attention, though.”

“Yeah, which you conveniently used to wheedle me into a first date.”

“Charm you. And you turned me down. Even though I know you were in love with me, too.”

She’s full-out laughing now, and the sound pours light into my darkness.

“Lie to yourself all you want, Rembrandt Stone. But I’ll never forget the look on your face when you busted my camera. Half angry, half embarrassed. You were trying to figure out what to do, and I kept thinking, here I was, smitten with you because you were this hot shot, New York Times bestselling author, and suddenly all I saw was this flustered guy. It made me…I don’t know, maybe I fell in love with you that moment.”

“You didn’t act like it. You were so angry—”

“My camera was broken. Besides, I could hardly let on that I liked you. I had a reputation for not dating anyone I worked with. In fact, if you hadn’t spilled coffee on me, I probably wouldn’t have spoken to you again, at least not outside the job.”

“Why not?”

“Because you’re hard to get to know—really know. But you showed me a glimpse of yourself, and followed it up with an apology coffee, all humble and sweet and what could I do? I hate playing games, and you cut right to the chase. I suddenly discovered the guy behind his reputation.”

“So, you’re saying you’re glad I ruined your camera.”

“It was a Canon EOS-3, worth about five thousand dollars, so, uh no—”

“I’m kidding. But it did give me a reason to talk to you again. I’m not sure I would have had the guts, otherwise.”

“Why?”

“Because you were Danny Mulligan’s daughter. And there were non-negotiable rules to keep.”

“You like breaking the rules.” She runs her fingers over the veins in the top of my hand.

“Yeah, I do,” I say, my breath catching. “Especially with you.”

Silence, and the memories are thick between us. “We had a lot of fun back then.” Her voice is soft.

“If you call spending too many hours with crime scene evidence, fun.”

“I do.” She takes her hand away to trace the sticker on the top of the file. She’s blinking. “I did.”

I look away. Because our glory days as Eve and Rembrandt, CSI and hot shot detective are over.

She gathers up the folders, and I notice she’s putting them—at least the first few—in order. Another thing she can’t help. “Eve—”

“It’s okay, Rem. I understand.”

It’s a canned, practice response. It’s okay, Rem. I understand.

She wants to, I know it. She understands loss, and frustration and even helplessness, but she wasn’t there the day when my future looked me in the eye, and I surrendered.

Wasn’t there for the fight between Booker and me. Didn’t hear the words.

I can’t go back.

But I pretend her words help, nod and help her stack the files. That’s what marriage is about, sometimes, agreeing that the lies are truth.

Leaning up to put the files away, Eve hesitates and then, cradling the stack in one arm, grabs something from inside the box. “Look at this.”

She hands me a watch.

It’s a vintage watch, very old, the kind that needs winding and even as I take it, I glimpse a visage of John sitting at his desk, playing with the dial. I lay it out in my hand. It’s cool and heavy and the memory takes root. Chief Booker wore this every day that I knew him. The watch face is an old friend, see-through to the gears inside, with hatches that mark the time, bigger at the quarter hour. Almost as wide as my thumb, the band is leather, fraying at the edges, the clasp a little bent.

The tiny gears sit unmoving, hands stuck at 3:27 as I spin the dial. It moves, but nothing turns. Of course it’s broken. Turning it over, I read an inscription on the backside. Be Stalwart. The etching is written in script, and it’s faded, the edges smooth, aged.

“John gave you his watch.” It’s not a question, but more of a breath from Eve, a moment of wonder.

“No. It probably fell in there.” I start to hand it to her, but she shoves it back to me. “He gave you his watch, Rem. When did you ever know John Booker to do anything by accident?”

She’s right, as usual, but especially with John, the most serious, darkly purposeful man I’ve ever met. He never did anything without forethought.

He was my mentor, the man I wanted to be my father, and the person who believed in me when I didn’t.

“It’s his way of forgiving you,” she says, and I look up at her. Frown.

I didn’t realize she saw it that way, and it stops me, a little pinch in my gut. I’m about to retort that I wasn’t the one who needed forgiveness, but it’s late, and I don’t want a fight.

And deep down inside, I fear she’s right.

She puts the files in the box as I rub my thumb over the inscription. Stalwart. An old word that means loyal. Reliable. Hardworking.

Everything I thought I was. Or wanted to be.

Eve has terrifying mind-reading powers because she takes the watch from my hand and puts it on the desk. “He gave it to the right person.”

I look away, but she touches my face. “I love you, Rem.”

Then she flicks off the light and leads me back up the stairs.

And in the silk of the night, she does her best to convince the past to set me free.

Chapter 3

I work from home. This is not the same as being a stay-at-home dad, although it can feel the same sometimes when I’m the only one around to bring Ashley’s