The Blind Date by Landish, Lauren (free children's ebooks pdf txt) 📗

My reputation as a grumpy asshole has never been thrown in my face quite so succinctly.

“Unfortunately, yes. I have tended to keep a select few close—my family, mostly—and leave everyone else on the outside, but I’m growing to trust more.” My brow furrows as the thoughts come to me. “Or more like, I’m starting to see that everyone has important things going on that matter to them too. Growing up, I didn’t have the luxury of thinking of other people that way. It was all I could do to worry about my mom and sister, but now . . . we’re in a better place, I’m in a better place, and it’s time for me to take off those blinders. Does that make sense?”

As I speak, a memory floats through my mind . . .

It’s my birthday . . . one after Dad left but before Mom went back to school.

“Happy birthday, Noah,” Mom says, handing me a box. Arielle is playing at a friend’s house, and it’s just the two of us in our tiny kitchen for now. “I’m sorry I wasn’t here this morning when you got up so I could tell you then, but I had an early shift.”

“I understand, Mom,” I reply, taking the newspaper-wrapped box and looking down at it. It’s been eight months since Dad left, and while he sends a few bucks here and there, it’s never enough and things are rough. Mom’s been working extra shifts trying to cover the gaps while not letting the strain show as she tries to buy food, clothes, water, electricity, and all that.

Maybe Arielle doesn’t notice. But I do.

I’ve been trying to help where I can, being stingy with the peanut butter and jelly when I make lunch to make the jars last longer and skipping the milk in the store-brand macaroni and cheese that we have for dinner.

I take care of Arielle on Saturdays, watching cartoons quietly in the morning and going to the park in the afternoons so Mom can sleep.

And I haven’t told Mom that my tennis shoes are too small and my big toes are pressing against the end . . . again. I keep growing, sizing out of my clothes before they wear out. Unlike Mom’s jeans, which are getting white at the knees because she wears them to work and at home.

And now . . . I can feel the weight of the box, the heavy thump of what’s inside. She noticed. She knew anyway, even though I tried to hide it.

“Open it,” Mom says excitedly. She’s bouncing around with her hands fisted below her chin like a kid on Christmas who can’t wait to see what Santa brought. She’s happier about the gift than I am. Especially since my stomach is filled with stones.

I muster a smile and tear through the newspaper to find the shoe box I expected it to be. Opening the lid, I see a nice pair of black and white Nike sneakers. They’re not Jordans like the kids at school have, but I know these must’ve cost Mom her entire paycheck.

“Do you like them?” Mom squeals. “Try them on.”

I want to. Desperately.

But looking at the exhaustion at the corners of my mother’s eyes, I know that some prices are too high to pay.

“Mom, if you don’t mind, I had a different birthday wish,” I tell her, handing the box back. “Uhm, if the store would let you take those back, I saw a pair at Walmart with red laces that I love. Could we get those instead?”

Mom blinks, her smile falling, and I can see emotions in her eyes. Anger at her situation that she’s in, shame that she’s even considering my offer, and sadness that she’s failed at hiding her struggles from her son.

A little bit of my childhood dies in that instant, but at the same time, something else grows when I see something else in her eyes.

Pride in the man I’m becoming.

I haven’t been that little boy in a very long time. After that, Mom went to school, got a certificate, and we did better. I grew up, went to college, and became successful. But I never moved beyond the fear.

What if that became my life again?

What am I willing to do to prevent that?

How do I protect Mom and Arielle?

“I think that’s very mature of you, Noah. It’s important that we recognize where we’ve come from and how it shapes us but also allow current experiences and conditions to form us into something new. I’ve seen that happening with you recently, which excites me. It shows that you’re aware of your own limitations but willing to bust through them if given the opportunity to be molded into something better.”

Elisa sits back in her chair, and I feel compelled to fill the moment of silence.

“Thank you,” I tell her, truly appreciating the compliment and that she’s noticed the changes in me too. Though I guess I should still worry that maybe I’ve been walking through life with everyone thinking I’m a complete monster, arrogant and narcissistic and unaware of how I was perceived.

“Opportunities are strange things, presenting themselves when you least expect them but requiring you to take advantage of them quickly.”

Elisa is leading me somewhere, but I’m the only one of us blind, with no map or any hint of the destination. The only thing I’m sure of right now is that whatever this is, it doesn’t seem to be a meeting to blindside me with being fired over BlindDate stats. But I can feel the walls of the trap closing in, each of these questions slowly backing me into a corner I didn’t see.

I nod, not sure how to respond without putting my back to the wall.

“I hear you’re in love.”

I blink, surprised. This has been one emotional whiplash of a meeting, that’s for damn sure. “How’d you hear about that?”

I understand that Riley and I went public on her page yesterday, but it’s been less than twenty-four hours, and Elisa Montgomery is more the type to do