22 && Searching - A. M. (books to read romance .txt) 📗
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He says he's missed me.
He's the only one that said he did.
Being drowned in school and work, it's hard to see any of them.
It’s hard to make time for myself.
He missed me though and that set me at ease.
I matter to someone.
I don’t learn until later that it doesn’t matter.
I should only matter to myself.
.12 Bao part 2
He is leaving for a month.
He tells me he'll be back.
He'll message me lots.
Something feels different but I don't mention anything.
I trust him whole heartedly.
He wouldn't lie to me.
It's been 12 days.
I haven't heard anything.
I wonder where he's at.
You don’t matter when you’re not needed.
.13 Bao part 3
I finally heard from the second.
Stole away to Vietnam to see family.
Come back home.
Don’t be selfish.
People need their time too.
.14 Please
Phone is off and I can't stand the voices in my head.
I'm drowning in the deep and it's hard to keep my head above water.
I want to just stop.
I want to just stop.
I want to just.
Stop.
.15 Let me be happy
Why don't you have a boyfriend?
I do.
I have three.
They're boys that are my friends.
I get affection and time from them.
They care for me and make sure I'm okay.
But Jae that's too much. Don't you worry-
Yes. I worry.
But I don't care.
I’m happy-ish.
.16 No Lesson Learned
You're just using them.
They're using me too.
It's okay, as long as if I get something I want in return.
It’s selfish and ugly
But it’s what I need right now.
Needs and wants are different.
.17 I give up. You win.
Staring at the mirror with the knife in my hand.
It's such an easy decision.
It's so easy to just put it to the skin and press down.
Blood.
I see it.
Let me go.
Wait.
No.
I don’t want this.
.18 Maddie part 1
I'm sorry Maddie.
I didn't want you to see that.
You shouldn't have had to find me like that.
I'm sorry.
Thank you for saving me.
I don’t know how to repay you.
.19 Jeremy part 4
He called me stupid for dropping out of school.
I couldn't bear to tell him what I had done.
I'd be called stupid some more.
Or he'd understand.
I don't want that risk.
I need him here.
People understand more if you tell them the truth.
.20 Maddie part 2
A night out, something we both need
Liqour and dancing
It's nice to forget
It's nice to let go
It's nice to have hands on me
It's nice to know she'll push them away after a bit
I don't have to worry
Even when I'm on the side of the road puking up yesterday's lo mein
Sometimes it's okay to be young
Sometimes it's okay to be a kid again
Thank you for letting me see this
.21 Riko part 1Darling
That's what he calls me and it sounds nice coming from sweet lips
Even when we're 10 hours apart for the moment
Something seems to click right away
A door opens
I want to see him
He makes me forget about Jeremy
Guilt builds
But I can't seem to mind
People's feelings are at play here
.22 Jeremy part 5
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