Feelings that we hide! - August Nexus (read full novel TXT) 📗

Hey! I remember you girl
I met you in the college bus
The bus was already full
And I asked to sit beside you.

Yes I remember you
I know you’re reading this
I do remember how
You were twisting and turning the lid of your Pen

And I said, “It might hurt.”
And as I spoke
You woke up from your trance
And gave me a broken smile

You searched for the question again
And I joked, “It might hurt the pen”
And you did laugh on it
For the sake of it

And then I went silent
because I saw inside you
places which are deep and dark
and part of your souls which are charred

And I was afraid to poke you
What if you bled darkness
And cry pain and vacuum
From your horrified eyes.

The bus halted and
You stepped off
I do remember it was autumn
And all the trees were getting naked

I know she is not reading it
Or maybe she is
I don’t know, I can’t know ever
The thing is I never asked her name.

i drop my heart on asphalt
and pick up a broken piece
with the jagged edge i slit a vein in my wrist
and use the blood to paint.
i burn the art afterwards
with the flames i set my dreams ablaze
smearing a handful of ashes on my hands
i leave charcoal prints on the pale white wall.

one more piece i pick up, sharper at edges
and carve my name next to the handprints
a polaroid encases the art
i treasure the picture
in my scrapbook with torn pages and a broken spine.

i drop my heart on asphalt
the sound of wreckage is music to me
the shattered pieces; my artwork.

the hole in my chest
is the safe void i hide everything in
i hide my art, my shards, and
the remaining me.
©vaibhav

Just before the night covers the world in monochrome
Just before the day dies in the arms of his lover moon
The skies show up their colours
Clouds sprawled all over
Reaching the epitome of beauty
Just before the curtain falls

Like the lamp, just before going out
Musters up all It's power
To shine and flicker at the top of his might
For the one last time
Just before passing out in darkness.

Like the two people drifiting apart
Cling to each other
On the very last moments of their forever
Feeling each other's presence
Just before the end of their small infinity.

Just before the night covers the world in monochrome
My eyes wander through
The canvases of the azure skies
Admiring the perfect strokes
Of the unknown artist
As if he too painted the masterpiece
Just before dying away into oblivion.

Text: Vaibhav Sharma (August)
Cover: K. Shibaranjini
Publication Date: 05-06-2018

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Dedication:
To all the people who love and read poetry.