Growing Fast. Dying Slow. Living Life. Being Me. - Brooke O. (good books to read for beginners TXT) 📗

skin and bones?
Why am I always the one that makes you feel pity?
Why am I always the one that fears to die alone?
Why am I always the one you know is going to just go?

I am that one because I don’t stand up for myself.
I am that one because I refuse to talk.
I am that one because I just look at you.
I am that one because I'm just not that one.
I am that one because I can’t stay.

I am it all because I’m stuck as me.
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I Know

I know that I cry sometimes
When no one is around
When loneliness swallows me whole

I know that I wanna just disappear sometimes
When all around is cruelty
When all around is pain

I know that I'm not the most perfect person
When you put the truth in my face
When you state the obvious

I know that I'm not the strongest
I know I don't always fit in to your world
I KNOW I'm not perfect

I don't need you to state the obvious
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Life

I'm so confused
Why does it all have to happen so fast?
Why does it all have to go away so slow?

Life has its ups and downs
Sometimes it makes a pitstop

It speeds up and slows down...
It pushes you ahead
And jerks you back

I just want it to go at a steady pace
Because it's just so hard to keep up

But I doubt it will wait for me
I'll just have to find a way
To make it work out
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All Wrong- Please! Version 2

If I died right now
Would you shed a tear?

As my blood ran down the sink
Would you even blink?

They made me promise no
But I had my fingers crossed

I couldn't make a promise
That I might not be able to keep

I'm sorry
I'm so, so sorry
I'm so very sorry

Please!
I know that I messed up
I know it all went wrong
I know that it's all my fault

Please
Please forgive me

I cried a million tears
I shattered my own heart
I let it get to me
'Cause I knew that you were never coming back

Please!
Please forgive me!

I'm so sorry
I'm so, so sorry
I'm so very sorry

I know I'm all alone
I know that you don't care
I know that I'm just another girl whose heart you stole

I know you won't forgive me
There's nothing to forgive
You just needed a reason to leave

I'm sorry
I'm so, so sorry
I'm so very sorry

Please!

Please

Please forgive me

Please don't tell
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Today

I found out who it was
Who ruined it all
Who shattered my heart
Who told you my secret

You’re so nice about it
You joke like it doesn’t matter

But I can see it in your eyes
It isn’t as easy to talk to me
Is it?

I don’t know how she found out
I don’t know why she told you

I can’t do anything about it
I can’t change anything about the way I feel

I was almost over you
Almost

Then you spoke to me
You laughed with me
You joked

I missed you
And I still do

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Destroyed

The world will end one day
But mine already has

It was destroyed
Shattered

And my soul crumbled right along with it

Now I’m just like an empty shell
I don’t feel the pain
I don’t see the colors
I don’t understand your feelings

I was left broken
And no one planned on fixing me

I know you tried
And I appreciate the effort

But it just doesn’t matter anymore

I’m just empty
I’m hollow
Broken
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My World

My world seems gray
The color drained

My world is lonely
The comfort gone

My world has no soul
The emotion nonexistent


My world is dead
The heartbeat gone

My world is me

Colorless
Lonely
Soulless
Dead

Me
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You

You make me laugh
You say the most stupid things
You’re always so sweet
You’re always so kind

Always away
Always gone

Maybe one day
I always say

It’s okay
It always is

You’re awesome
You should know

You made me feel better
You make me smile
You’re always so funny
You’re always so nice
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Questions

If I learned to love
With all my heart
Then would I be good enough?

If I wore an inch of makeup
Then would you call me pretty?

If I laughed at all your jokes
No matter how mean
Then would you be interested?

I asked you that today

You said I was always good enough

You said I was extremely beautiful
Even when I wear not a speck of makeup
And my hair is a mess

You said you’ll always be interested
The way I am is perfect
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