Autumn Collage - Serge Gurkski (smallest ebook reader .txt) 📗
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unsaved,
but alone, but still alone.
Brother, brother, can you hear me,
can you listen to
my sympathetic whispers?
Serge pulls out of his
never-ending pocket a
- polished from the rubbing of tonight -
flask of AMARETTO saved
for sweet communions with
the sighingly fallen
leaves of sorrowful
in that golden-brown
October of all-so-well-
- knowing and totally
wreckshipped hearts.
Bob-a- baby-now
grasps-grabs a gulp of
taste of the wonder that is
a fluid of almond distilled
into sweetly numbing
the unbreakably broken
hearts by drowning
them into benevolent
smilings of healing shelter.
Serge, the man who came
to save you by
saving himself, squats
close to the
man in pain and
mumbles into the
growling waters
a quote from a poem
by Seamus Heaney:
“What’s in the sea and the waves that keeps you spellbound?
Here earth breaks out in wildflowers, she rills and rolls
the streams in waterweed.”**
—————————————————————————————————————-
*song by Crosby Stills Nash and Young
**Seamus Heaney: Virgil Eclogue I
V. Mirror's mirror's mirror
Breakfasting Kaufman and consorts at dinner time,
digesting with due desire, due to a black jazzed brain,
I can’t avoid taking critical notice of a lack of
syntactic power hidden behind signals
of alarming sound, fraught with lasciviously teasing
make-ups of mellow and surreal perfumes.
In a night grown-up enough for a fatal appointment
with a sun still yawning at the oblique breaking of the dawn,
I watch and reflect upon a poet’s reflections on
a sulkily wailing and moaning saxophone, itself
reflecting upon the huffy human condition
by turning somber blackness into blue delights.
Gurkskogony
épopée délirante lautréamonthéâtrale de mon nativité étrange
I. Scattered disc
It’s close to midnight on the ides of March.we write down the year
one thousand nine hundred sixty three Anno Domini Nostri Iesu Christi
on a coaster on a table in a bar in a United States Armed Forces
garrison town in southwestern Bavaria.
Must have been then or close to it that a sparkle of
one of the icy planets of the scattered disc hailed down
and right into the almost boiling seminal plasma of GI Bill
thereby nobilifying vile male lust, transforming it into a trigger for holy
insemination of a fecund ovarian follicle of a B-girl
neither pretty nor smart but willing to go farther than
her contract demanded… .
II. GI Bill: a portrait from a distance far
also an hommage to Dave Brubeck in heaven
Actually America to me spells mainly Jay A Zed Zed
you might not be with me and you’re free to dis-
agree but America is just the mother of it.
Swing and Bebop, Cool and Free,
Fusion, Blues and Bossa Nova, import from Brazil.
In nuce: take 5, Dave, and brubeck it down on me please.
Age of 13 an aspiring pianist, my fingers fox-
trotted in vain of course to the sheet music of 5 over 4
and instead of me tickling the ivories and the ebonies
they rather tickled me but it was only them
who laughed. A cruel case of unrequited love.
I tried to connect via Jazz to my Dad but only
could hear the border-lining voice of my tipsy gipsy soul.
And that’s that.
III. Ladies on the loose
How is it that my house’s burnin down
whenever I clinge, Serge in heat, to another female hottieness?
I of course -what a question?-
love salted mango and figs dipped in honey,
taste her belly while I lick up the drops of her longing.But
my house of heart keps burning down
meeting ladies on the loose.,whispering to me:
“Lick my cherry sweet
it tastes fine, somewhat salty
now you ‘ll be mine!
Put your hands on my ass!
Bring my pussy to your tongue,
lick me til I beg for more.“
Then they leave me with my heart on fire
IV. Lovebirds mine
My lovebird flew away
but it returned picking up the crumbs of your longings,
then took off again. What a volatile, elusive guy he is!
What a loser this bird is!
Is he crashed or what? I need my love
going on with me. And I will only whisper
my desires to her..I love her yes. Adore her.
I want to be inside of her deep. I want.
I hope we won’t going to meet, but if we do
I will be strong enough to tell her to go
and to leave me alone. I can’t take women
(into my apartment these days.)
But I am afraid she will come.
Because she hasn’t hit the sun yet and I want to help her to go there
V. Whore-Talk
There’s a heartburn turning away while I listen to her,
talking about small Turkish cocks not impressing her much
when back then she was a whore.
She is a warm woman to talk to,
So how could I leave her out, the season being
that cold ? And we talk about her sister in arms.
And how she not so well copes with her love affair
being over. And only pain is what she’s left with..
She tells me of her former lovers and I hug her
to feel her body. I won’t be her lover, but the feeling was pretty .
And that’s all I want to share.
VI. Serge is in the loop
It´s gonna kill me but at least I was free.
I cleaned my flat so I won’t die like Cobain.
Should I have to wait for another 50 years
till I get freed from the world as I know it?
I’m in my prime.
Should I strive for hot sex like
Neruda’s Caballero solo does?
Should I read even more books,
getting wiser day by day
with people getting angrier because I
know just so little more than they do?
Never ever have I been in the fishbowl
like Amy Winehouse or Ann Sexton.,
moribund of love both, but exposed
myself so much I can’t
refrain from blushing.
So you could say, shame is my cancer.
VII. Il faut que tu saches que*:
I caught it, it caught me?
I am not sure anymore.
The virus of love
will just not go away,
pass out or die.
It will stay with me close.
You can see it
in the sparkle
of my eyes,
you can read it from my lips,
being hungry for your kiss,
you can feel it in my touch.
and perhaps my love is strongest
when we fight.
Sweetest Taylor, call me Burton,
but I doubt that
I’ll watch Who’s afraid of
Virginia Woolf ever again.
I’ve had my share.
VIII. Too plastered to die yet
There is in Joyce’s “Dubliners” a story
of a man found dead on the loo of a pub
(dead from boozing, it is a pub after all.)
So I thought, while I am at it:
let’s rap and ramp down
the fear of death and
instead ramp up the joy of being alive
still!
Baby, be my maybe baby,
be the sweetest stanza 1
of my best poem, talking love,
that has yet to come
alive!
IX. Watching eagles mate in mid-air
Eagles are mating
below swaying clouds,
just like angels do above.
Smiling wet-eyed is the best,
I feel best then. Don’t know why,
and even better than best I feel,
when my lover kisses my tears away.
Those eagles are fine, but
you are much finer than
any eagle could ever be.
I’m bluer than the moon in full.
I’m your snowman if you need my drug.
I give for free
if you will pay back physically.
And should it all turn out
not the way we wanted,
I demand that I reincarnate
as an eagle mating in mid-air.
X, XI,XII Closing Time
X
It must have been 7:30 a.m. on my life clock,
when early on an august morning,
yawning out bulgy clouds
of amassing grey into the
whispering yellow of the back
of the stage design
of that summer’s play,
my parents kidnapped me to Italy.
For a first taste of what life could also have been like.
XI
Closing time’s close by by now,
so let me share another last
anecdote with you
when the world still made
la bella figura and still impressed
this boy in me, shy and blonde
and blue-eyed me. Me with a ball on the beach
being scared of the waves of the sea
and me knowing nothing yet
of the pain that comes with love for free.
XII
And by now, when my life clock
is close to midnight with me
in the mid of my life
I must admit that questa bella figura,
the world was once to me,
only comes alive again,
when I trigger and tease
my neurotransmitters
to make all my heart’s memories
fall into oblivion
and let my smiling mind
sway into a swoon
I’ll never return from again.
XIV. I.: Brain DUI *
“Oh, dearest, sweetest bartenderessa?“ -“What’s it, baby?“,
her boobs, stretching out my shirt**, in stereo inquire.
“Can we have some more of the same ole liquid Blues please?
I promise to double the tip! But can you make our drinks triples?“
- “By we you mean …?“ – “Means: my friends and me“ – “ Your imaginary allies then?“, pointing at the books in my head and: “Deal“, she says, “but don’t you drown them before you drown!“
She is that smart, you see? As if this was about smartness.
“Drown in what?“, my eyes ask winking at my shirt on her.
“Get out!“ she yells, letting me in.
But my allies had to stay out. They were not missed
(so soon).
XIV, II.
I wonder who
It took me, friends and foes, years to be specific, to find out which combination of liquids
would serve me best taste- as much as spiritwise: one third of rum and one of coke is best
shaken, not stirred with a last third of cherry liqueur*. I doubt that, but cheers first to all,
Kerouac or Berryman would have declined my offer. At least , as I a writer, have the precious
priviledge to, now they’re dead, adapt their tastes to my needs and propensities (monetarily
speaking): so I dunno if I have already told you that remarkable anecdote about John, Jack and
Serge,
but alone, but still alone.
Brother, brother, can you hear me,
can you listen to
my sympathetic whispers?
Serge pulls out of his
never-ending pocket a
- polished from the rubbing of tonight -
flask of AMARETTO saved
for sweet communions with
the sighingly fallen
leaves of sorrowful
in that golden-brown
October of all-so-well-
- knowing and totally
wreckshipped hearts.
Bob-a- baby-now
grasps-grabs a gulp of
taste of the wonder that is
a fluid of almond distilled
into sweetly numbing
the unbreakably broken
hearts by drowning
them into benevolent
smilings of healing shelter.
Serge, the man who came
to save you by
saving himself, squats
close to the
man in pain and
mumbles into the
growling waters
a quote from a poem
by Seamus Heaney:
“What’s in the sea and the waves that keeps you spellbound?
Here earth breaks out in wildflowers, she rills and rolls
the streams in waterweed.”**
—————————————————————————————————————-
*song by Crosby Stills Nash and Young
**Seamus Heaney: Virgil Eclogue I
V. Mirror's mirror's mirror
Breakfasting Kaufman and consorts at dinner time,
digesting with due desire, due to a black jazzed brain,
I can’t avoid taking critical notice of a lack of
syntactic power hidden behind signals
of alarming sound, fraught with lasciviously teasing
make-ups of mellow and surreal perfumes.
In a night grown-up enough for a fatal appointment
with a sun still yawning at the oblique breaking of the dawn,
I watch and reflect upon a poet’s reflections on
a sulkily wailing and moaning saxophone, itself
reflecting upon the huffy human condition
by turning somber blackness into blue delights.
Gurkskogony
épopée délirante lautréamonthéâtrale de mon nativité étrange
I. Scattered disc
It’s close to midnight on the ides of March.we write down the year
one thousand nine hundred sixty three Anno Domini Nostri Iesu Christi
on a coaster on a table in a bar in a United States Armed Forces
garrison town in southwestern Bavaria.
Must have been then or close to it that a sparkle of
one of the icy planets of the scattered disc hailed down
and right into the almost boiling seminal plasma of GI Bill
thereby nobilifying vile male lust, transforming it into a trigger for holy
insemination of a fecund ovarian follicle of a B-girl
neither pretty nor smart but willing to go farther than
her contract demanded… .
II. GI Bill: a portrait from a distance far
also an hommage to Dave Brubeck in heaven
Actually America to me spells mainly Jay A Zed Zed
you might not be with me and you’re free to dis-
agree but America is just the mother of it.
Swing and Bebop, Cool and Free,
Fusion, Blues and Bossa Nova, import from Brazil.
In nuce: take 5, Dave, and brubeck it down on me please.
Age of 13 an aspiring pianist, my fingers fox-
trotted in vain of course to the sheet music of 5 over 4
and instead of me tickling the ivories and the ebonies
they rather tickled me but it was only them
who laughed. A cruel case of unrequited love.
I tried to connect via Jazz to my Dad but only
could hear the border-lining voice of my tipsy gipsy soul.
And that’s that.
III. Ladies on the loose
How is it that my house’s burnin down
whenever I clinge, Serge in heat, to another female hottieness?
I of course -what a question?-
love salted mango and figs dipped in honey,
taste her belly while I lick up the drops of her longing.But
my house of heart keps burning down
meeting ladies on the loose.,whispering to me:
“Lick my cherry sweet
it tastes fine, somewhat salty
now you ‘ll be mine!
Put your hands on my ass!
Bring my pussy to your tongue,
lick me til I beg for more.“
Then they leave me with my heart on fire
IV. Lovebirds mine
My lovebird flew away
but it returned picking up the crumbs of your longings,
then took off again. What a volatile, elusive guy he is!
What a loser this bird is!
Is he crashed or what? I need my love
going on with me. And I will only whisper
my desires to her..I love her yes. Adore her.
I want to be inside of her deep. I want.
I hope we won’t going to meet, but if we do
I will be strong enough to tell her to go
and to leave me alone. I can’t take women
(into my apartment these days.)
But I am afraid she will come.
Because she hasn’t hit the sun yet and I want to help her to go there
V. Whore-Talk
There’s a heartburn turning away while I listen to her,
talking about small Turkish cocks not impressing her much
when back then she was a whore.
She is a warm woman to talk to,
So how could I leave her out, the season being
that cold ? And we talk about her sister in arms.
And how she not so well copes with her love affair
being over. And only pain is what she’s left with..
She tells me of her former lovers and I hug her
to feel her body. I won’t be her lover, but the feeling was pretty .
And that’s all I want to share.
VI. Serge is in the loop
It´s gonna kill me but at least I was free.
I cleaned my flat so I won’t die like Cobain.
Should I have to wait for another 50 years
till I get freed from the world as I know it?
I’m in my prime.
Should I strive for hot sex like
Neruda’s Caballero solo does?
Should I read even more books,
getting wiser day by day
with people getting angrier because I
know just so little more than they do?
Never ever have I been in the fishbowl
like Amy Winehouse or Ann Sexton.,
moribund of love both, but exposed
myself so much I can’t
refrain from blushing.
So you could say, shame is my cancer.
VII. Il faut que tu saches que*:
I caught it, it caught me?
I am not sure anymore.
The virus of love
will just not go away,
pass out or die.
It will stay with me close.
You can see it
in the sparkle
of my eyes,
you can read it from my lips,
being hungry for your kiss,
you can feel it in my touch.
and perhaps my love is strongest
when we fight.
Sweetest Taylor, call me Burton,
but I doubt that
I’ll watch Who’s afraid of
Virginia Woolf ever again.
I’ve had my share.
VIII. Too plastered to die yet
There is in Joyce’s “Dubliners” a story
of a man found dead on the loo of a pub
(dead from boozing, it is a pub after all.)
So I thought, while I am at it:
let’s rap and ramp down
the fear of death and
instead ramp up the joy of being alive
still!
Baby, be my maybe baby,
be the sweetest stanza 1
of my best poem, talking love,
that has yet to come
alive!
IX. Watching eagles mate in mid-air
Eagles are mating
below swaying clouds,
just like angels do above.
Smiling wet-eyed is the best,
I feel best then. Don’t know why,
and even better than best I feel,
when my lover kisses my tears away.
Those eagles are fine, but
you are much finer than
any eagle could ever be.
I’m bluer than the moon in full.
I’m your snowman if you need my drug.
I give for free
if you will pay back physically.
And should it all turn out
not the way we wanted,
I demand that I reincarnate
as an eagle mating in mid-air.
X, XI,XII Closing Time
X
It must have been 7:30 a.m. on my life clock,
when early on an august morning,
yawning out bulgy clouds
of amassing grey into the
whispering yellow of the back
of the stage design
of that summer’s play,
my parents kidnapped me to Italy.
For a first taste of what life could also have been like.
XI
Closing time’s close by by now,
so let me share another last
anecdote with you
when the world still made
la bella figura and still impressed
this boy in me, shy and blonde
and blue-eyed me. Me with a ball on the beach
being scared of the waves of the sea
and me knowing nothing yet
of the pain that comes with love for free.
XII
And by now, when my life clock
is close to midnight with me
in the mid of my life
I must admit that questa bella figura,
the world was once to me,
only comes alive again,
when I trigger and tease
my neurotransmitters
to make all my heart’s memories
fall into oblivion
and let my smiling mind
sway into a swoon
I’ll never return from again.
XIV. I.: Brain DUI *
“Oh, dearest, sweetest bartenderessa?“ -“What’s it, baby?“,
her boobs, stretching out my shirt**, in stereo inquire.
“Can we have some more of the same ole liquid Blues please?
I promise to double the tip! But can you make our drinks triples?“
- “By we you mean …?“ – “Means: my friends and me“ – “ Your imaginary allies then?“, pointing at the books in my head and: “Deal“, she says, “but don’t you drown them before you drown!“
She is that smart, you see? As if this was about smartness.
“Drown in what?“, my eyes ask winking at my shirt on her.
“Get out!“ she yells, letting me in.
But my allies had to stay out. They were not missed
(so soon).
XIV, II.
I wonder who
It took me, friends and foes, years to be specific, to find out which combination of liquids
would serve me best taste- as much as spiritwise: one third of rum and one of coke is best
shaken, not stirred with a last third of cherry liqueur*. I doubt that, but cheers first to all,
Kerouac or Berryman would have declined my offer. At least , as I a writer, have the precious
priviledge to, now they’re dead, adapt their tastes to my needs and propensities (monetarily
speaking): so I dunno if I have already told you that remarkable anecdote about John, Jack and
Serge,
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