Another Life - JenniferNewman (best books to read in your 20s .txt) 📗

began to stand but Parker beat me to it and came round the table to block my path.
“Please? You promised you would hear me out. I did tell you this was a convocation you didn’t want to hear.” When I looked up I saw that Parker was giving me his adorable puppy dog eyes which hell could you really blame me for sitting back down and waiting for him to start again?
“Like I was saying.......”

Chapter Five: Sunday 10:20pm
It had been thirty-two hours since Parker had explained to me what was going on and I still couldn’t get my head around it!
I couldn’t understand how this all could be true. If what I had heard at my old house was true then my Dad. The man that had raised me from birth had taken his own life and the life of someone else. How could I possible start to believe that?
I was sitting on the edge of my bed with my legs pulled up and my arms around them. I buried my face into my knees and squeezed my eyes shut. If I just stayed like this with my eyes closed then maybe I wouldn’t have to think about any of it. I would give anything right now to just be able to get away from my mind right now.
I groaned and stood up. I needed something to do or I swear I was going to go crazy!
I moved over to my door but court a glance of the clock. Oh great what can I do at 10:22pm well that narrows it down. My Mum would be asleep by now and there was no way I could get down stairs without waking her.
I sighed looking down at the carpet covered ground moving away from the door I headed in the general direction of my computer. I hadn’t realized till now how dark it had got while I had been sitting I my room all day. The summer was nearly over and I would be back to college in two weeks time. Things like college had been a good distraction at the time of my Dads death. Now I had to find other ways to distract myself.
I say down at my swizzle chair and fumbled around for the on switch. Did I even have and coursework that need doing?
I pulled my dressing gown more tightly around me while waiting for the computers scream to appear with its ‘Windows seven’ opening page. I picked up my bag that I had been using for classes and pulled out my notes. Sure enough I found the page were I wrote all my work that needed doing. I looked down the long list for something, anything that might need doing or adding to but as I had guessed seconds ago there was nothing. I had already gone over every twice, free times maybe more from the amount of ticks I had on the page.
So instead of shut down my computer again I decided to check my emails. Brendon had said something about him sending me some pictures of his trip yesterday. I could do that looking at someone else’s life instead f mine would be a welcome relief.
The day before yesterday I had been freaking out about kissing Parker at Sophie’s that seemed totally trivial now but I really wanted that to be my only worry once again. What my friends thought of me. Did they think I was a slut? Or were they wondering if I really had just kissed some totally stranger since I hadn’t told them about me meeting Parker, once on the way home back from my old house and once again at my Mums Garden Party or were they not thinking about it at all? Was I just being way to self conscious? Well what did it matter now? I wished that was all that mattered but no I now had to think about whether or not what Parker had told me was true or not and if it was then what that meant to me now. Brain over load much!
The bright light of my computer screen flashing to life made me jump and nearly fall of my seat since I had once again nearly curled myself into a ball on the chair that was now swinging violently to the side threatening to topple over. I put my feet quickly on the floor and looked around my room. It was too dark to see it the dark missy shape was anywhere near. I groaned and turned back to the computer feeling beyond paranoid. I mean I was always clumpy was I now going to be blaming every single little thing I do wrong on a non-existent ghost? God serious help!
I leaned my head back as I typed my name and pass word into my email and logged in. I breathed out closing my eyes as I heard the floor boards creak. I froze not daring to move. I’m imagining it everything’s fine. My eyes were still closed when I felt hot breath on the top of my head. My breathing court and I moved my head up and slowly looked around. I still could not see anything and given my surroundings I could understand.
I stood up still not looking away from where I had felt the hot breathing. Was I kidding myself? If Parker had told me the truth then I was in serious trouble. Please tell me that he had been lying. I would take it gratefully right now!
I heard footsteps coming closer and then they stopped. I could once again feel the hot breath of the thing standing in front of me. I closed my eyes and leaned back against the wall I had backed myself up against.
“You see not so easy now.” Oh god. I heard …….. Cody say. It sounded far away like it had been whispered down a long tunnel and repeated a thousand times before reaching my ears. My eyes were still closed but this made no difference I would not have been able to see anything.
The breathing stopped and I could hear him retreating. What did he plan to just give me a freaking heart attack instead of kill me with his bear freaking hands?!?! I breathed out and opened my eyes. I could have sworn I could see the misty shape over by my window and then I blinked and it was gone.
I breathed in and out for another couple of minutes then sank to the ground and put my head once again to my knees.
My eyes were once again closed and then sat up straight I looked around my room which was now if possible even darker than before. I breathed in and out again taking deep breaths and got up from the floor. I moved back over to my bed and collapsed down on it.
I pushed my face down onto my pillow and groaned. Why the hell was I always such a danger magnet?!?!
I rolled over and stared at the ceiling till my vision became blurry and I realized large tear drops were falling down my cheeks. I could hear myself taking deep breaths that sounded too much like sobbing for my liking but I couldn’t stop. I sat up and covered my face trying to will myself into not crying. What use was that when once I had started I realized I couldn’t stop? I hadn’t cried so much since I had found out Dad had died. Now everything had changed once again. When I had been back visiting my old house thanks to the letter I had gotten in the post saying to come I had felt the same feeling. Like the world was shuffling round and rearranging itself it to a new pattern that I didn’t understand. I was feeling this again now I didn’t like it one bit.
I took several deep breaths and laid back down with my head facing the wall. If I just lay here then maybe I can start thinking about something else. I pictured a meadow with purple flowers slowly I began to relax.
Oh who was I kidding no sooner had I started to drift off I heard a floor bard creak and was wide awake again. Oh what was the point? I was going to be up all night anyway why not do something like turn of my computer which was now blowing a bright blue from my msn messages.
Twenty-seven. Well that should keep me occupied for some time. I got up and walked back over to my swizzle chair sitting down and wiping my eyes.
I brought one leg up and raped one arm around it before using the other to click on the first message.
One hour and a half later I had finished all emails, replying and looking at the picture Brendon had sent and once again was left dwelling on what was happening or rather what Parker had told me was happening. Okay here’s an idea for you Rose. Go to bed! Get some sleep!
Okay for once I thought my brain was actually talking sense! Wow. I followed its instructions quickly and turned off my computer and stumbled over to bed. I was too sleepy to pull my covers over me and I was surprised at how quickly I drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

When I awake the next morning I was refreshed and convinced that what Parker had told me was pretty much true. This made me feel sad and relived at the same time. Sad because what was happening meant that Mum Dad really had killed himself along with someone who had happened to be in the cab with him. Relived because I final knew what was going on and even though this was really not such a good thing I was glad that I knew and that I had stuck around to hear what Parker had to say. I was still finding the part about my Dad killing himself I thought he was happy. Also because my Mum had never taken it upon herself to tell her only daughter what had happened to her Dad wow thanks! I thought about this a bit more while I lay in bed. Maybe Mum didn’t know? I sighed and decided to get up after all.
Getting up I quickly got dressed in a plain white top, jeans and black cardigan. I walked to my door and down the corridor to the stair where I had left my phone on Saturday. Picking it up I saw two pieces of paper underneath, one was Parker’s phone number the second was the same piece of paper I had found in my pocket when on the bus coming back from the old house. I picket the number up and the ticket and walked down stairs to the living room. I saw the note my Mum had left me saying she had gone to work and hoped I would give her the pleasure of meeting her at Sainsbury since she didn’t know what to get for dinner too night. I rolled my eyes at the note and flopped onto the settee next to the window.
I pushed my phone up and tapped the screen to type in Parker’s number into my contacts. No sooner had I saved it I found myself texting him saying

Hey its Rose texting 2 say thnx 4 tellin mi bout everything. X

I considered taking the ‘x’ out since it seemed to just confuse me more but decided to just leave it in. I pressed the send button and closed my phone looking once again at the ticket I