1. Trust - The Promise - Jade is Awesome (red queen ebook txt) 📗

something that is so hard to get. Something that everyone has. I want safety. I love my mum and I love my friends but I can't expect them to keep me safe. They all just going to move on. Josh and Cam are going to only care about eachother. My mum will get remarried and I will just live my life alone. I know I am going over the top but right now, its the only thing that makes sense. I heard a moterbike in the distant. Everyone is getting on with their life and look at me, I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out. Why am I even crying? Because I saw Conor with blood on his face? Its so simple. I keep on hiding the fact that I love him. More than a normal person does. Whats so special about him? Why can't you choose who you like? Why can't you just find a simple decent person and just love them? Why? Why do I love Conor? Its hurting me just seeing him hurt, its going to hurt more when I know that I can't have him. I stopped crying. I know that crying will not take you anywhere. I wiped my tears away and took deep breaths in. 'Ok, lets go home and have a new start.' I said to myself. I quickly got up and walked down the street.
'Ruby!' Someone shouted. I looked back to see Callums scared face. He put his hands on his knees like he was exhausted. He started coughing.
I ran to him and told him to sit down. There was a park just near us.
When we got to the park, he sat one swing while I got him water. He drank half of it and gave it back. I sat down on the other swing.
'I was finding you everywhere. Do you know how long it took for me to find you? 2 hours!' He shouted looking at me with sadness in his eyes.
I looked at the bird that was with its chicks at the far end of the park.
'You didn't have to find me.' I said still staring at the bird who was now giving food to the babies. I could sense that he was staring at me.
'Why do you hate me so much?' He said.
'I don't hate you. I just hate the way you treat people.' I said.
'No, listen to me. Theres something wrong and your not telling me. I could see it in your eyes. You alway try to run away from me. Always.' He said still staring at me. If only he knew about why I hate him. About who he reminded me of. If he did know, he would just walk away. But he doesn't.
I looked at him. 'Okay your right.' I had to do this. He looked at me waiting.
'I hate you. I hate the way you talk to me. I hate the way you use money like its nothing. Theres people out there that are not so lucky and instead of showing some sympathy, you try to show off with your money. I hate the way you never care about anyone else. And I hate the way you are always going to be the same. The same spoilt brat.' I screamed at him without stopping. I put as much hatred on my face. And it hurt. He looked at me like I shot him. He was hurt. So hurt that he was gripping the swing from falling. If only I could tell him I love him. If only life was fair.
I was about to cry. I quickly ran out of the park leaving him. I hated seeing him like this. It was torture. I couldn't take it anymore. It was raining so much, my tears were mixed with the rain. If only the rain could wash away the hurt inside me like it washes my tears. I sat inside the bustop. No one was here. Good. If they saw me like, they would ask me what is wrong and that is worser.
Someone touched my shoulder. I looked back to see Conor. How did he get here so fast?
'Look before you say anything.' He said bending his knees infront of me so he was the same level as my eyes. I couldn't help but stare into them. The eyes that I always saw happiness in them were now filled with hurt and sadness.
'Okay.' He sighed like he was going to say something important. He was nervous. He kept on looking down and then up, anywhere but not my face. I could have smiled if this wasn't so mad.
'Look, Ruby. What you said in the park is not true. You don't hate me. You might hate who I am but you don't hate the real me.' I looked away. He was telling the truth and I hated it.
He wiped the tears away from my cheeks and looked into my eyes. I looked into his eyes.
'I don't know how to say this but I love you Ruby.' He said with passion.
'I love you so much.' He whispered. I couldn't do anything. I froze. I could have pushed him away and told him to get lost. I could have hurt him more by saying hurtful words. But I couldn't. I just sat there staring into his eyes.
'I love you. I've never felt this way. I never knew I would feel this way. I just thought that love is just in movies.' He said smiling at me. I couldn't help but smile back.
'But now I know.' He said while putting a strand of hair behind my ear. Then I had a flashback.

*Flashback*
'Mummy, what happened?' I said to my mum. We were in the kitchen. Everything was destroyed.
'Darling.' She said crying. I couldn't help but cry too.
'Mummy, don't cry!' I said.
'Get away from me!' My mum shouted at me. She moved away from me. My hands that were hugging her were empty. 'You remind me of your dad!'
She cried. My dad? I look like my dad. My dad was very handsome so this must be a good thing. But why is mummy crying? Does she not like me?
'Mummy, please don't cry. I won't look like dad. I promise!' I said to her trying my hardest to make her not cry. She just looked at me with disgust.
Like she was left with me. She couldn't go anywhere. She hated me. And it was my dad's fault.
''''

'You okay Ruby?'
I opened my eyes to see Conor in the same position. He was touching my cheeks looking into my eyes. What am I doing?
I quickly got up and was about to go when Conor took my hand.
'What happened Ruby?'
I couldn't look at him. I turned my back to him. 'Look Conor, I don't love you. And nothing will change that.'
'Thats not true Ruby.' He said like I told him aliens exist.
I took a deep breath and gathered all my courage because I was so angry. He kept on saying all these things like he knew what he was talking about. I looked at him tearing his hand away from my arm.
'How do you know if I love you or not? How do you even know that I want you when maybe I can be like the other girls? I can love you because your rich. I can love you because I want your money. And maybe I wouldn't love you if you were poor.' I shouted. It went quiet for a while. He then pushed me to the window so we were up close.
'You know what!' He shouted back. 'I'll answer all your questions.'
'And how are-' I was interrupted by his kiss. He kissed me. Fireworks exploded inside me. He put his hands around me to pull me closer. His lips softly onto mine like my lips were too fragile. His lips were so hot against me. I kissed him back because it was too good to resist. I put my hands through his hair and felt his lips do all the work. I couldn't believe this was happening. He stopped kissing me to see the impression on my face and smiled. I was shocked. I don't know if it was good shock or bad shock. I just felt alive and loved. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to love him and talk to him and hug him. I finally fell in love.
'So what do you think?' He said smiling. I touched my lips.
I looked down. Cheeks filled with red. 'That was....' I couldn't find a word. Before I could say a good word to describe the kiss, my mobile rang.
He was still looking at me. His fingers playing with my hair. I quickly got the mobile from my bag to see who it was. Josh.
'Ruby are you okay?' Josh shouted with worry in his voice. He saw me at the fight. He must think i'm devestated. But right now, I felt different.
'Josh, I'm fine.' I said trying not to look at Conor. I didn't want him to see that I was scared. I wanted Josh and Cam with me. I wanted a hug.
'We've been friends since ages and I know when your lying. Where are you? I'm going to pick you up and we'll go get an ice cream. That cheers you up.' Josh said. I smiled. I love him so much. Who can have a better friend than that?
'Okay.' I said. I told him where I am and he said he'll be there in 5 minutes.
I looked at Conor. He was watching me with worry. And then I remembered what happened.
'OH MY GOD!' I screamed.
'Whats wrong Ruby?' Conor said.
'I Can't believe this! How can you kiss me? This is not supposed to happen!' I shouted.
Conor started laughing. His beautiful laugh. 'Why are you laughing?' I shouted.
'Anyone will laugh if they saw you like this.' He said laughing. I couldn't help but get mad. I didn't know what was happening.
'Ruby, I'm sorry.' He said while hugging me. 'So am I like your boyfriend?'
'What?' I screamed. He smiled.
'I'm sure when you kiss someone, they are officially your girlfriend.' Conor said like he knew all about love.
'But-'
'Can I call you sweetie? What about cherry because of your red hair? This is so cool. I can't wait to tell the boys.' He said excitedly like he won a prize. Maybe I am a prize to him. A prize that he will get rid of when hes had his fun.
'Wait, your brothers know?' I said.
'Yeah, they helped me.' He said taking my phone and writing his number into it.
'They helped you with what?' I said. What is this guy talking about?
'To get you.' He said while giving me a peck on the cheek. I looked around to see if Josh had came. He was there looking for me. His face going everywhere.
'Well I got to go.' I said not leaving my eyes off Josh. He looked lost and worried.
Conor looked at me like he didn't want me to leave. He kissed me on the lips.
'I love you, bye.' he said before going to the other direction. When he was out of sight, I ran up to Josh.
'Ruby I-'
I hugged him. I couldn't help but cry. How much does a girl cry in a day?
'Ruby, whats wrong?' Josh said when I pulled off.
'Everything.' I said to him still crying.


We were driving to the icecream parlour. I really didn't want to go. Specially with all my hair and makeup everywhere. The Icecream parlour was on the left but Josh went to the right.
'Josh, your going the wrong way. The icecream parlour is at the left.' I said. He looked at me and smiled.
'We're not going there.' He said. I looked confused. I thought Josh said we were going to get some icecream.
He saw the expression on my face and said, 'We're going to Cam. I