beauty and the edward - bella&edward (ebook reader for pc .TXT) 📗

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She moved her chair away from him, she was in shock. How could Edward have been married before and not told her? She shook her head.

"No I'm not with him. I have to - go." She said sounding as if her mind was a million miles away.

She grabbed her textbook off the table and her bag from the edge of the seat and walked as fast as she could out of the library. Her heart was beating out of her chest. Edward had basically used a woman for his company according to Avery, could it be true? She rushed down the hallway and looked for the restrooms, she walked to the woman's restroom and sighed in relief because nobody was there. She pulled her blackberry out of her pocket and quickly called Edward. She wanted to know the truth. The phone rang a few times until he finally answered.

"What?" He asked rudely.

She rolled her eyes, he sounded like he was in a bad mood.

"Avery - he told me some awful things about you Edward." She said.

She heard him inhale sharply and shout at someone to get out of his office.

"What did he say to you Bella? I told you to stay away from him." He said sternly.

She ran her fingers through her hair and sighed.

"He said that you took the love of his life away and that - you were married before. Is that true?"She asked.

There was a long pause and she was starting to think that maybe he had hung up on her.

"You shouldn't believe everything people tell you Bella. I'm at work. I'll talk to you later and stay the hell away from Avery if you can." He said angrily.

He hung up on her and she put her phone back into her pocket. She looked into the mirror, her tired and sad brown eyes looked back at her. He was hiding something and she had a feeling it was all in the floor he had banned her from going to, she would have to figure this out. It had to be why he was pushing her away, she needed to know exactly what she was dealing with in order to get somewhere with Edward one day.

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Edward slammed his I-phone onto his desk, he didn't want Bella to know about how much of a monster he really was. "You finally found a girl that you could care about and you can't even be with her."He told himself bitterly. He picked up a glass of scotch from his desk and swirled the liquid around before he took a sip from it, feeling the alcohol burn his throat. He paid for the consequences of his past everyday, there was no escaping it. His life should have been a cliche, he had experienced a deep loss and in turn it should have made him a better person, but Edward knew that life didn't always work that way. Guilt had a way of killing a person slowly from the inside out like a poison. He did not become a better person, nor did he want to make most of every moment, that was for happy people not him.

His power and wealth became his only friends and if he didn't marry someone soon he would lose that too. He didn't want to lose everything because he would have no self worth, he would be nothing without his job. He kept thinking about what Bella had said to him earlier "what's lost can always be found, don't give up." Why did she have to be so kind, loving and helpful? It infuriated him, but it wasn't her fault that she was so amazing. She was like a mirror showing him how cold he had become, he was aware of it, but whenever he looked into her eyes when he said something hurtful to her he would instantly realize how cold he was and he despised himself for that. He heard the door open, he was about to tell whoever it was to go to hell and leave him alone. He glanced up and saw that it was that Brazilian model he always hooked up with, but he could never really remember her name. At least he's honest to himself. For once he wasn't in the mood to do anything to her, all she wanted was sex and his money. She walked over to him and let her Burberry trench coat fall to the floor, revealing a red lingerie set. She turned his swivel chair around and placed her hands on the arm rests.

"Why so glum?" She asked and pouted.

He wasn't about to have a serious conversation with a woman he just used for sex.
"Work, stress." He lied.

"I can help with that." She said as she placed a kiss on his lips.

He immediately wished it was Bella, but he could never have her.. so he kissed the model back and let his hands roam around her body, falling into familiar habits. This was how he drowned out everything.

Edward had taken Marie out for dinner at an expensive restaurant, if he needed to marry someone soon he was going to explore his options. He had dropped her off at her SoHo apartment and now he was back at home in his study reading some articles for the magazine that need his approval to be published. He hadn't seen Bella since he came back and he was starting to feel like his old self again, as long as he wasn't near her his facade wouldn't crack. He heard a loud noise coming from outside the door of his study which was very weird considering that he had banned everyone from coming up to the fourth floor. He pushed his chair back angrily and walked swiftly to the door, he yanked it open and walked out into the hallway. He saw Bella standing in front of a broken vase, he was furious with her and he tried his best to calm down.

"What are you doing here?" He asked angrily.

She took a few, small tentative steps back and looked up at him with fear in her eyes.

"I- I came here by mistake." She stuttered.

He walked closer to her and stared her down. He could tell that she was afraid, but he was too angry to care.

"You're lying. You're not going to find anything here Bella." He said.

He grabbed her by the arm carefully and walked with her towards the stairs, she walked down with him and felt infuriated at him for escorting her out of the 4th floor like she was someone who was trespassing. When they got down to the 3rd floor, Bella tried pushing his hand away from her arm.

"Let go!" She shouted loudly.

He stared at her for a second and quickly let go of her arm.

"You know you just broke one of the rules."
"So you're going to kick me out? I'll go get my stuff and leave." She said.
"I'm not going to kick you out. Don't be ridiculous."

He wouldn't kick her out, he couldn't bare the thought of her not being in his life even though he wanted to avoid her and there was also the fact that she had nowhere else to go. Bella stared at his neck and noticed a hickey on it, she tried to pretend that it didn't bother her, but it did.

"Well thank you? And you have a hickey on your neck." She said.

His hand instantly reached out to his neck and he sighed, he suddenly felt like a cheater who had been caught.

"That's none of your business Bella." He said stubbornly.

"Is it your girlfriend or one of your many whores Edward?" She said angrily.

"Are you jealous?" He asked with a smirk.

"Get over yourself! That's your problem Edward you think that everybody wants you, but in actuality your personality is so toxic that not even all the good looks and power in the world can ever redeem you! You tell me that you have feelings for me and then you tell me to just forget about it. What kind of person does that? If you're with someone else you should just say it." She said angrily.

Bella may have been naive sometimes, but she was no doormat, she would not let some man treat her like she was nothing. Edward wasn't expecting this from her, nobody ever called him out on his behavior.

"Stop, you don't know me Bella. That's just too damn bad for me now isn't it? I have everything I want, I don't need to be anything else. I'm not with anyone yet - but that's going to change soon, so you better get use to it. We fight so much - why would you even want to be with me?" He asked.

She clenched her hands into fists, he was really getting under her skin right now. She just wanted to slap him across his unfairly perfect face.

"If you don't have happiness you have nothing! You have everything yet you actually have nothing. Well good luck to the unlucky soul who gets to be with you because she's sure as hell going to need it. I don't even know anymore. You're right we fight too much, it will never work. I don't even know why I kissed you that night, I regret it."

She knew that she was just lying to herself, she regretted a lot of things, but kissing him wasn't one of them. He glared at her, how could she regret that kiss they had shared? They had so much chemistry, didn't she feel that? He grabbed her shoulders gently and pushed her against the cream colored wall. He stared directly into her eyes, she had pissed him off more than usual and somehow it had made him want her more than he did before. He ran his index finger down the side of her neck and dragged it down to the top of her shirt, he slowly undid one button, revealing a hint of cleavage covered by a lacey black bra. Bella closed her eyes, she wanted to push him away to tell him to stop, but she couldn't. His touch against her soft skin felt so right and so natural. She bit down on her lip hard. He kissed her chin and then made his way down to her neck and then he trailed soft kisses all the way down to where he had unbuttoned her shirt. Bella let out a soft moan. He slowly pulled away and looked at her, she was breathing heavy and she had her eyes closed.

"Do you really regret kissing me?" He asked her.

Her eyes fluttered open and she stared directly into his magnetic green eyes. She shook her head.

"No I don't." She said truthfully this time.

He placed his hand on the side of her warm cheek.

"We've got to stop doing this - I just can't seem to stop myself whenever I'm around you. I can't offer you a fairytale ending, but it would be a waste to ignore all this chemistry. Let's go finish this in my room." He said in a low seductive voice.

She suddenly looked afraid and quickly buttoned up her