Sinfully Yours by Mirah Selim (read e books online free .txt) 📗

She stared at the ceiling blinking her eyes slowly. Her hand slowly raised to her chest as she placed her palm over her heart closing her eyes.

"Why does it hurt? What's happening to me?" She whispered but there was no one to answer her.

The concern she had for Cyrus must be because of his mental instability and his brutal habit of hurting himself right? She's just concerned about him that's it! She asked Ana only once about Cyrus three days ago and her answer was simple. He's doing just fine.

Finally, a restless sleep engulfed her and she woke up early in the morning with pain in her neck. Her neck ached because of having a restless sleep. She knew only one place could give her some peace so she decided to visit it.

Church. She hadn't gone to church after her divorce so she decided to visit the place today. Her heart was restless and her mind was blank. All she could think about was him and that's what she didn't want. She thought that maybe by visiting Church she might be able to divert her attention and find a little peace.

She found her mother sitting on the couch. Mrs. Astor looked up in surprise finding Hazel had already woken up this early. "Where are you going? You still have time for your job." Hazel smiled approaching her.

"I know I just wanted to visit Church. I will go to job after visiting Church." Her mother opened her mouth to say something but Hazel interrupted her.

"And don't worry I will eat breakfast before going to my job. Also, I will bring groceries on my way back." Her mother nodded her head.

Hazel left the house and came to the same church Cyrus used to bring her. She came to this place only a few times but except for this church, she didn't know any other one in this city. That's why she decided to visit this place instead of finding a new one.

She entered the place heaving in a deep breath. She just took two steps ahead when her body stilled in shock. A familiar broad back was facing her and she recognized him right away.

Cyrus. He was sitting on his knees in front of the statue of Jesus with his fingers intertwined together. His eyes were closed with his forehead resting over his jointed hands. Wasn't he the same man who told her once that he will never come to this place? Then what he's doing here?

She wondered as she stared at his back frozen on her spot. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked up before slowly standing up on his feet. He was wearing his usual dark-colored suit but something about his posture seemed different.

It wasn't full of confidence or arrogance instead he looked tensed and restless. Just when he was about to turn around his words echoed in her ears.

Because if I ever saw you again. I will make sure to never let you off my sight again. So never come in front of me.

Out of her instincts, she moved away from her spot hiding behind a wide and large pillar. The pillar easily hid her small frame. She watched how he walked out of the church keeping his cold look on bay not even sparing a single glance at his surroundings.

She stayed behind the pillar for a few minutes when suddenly. "He's gone." She flinched turning around and finding a familiar face in front of her.

"Creed." Creed bowed his head slightly in respect before staring at her with raised eyebrows.

"He's gone now. I stayed back because I have to talk with the priest. But why are you standing here for the past 10 minutes?" Hazel looked away giving him an awkward smile.

"Nothing. I was about to go." She said and was ready to walk near Jesus but stopped when something snapped in her mind.

"Creed." He looked at her with a frown.

"How is he? I mean is he going to a psychiatrist? How's his health?" Creed's lips tugged up slightly at her questions. But he didn't let her see it. Nodding his head he simply answered her.

"He's fine. Boss has an appointment with the psychiatrist after two days. He attended the last appointment as well. He's taking his medication on time. He has learned to control his anger as well. His mental state seemed to come on track thanks to you. But." Hazel smiled hearing his words but the last word made her frown.

"He has changed a lot. I can see he wants you back. Badly. But it's just he's trying to fulfill the promises he made with you and himself. You don't have to worry he wouldn't come back to you. You can live your life at ease now." Creed said assuring her that Cyrus has finally given up on making her stay with him.

But why does this assurance give a painful squeeze to her chest? Why did the thought of him trying to move on with his life without her make her uneasy? Shouldn't she be happy that he finally is forgetting about her?

Creed left the church after meeting the priest and Hazel kneeled closing her eyes. She prayed for peace. She prayed to her God to give her the strength to make the right decision. To not make her do something she might regret in the future.

After relaxing her mind she went to the cafe and there were still a few minutes left before its opening so she decided to eat breakfast. And as every day, her work went smoothly.

On her way back home she bought a few groceries before reaching her house. She found her mother already asleep after taking her medicine. She heated her dinner and ate it in pure silence.

This loneliness was now messing up with her. Why does even after having everything she wanted, still feel like she had lost something?

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