Hate and Other Crappy Things - Living·my·life Forever (top books of all time .txt) 📗

and I nodded for him to go to have fun. He blew me a kiss and disappeared into the dark hall.

Oh, I'm all alone. Might as well sing the lonely song. Here goes:

I am so lonely

I have nobody 

For my own!

Yes I know that was beautiful as ever. Right on! My only companion was the wall. Hey wall, I thought. I grabbed a drink off the table beside me not really caring what it was. From the taste of it, I think it was beer. Very strong beer. Oops, oh well. I drunk it anyway. I went into the crowd of dancing folks after drinking about three cups. I was on my fourth.

I was minding my own business until I felt someone behind me, uninvited. " Excuse me, sir. I don't know who you are so would you do me the honor of leaving?" I told him, then sipped some of my beer, highly drunk. Drunk as a skunk.

"I like it when a girl is drunk and fiesty. You wanna take this party upstairs, baby?" He groped my butt, again, uninvited. Who does he think is?

"Look dude! Get away from me!"

"Oh, honey. You don't need to get mad. It'll only take five minutes or less. Depends on you..." He grinned.

"Just stop! Leave me alone! Find someone else." I tried walking away but he grabbed my arms tightly. 

"I said come upstairs, bitch." He shook me. His grip brought tears to my eyes. I was petrified and felt completely violated. Is he going to rape me? 

"Please, just leave me alone, okay?" I cried. 

"No. You made me mad now. Too bad for you, baby." He threw his vodka tasting lips at mine, trying to stick his tongue down my throat. I tried clawing at his face but he wouldn't budge. His hands explored every inch of my body, cupping certain areas he shouldn't have. The alcohol consumption I'd had clogged my mind, controlling my movements which were helpless. Every strike I threw was easily dodged and he went right back to sucking my face.

What I didn't realize was the fact that we were moving towards the stairs. When I opened my eyes, searching for help, I saw Elliott standing far away, watching in shock. Why was he just standing there?

"Hey, get off her!" Asher? Really! Asher! He hauled the guy off me and clobbered him on the ground. He kept punching and punching and punching. The boy on the floor didn't even put up a fight while Asher beat every drop of blood out of his poor face. I don't think anyone could've stopped him. I put my hand over my mouth in complete surprise. Laina saw what was happening and pulled him away. 

"Asher, what in the world is going on?" she said. A crowd was forming around us.

"That bitch was practically raping Gabs with his mouth!" Gabs? Is that his secret nickname for me? It's actually pretty cute. Laina looked surprised too. The dude on the floor was unconscious... I think. I poked him on the arm. Yep, he's out like a bulb.

 "Are you okay?" He grabbed my shoulders softly and looked deeply into my eyes. I nodded. It wasn't supposed to be him comforting me. It wasn't supposed to be him beating some one up for me. That was supposed to be Elliott's job. Sadness took over my body causing me to slump.

Laina hugged me tight. "Come on. I'll take you two home." she looked around confused. "Where's Elliott?"

"I-I don't know. That j-jackass. I saw him watching that guy eat me alive, but he just stood there. I don't see him n-now." I swayed. It sucks to not be sober in times like this.

"Oh my gracious. I'm so sorry. He doesn't deserve you then. Let him be a jackass. You'll tell him off anyway, knowing you." We laughed and she hugged me again. She stood on a chair and used the DJ's microphone. "Okay, everyone. Shows over. Keep partying!" Show off. They cheered and the DJ turned on the music. "Let's get going."

She led me out, with Asher following behind.

We got to her blue convertible and I sat in the back. She turned the radio on and of course. Our song came on. I know it's corny but Elliott and I have a song. It was For the First Time by The Script.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I'll change it." Laina said.

"No. It's alright." I felt the need to hear it. It was like I had to. It brought tears to the rims of my eyes. As the song kept playing, I found my face completely soaked. Why'd he have to do that? Wasn't I worth it?

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,

While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar,

And we don't know how,

How we got into this mad situation,

Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time,

I've got a new job now on the unemployment line,

And we don't know how,

How we got into this mess Is it god's test?

Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best,

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,

 Shit talking up all night,

Saying things we haven't for a while A while, yeah,

We're smiling but we're close to tears,

Even after all these years,

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

[x3] Oooooo

She's in line at the dole With her head held high

While I just lost my job

but Didn't lose my pride

But we both know how,

How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,

When you pick yourself up,

You get kicked to the dirt,

Trying to make it work but,

Man, these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,

Shit talking up all night,

Doing things we haven't for a while, A while yeah,

We're smiling but we're close to tears,

Even after all these years,

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

For the first time.

Ooooo [x3]

Yeah... Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,

 Shit talking up all night,

Saying things we haven't for a while,

We're smiling but we're close to tears,

Even after all these years, We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

for the first time

Ooooo..,

yeah, for the first time

Ooooo..,

oh, for the first time,

Yeah... for the first time,

(just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time)

Oh these times are hard, Yeah, they're making us crazy, Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard, Yeah, they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard, Yeah, they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard, Yeah, they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby

I think I fell asleep in the middle of the song. I woke up to a jerk as we parked in my driveway. I had a really bad headache too. That's a first, having a hangover at night. Oh well. 

"Can you pick her up while I open the door?" Laina told Asher and I heard him sigh and open my door. He picked me up bridal style and we started walking to the door. I had my arms around his neck to help him to support my weight and I closed my eyes. 

"Oh my God." I heard Laina mumble. I opened my eyes to see Elliott at the door blocking us.

"Can we talk?" I jumped from Asher's arms and stood in front of him in his face.

"What is there to talk about? You left me. You didn't even care! Why would you do that? Do I mean anything to you?!"

"Ofcourse you do but-"

"I obviously don't! Just get out of my way!" I sighed. "I don't even want to look at you." 

"Please. Let me explain." I slapped him in the face with so much force in my drunken state it made me stagger. Asher held me up and pushed Elliott out of the way. He picked me up bridal style and we went in the house and up the stairs.

"Baby, please!" I heard him run after us. 

"Just leave!" I jumped from Asher's arms again but this time I fell. And it hurt. I stood up and jumped at Elliott, attempting to beat the crap out of him. Laina and Asher tried holding me back and Elliott kept trying to explain. 

Laina suddenly got a hold me and held me on my bed, soothingly rocking me back and forth.

"Look, I really think you should leave now, man." Asher told him politely. 

"Hold on. You're defending her? Of all people, you? And second, this isn't even technically your house. I'd like it if you'd step aside and get out of this. You don't even care about Bree anyways." Asher hung his head.

"Or do you? Oh, I see. This boy right here has a crush on you, baby. This little piece of shit, you know the one you call a bitch all the time, has a crush on you." He burst out laughing. What was wrong with him? He never acts like this. He's always polite.

"Are you drunk?" I asked. 

"Maybe." He staggered a little. "So, buddy boy," he grabbed Asher by the shoulder rather roughly. "Since you won't take the nice words I tried to use. How about you just get the fuck up out of here?" He looked at him and then punched him in the stomach. But, Asher blocked the punch and grabbed him by the neck. He loudly whispered in his ear, " How about we take this outside, shall we? I don't believe Gabs would like it too much if she saw you getting your ass kicked." 

Asher pushed him towards the stairs and Elliot walked out. I still worried if he got home safely. He'd probably think to get a cab anyway. 

"Okay. I got it from here. Thanks baby." I heard some smacks which I'm sure were kisses.

"You okay?" Laina sat down on the bed with me after Asher left my room.

"Yeah, I guess so. I don't know."

"I'm gonna spend the night, sweetie." she went to my closet to grab some clothes from our last sleepover.

"No. It's okay. Go have fun. Don't worry about me." 

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, get out before I change my mind." I laughed but it made my headache worse.

"Fine. If you insist." she said but I knew she was giddy inside. 

" Love you. Enjoy yourself."

" You know I will. Asher's gonna stay home. I told him to. You know how you get in the morning the night before you were drunk. I'll be over tomorrow afternoon. Mom's taking me somewhere in the morning so I won't be able to help with your headache and stuff. Love you, too." she smiled and gave me soft hug, then closed the door behind her.

I reached over for my iPOD and turned on For the First Time. I cried my eyes out, not realizing how loud I was.