On the other side of the sea - Sienna S (psychology books to read .TXT) 📗

can’t keep chatting with him? I can’t do it, I’m falling in love with him…

I went home, took a nap then went to the gym for 2 hours, took a shower and received an sms from Johnny saying that he will order pizza and he is waiting for me to watch Fast & Furious 6.

When I arrived, I barely looked at him, this situation is getting more complicated now, he knows that I don’t want to stay here and he is not doing anything about it and I am really tired of this.

“I might go to Australia in July, Estelle sent me an email today and they want me to go for 2 weeks”

“Alone?”

“Yes, I will sign a contract with them so I can apply for the visa. You know that I can’t get the visa without a proof that I know someone there and why am I going, and for work it should be easy and she will send me an invitation of course.”

“Can’t I go with you?”

“Hmmm I don’t know, she knows that we are engaged, but she only asked me to go.”

“Okay, we will see.”

“Johnny if they will give me the visa, I will try to find a sponsor there so I can go and work in Australia, I don’t want to stay here and you know it.”

“Don’t be silly, you won’t find a sponsor, no one will pay 15,000 $ for the government just so you can work there.”

“At least I have to try” and I thought to myself that maybe Chris can meet me there, but no, I will tell him tonight that I can’t keep doing this…

I arrived at home around midnight and logged in to Skype.

“Good morning” Chris sent me this message at 10 pm my time so he woke up at 1 pm his time.

“Good morning :), did you sleep well?”

“Oh hello there, yes thanks. I was starting to think that you fell asleep.”

“Nope, I’m still awake”

“I miss you Emma, I don’t think that I can’t still talking to you like this as a friend, I want more, I don’t want to regret anything later.”

Great, what am I going to do now? I can’t tell him that this is what I want, I can’t, it’s the right thing to do, I have to be strong.

“Chris, I miss you too and I’m not going to deny it, I want more than this, but I can’t, I’m engaged, I need some time to think about this, maybe it’s better for us to stop talking for awhile, just give me some time and you have to think about this too.”

“Wait, what? Stop talking for awhile? No Emma, I want to talk to you all the time, I don’t want to get in your way but at least give us a chance, I know that you like me too, I’m falling in love with you and I know that you are too, give us a chance, I know that you are engaged but you are having second thoughts, I won’t push you, just give us a chance please and if you will go to Brisbane we can meet there, please, think about it.”

“I would love to see you there but Chris I can’t, please understand me, just give me some time, it’s complicated and you don’t need someone like me now in your life, believe me.”

“No, I want you in my life, I need you, I know that long distance relationships are hard but we can’t try.”

“I will think about it but for now, we need a break, please.”

“Whatever you want Emma, I’m always here for you and I love you, I mean it.”

He loves me? I love him too but I can’t say it… it’s not right…

“I know, thank you Chris for everything, you are amazing, take care of yourself, we will keep in touch.”

“You too.”

I logged out, I didn’t know what to say, what have I just done? I don’t want to lose him but it’s the right thing to do and if we are meant to be together then it will happen eventually.

“Don’t cry Emma, don’t cry”

I closed my eyes, I don’t want to cry, but the tears just fell down my cheeks. I love him, yes I love him and I just lost him…

Chapter Three: "This is not over yet"

 

 

 

Chris’s Point of View.

“I know, thank you Chris for everything, you are amazing, take care of yourself, we will keep in touch.”

“You too.”

I waited for her to say something, to say that she is sorry for what she just said, but she logged out.

This can’t be real, I finally found her, I need her back, I will show her that I really care about her, I will. I decided to leave her a message, I know that she will read it tomorrow morning.

 “Emma please don’t do this, we both care about each other, give us a chance, we can make this work, I will meet you in Australia and you will see that we are perfect for each other, think about it, I won’t bother you again. I love you.”

Yes I love her, I can’t stop thinking about her and for me, this is not over yet, I will fight for her.

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To my one and only, A F, I miss you...