WE LOVE WHO WE LOVE - CHARAF SGHIR (good summer reads txt) 📗

deal with family things to get done! he was still find ways to talk to jasmine and tries his best to meet her and have fun until that fight they had it was a simple discussion but what jasmine do every time is getting back to old friends and pervious people she knew back then this time khaled couldn’t resist he just blocked her right away

He was on some crazy pressure family pressure studies and her the love of his life man was blowing and she went crazy after he blocked her she never thought he would have the courage to do it because he loved her but for sure it was a temporary block, khaled Is in love with person and instead of leaving her he blocked her for couple of days. she couldn’t stop herself and she managed to meet him and in coffee shop they had conversation it was so sad because he just wanted to punish her for treating him that way , he left the café she had tears in her eyes him too but he went home and talked to her but she didn’t even read what he wrote she blocked him right away and yeah they was both heartbroken he didn’t enjoy summer at all he broke up with the person he love the most he was like a lost kid didn’t know what to do , he didn’t believe it’s over he thought it’s just a matter of time and they will talk again  because they always do find a way to get things back .

This time they didn’t find a way back no one said a word but khaled was right there waiting a text and she was too but no one had the courage to do it , khaled never text twice if you left him on seen he never texting until you do never leave khaled on seen .

After 2 weeks or maybe 20 days jasmine decided to move on by dating someone new it was a friend of khaled not a close friend but just a friend that he knew back then , she just thought about her self

She didn’t think about khaled’s reaction when he will know all this she was trying to move on by having someone new without considering the consequence.

Khaled was not moving on he was just waiting her to come back but guess what he got the news (jasmine is dating someone and she have new boyfriend). he went crazy believe me he really went crazy he did cry , khaled only cries  when his soo hurt and yet he cried rivers because real man who love someone they cry over people that they love .

He knew she started a new life with someone new he just blocked her for real and he decided that he will never talk to her again or not even get close to her but he couldn’t stop his self to write a letter to her and he wrote : “ My dear jasmine , I couldn’t sleep for days , weeks because you easily replaced us , I believed that you are my one and only and that you loved me but I was wrong you didn’t , we broke up 3weeks ago because of what you did to me , you hurtled me a lot you talked to everyone you knew before me , I just want to know if you really loved me ? And am very hurt because of you, you said that you will never forgive me, I will not forgive you too “

He wrote down this letter but he never had the courage to send it to her because he was afraid also he saw all her instgram stories with her new boyfriend and she was happy in all those pictures and he just told himself let her be happy and here we go that’s when man love from the bottom of his heart.

HE wishes her nothing but the best when a man sees someone happy he never ruin it instead good people hurt themselves in order to let other live happily.

The question is how did khaled move on? Did he move on? How did that affect his life? I think in chapter 3 I am answering all these question but I never know if I can answer the second one.

CHAPTER 3: After her

 

I don’t know if I can name this chapter after her because she never left him maybe she wasn’t there physically but I am 100% sure she was there in his mind she was always there all the time when he wakes up in the morning even when his walking to university or anywhere he just think about her believe me in the name of god he did think about her 24/7.  khaled life changed he is no longer the happy guy around he no longer makes jokes he no longer care about how he look , he don’t even talk to his friends . 3 weeks after he got the news of jasmine’s new boyfriend he was going to get something done, while riding his motorcycle he saw jasmine walking but not alone it was with her new man the world stopped everything stopped on khaled’s point of view, he had focus on her with teary eyes he went full speed without considering anything, he got it all replayed on his mind since day one, since they promised each other forever all the good memories and also the bad. While speeding more he felt something deep down in his heart about to explode yeah its love it’s the real Love, yeah he had a bad accident he cried while he was down in earth but we all know he isn’t afraid of the fall he felt the ground before. Day after day and Khaled is just drunk all the time no one can blame him , its love man how can you blame someone for drinking the pain away , he wrote 50 letters to her but he never had the pride to send one.

After 6 months khaled was still heartbroken. Does people who love for real ever get healed? the answer is no you can’t well khaled couldn’t he have conversation with jasmine in his mind all day you can see khaled smiling all alone or crying all alone, man it hurt so bad that when khaled said: “GOD I won’t ask for much all I want is the sight of her, the feeling of her in my arms is that too much god? I beg to do it for my heart “ that’s life it takes of us what we love most , Khaled didn’t move on at all not even a bit he always check his phone 10 times a day waiting for a text from that special person maybe a call maybe some news but there was nothing .

After 1 year khaled knew what is love and he knew it isn’t her for sure .he tested all kind of drugs ( xanax , lean… ) he even tried hard ones  he kept poisoning himself if he kept  it that way he wouldn’t survived , he had MANY  problems , personal problems , pressure anxiety , … she wasn’t the only problem but she played her part too and I am kinda focusing on him and her in this story anyway

Khaled keep telling his friends he hate he now but he was just lying to everyone and himself khaled hated the fact that she didn’t call or send a message , but what he hated the most is the way he didn’t her not even a bit , not at all . He couldn’t unlove her. He got the idea to start with someone new a lot of times but khaled don’t use someone in order to forget someone else is a good man.

He don’t want other people to feel hurt, he know how it’s like. Usually thing go little by little until there is none but for him there was nothing going, he is stuck still after a year. that’s why I wasn’t sure about giving the name after her on this chapter , whatever weeks , months , years he not thinking about her all the time it’s been 2 years since the heartbreak anniversary , what I mean by that is he always remember the day he broke up with jasmine so let’s name it the heartbreak anniversary . he no longer check his phone , his no longer waiting for the call but whenever something bad happen to him he look around  for her , whenever something good happen he can’t wait to tell her but sadly she isn’t around for him she is just a ghost he had no idea where she is or what she doing , he had A lot to told her he just wanted to hug her and tell her about everything he wanted to cry and laugh with her he wanted to have a long conversation with her to tell her about everything that happened after 2 years of them not seeing or talking with each other but it was okay as long as she is happy with whoever or wherever she is .

Khaled love to write to jasmine even if never send his letters he once wrote this : Dear jasmine I suck at living without you , I don’t miss you only when am lonely , your absence still make sick , my mind keep travel to the past when was happy and in love , new people don’t affect the way I think about you , they just make wonder how would it be if you was here , it’s getting tough everyday without you in this life that we both planned with all love – khaled .

2 years 5 months 9 days and like hour since the last time he saw her , khaled is working out in the gym while a his friend join they was just having a conversation a basic one until his friend talked about jasmine he told him that she isn’t with that person anymore

Khaled didn’t realize what his friend is saying he was so happy yet so lost, he went home and his texted jasmine!! Sadly it wasn’t what he expected but at least he had conversation with her and he managed to meet her. At this moment he was so happy his meeting the love of his life again he couldn’t wait for that day

The day has come they finally meeting after 2 years and half khaled didn’t sleep that night he just couldn’t I mean on god name how could he ? he had a cup of hot chocolate then he went straight to the meeting place he waited there 1 hour suddenly he saw her , his eyes , his heart everything stopped when he saw her it’s like an angel came by and took him to heaven . they set next to each other and started talking man lost his words he was just right there talking like a baby he told her everything that happened to him literally everything and he trusted her and it’s