When The Sky Falls - Book 2 - N. Y. (love novels in english .txt) 📗

to lose him. But walking away into the uknown, away from loverboy, would be me risking my life,

 

nything for my new over-loved heart.

 

 

I suddenly ran at the thought, not thinking straight.

 

I ran and ran until I lost sight of Kyle behind me.

 

 

When I looked up from where I was, after catching my breath, I knew I was lost.

 

I've never seen this part of New York or place behind the hospital.

 

 

I looked around, I was surrounded by trees, leaves and other stuff that was green.

 

"Damn it, I really need to start searching the area more....where am I?" I whispered.

 

 

I stood still, looking around. I didn't recognize anything.

 

"Ky...." I covered my mouth, before saying Kyle's name.

 

 

I knew that if I call him, he would come running for me.

 

Then, he's gonna want me to admit he was the hero and he's gonna win me over again.

 

 

I don't want to live with the idea of continuing to be with him or finish what we started.

 

And sadly, I don't want to finish anything.

 

 

I guess i'll have to find a place to stay, near Elle's neighborhood.

 

It'll be closer. To keep any eye on her.

 

And it's a chance for me to see Elle from a house distance, rather then a camera view.

 

 

Plus, it'll be easier to spy on Elle before next year.

 

 

I sneak around a few bushes and trees, when I heard Kyle's voice in the back.

 

I had almost ran towards his direction when I heard him. But then I remembered.

 

 

He's gonna suffer without me and if he loves me enough to leave me, I think he's gonna be fine.

 

Plus he deserves to be on his own, since he hasn't left me alone when he found out my ankle was hurt.

 

 

I hear Kyle's voice echo behind me.

 

I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I heard his voice in the distance calling my name.

 

I know Kyle loves me too much, but I think it's time that I break up with him, if he doesn't leave me alone soon.

 

 

And i'm surprised.

 

I haven't broken it off before. I like him and all, but it's too much.

 

He coming inbetween me and my work. Even if he's always gonna be there, when I least expect it.

 

 

I'll break it off with him and hope he understands. I ran faster and faster until I couldn't feel my legs anymore.

 

I've never ran so far in my life, it felt good and made me take my mind off of everything and just keep running.

 

 

I eventually ended up in Elle's neighborhood.

 

 

I saw her house from across the street I was on. I hid behind bushes from that last time I spied on her.

 

I heard footsteps come from behind me and I ran across the street.

 

 

I knocked on the door, and banged on it until someone answered.

 

I've never felt so scared, knowing Kyle's after me and he won't stop until he gets what he wants from me.

 

 

I didn't even think of properly running away before, but this is a first try.

 

Finally someone opened the door. I walked in and shut the door behind me fast.

 

 

I sighed, carelessy rolling down the door. Panting and coughing.

 

I finally got up and looked out a window. I know I can't hide from him for long.

 

 

"Sounds like you got yourself in a jiffy, huh?"

 

 

I turned around and saw that it was Elle who had opened the door.

 

"Sorry for barging in on you like this, I was runnning away." I said, looking back out the window.

 

 

"Running away from who?" she asked.

 

I sighed.

 

"There's no time to play around Elle. Can you please drive me back to the AUX hotel."

 

Elle finally took the sign that I didn't want to talk. 

 

"Not until you tell me why you're in my neighborhood."

 

--

 

After finally realizing what I had gotten myself into.

 

It was my fault, my own trust which I needed to fix.

 

 

I didn't stop running again until I reached to his apartment.

 

I went up the stairs and knocked on the door.

 

 

"Kyle?! Kyle are you there?" I say.

 

He didn't answer.

 

I knocked again.

 

"Kyle please, I wanna talk for real." I said louder.

 

 

Just then I heard footsteps, coming towards the door, inside the apartment.

 

Kyle didn't open the door.

 

 

"Come on Kyle, i'm serious!" I said banging on the door.

 

I decided to call him on the phone, if he didn't answer the door.

 

 

"Kyle let me in." I said over the phone.

 

Kyle answered lowly, which made his voice echo when he talked back.

 

"No, i'm not gonna open my door to anyone, especially you." he said.

 

 

"But Kyle, I really want to talk to you. I'm sorry for running off like that. I didn't mean it, I was just scared." I said.

 

"Scared of what?" he implied.

 

 

"I.....I was scared." I hesitated.

 

Kyle didn't answer.

 

 "I felt lost and I need you. When I realized without you that I wouldn't feel loved, I realized why I had pushing the idea of stop seeing you. You're the only person I have left in my life. Please talk to me." I said.

 

 

"No, I don't want to talk to you anymore. After running off like that, I can't trust you no more." he said.

 

"Please Kyle, i'm trying to tell you something and if you don't let me in, you'll never know." I implied.

 

 

"Sara please, I don't want to talk anymore, i'm done with you. I gave you all the love I had and you still refuse to accept it."

 

"But I do now, I just didn't realize it." I said over the phone.

 

 

"I really love you Sara and if you think saying it back is gonna help,.....well it's not. So just go already and don't come back to me." he says.

 

 

"But you can't let me go, you love me. No one ever leaves the person they love." I said, almost sobbing.

 

 

"Those times I held on to you, you slipped away and never told me the real reason why. I worry about you too much, to let you go and now i'm finally gonna do it. Goodbye Sara." he said, hanging up the phone.

 

 

I felt heatbroken, like in one of those movies.

 

Usually it works out in the end, but it's gonna be harder  for him to trust me again.

 

 

I never saw Kye this way, not until now. And if I did before, I was blind.

 

I never heard him say something so painful to me.

 

Now I know how he really feels, and it hurts.

 

 

I didn't think that I was hurting him this much inside. 

 

"Kyle i'm really sorry, please open up."

 

 

He didn't open the door for a long time. I got out of the building and I went down and out.

 

I came across the fire escape. I had a stupid idea.

 

 

If there's a way to go down, then there's a way to go up.

 

I climbed on top of a garbage can and pulled myself up onto the ladder.

 

 

I know the docter said for me to keep off my right arm, but I have no choice.

 

I'm doing this for love.

 

 

When I finally got up, I saw Kyle in the kitchen fixing a pot of spaghetti.

 

I slid the window open and climbed inside.

 

 

"What are you doing here?" he said, turning around.

 

"Kyle I need to talk, let me expli-"

 

 "No, enough!! I don't need to hear your explianation and I don't want to hear it now."

 

 

"Kyle i've never seen you this way before." I say.

 

"It's because, I want you to know how it feels to be me everyday. Ever since I met you."

 

 

He steps closer.

 

"Knowing, that I couldn't go to sleep without thinking about you. Knowing since the day we met."

 

I hesitate to respond.

 

He approaches closer.

 

 

"Knowing for the past month, that I want to wake up with you in my arms and seeing your face next to mine."

 

He steps closer and strokes my hair back, looking down at me.

 

 

"Knowing that your kisses drive me crazy, when I look at you."

 

He steps in even closer putting his hands around my face pulling me in close.

 

 

I almost hesistated to move my arm and back away from him. But my body wouldn't budge.

 

"I look through your eyes now and I see a vulnerable girl, who needs all the help she can get. But I also see someone, that I know , i'll love forever."

 

 

"Kyle," I finally respond.

 

He finally leans in and kisses me.

 

I hesitated for a moment to kiss him back, and then I let it happen.

 

 

I felt safe in his arms again.

 

He held on to me closer, pulling me tight and our kiss became more passionate.

 

 

I knew I made a mistake, but I never meant for Kyle to feel unhappy and always put try to adhere for my pushing away.

 

He pulled away and let go of my waist. 

 

"I'm sorry Sara, but it's not gonna work out. If you don't tell me that you love me."

 

 

He sighs, letting go of my hands.

 

I strickenly look up at him.

 

"Tell me you love me?" he said.

 

 

I hestitated, but then I realized how much I needed him. And if I didn't tell him how much I loved him, I would lose him forever.

 

And I don't want to lose Kyle.

  

And it's Kyle.

 

I love Kyle.

 

 

I thought about this for a moment, then I finally said it.

 

"Kyle,....i.....love you."

  

I said it againm this time with more confidence. "Kyle. I love you." 

 

 

He turned away, not looking at me.

 

 

"Kyle I mean it, i'm never gonna love anyone else other than you."

 

Kyle stepped back a few steps.

 

"I can't believe you." he said.

 

 

"What?" I said back.

 

"Because I don't believe you."

 

"Well i'll make you believe me."

 

 

I walked towards him and pressed my lips up against his.

 

He didn't respond by kissing me back.

 

 

I tried harder but his lips wouldn't budge.

 

"Come on Kyle, I really love you. I'll do anything to show it." I said, still holding his face.

 

 

He walked away from me.

 

I hesitated to speak again.

 

I ran after Kyle and pulled him down on the couch.

 

 

He laid on the couch trying to get up, but I pinned him down.

 

 

"Listen here you jerk, I love you and I said it to your face. Can't you just accept my love?" I said

 

He sighed, then finally answered. "No."

 

 

I ran out of ideas.

 

I stayed on top of him, kissing Kyle until he refused to kiss me.

 

 

I knew he couldn't resist my lips, so I had to use them to distract him. 

 

Finally after trying so hard, he gave up and kissed me back. Making me feel relief for once, knowing he had sympathy for me.

 

 

We stayed there kissing for while, till he pushed me off suddenly.

 

"No!... i'm sorry Sara. I can't do this, even if you love me."

 

 

I didn't think what would happen after we made out, but I had to think of something.

 

"We can do this now. I'll make you feel wanted. Please, i'll do anything to prove that I love you." I say.

 

 

"Really, you're willing to let me in?" Kyle asked.

 

"Yes!! i'll do anything, even if it means having you to myself." I said.

 

 

What was I thinking? And after all those years of telling myself I wouldn't do it for anyone, even Kyle.

 

But I was desperate to have him in control and to love me back.

 

"Well, we can do this right now...." he said, getting up from the couch.

 

 

I looked at him seriously.

 

"Right now?" I said nervously.

 

 

I felt my eyes burn, and tears filling up my view.

 

My tears stung like a bullet, Kyle would do anything to let me in his heart again.

 

 

I gave up and wiped my tears, before Kyle could see them.

 

I knew Kyle had a thing, when he saw me crying. He's not gonna wipe away my tears and make it better, if he doesn't believe that I love him.

 

And I still had a chance.

 

 

I climbed out, on the fire escape stairs and started walking down.

 

But I stopped to say one last thing before I did something stupid.

 

"Kyle. I just want to let you know that if I don't make it or survive, you at least knew that I said my last i love you. I really do love you Kyle, and if you don't believe me, just watch me." I say.

 

 

I kneeled down on the fire escape stairs.

 

He turned to me, before heading back to the stove to turn off the fire.

 

"I didn't know what was ahead of our relationship. I mean you practically ran after