Yes - Santosh Jha (e reader comics TXT) 📗

light of the day as bright as it could be. It is something, which most people do not register but there are very few mornings, when you wake up and feel yourself in fullness, completeness and entirety. She is feeling the same. Her innate consciousness has had a fruitful night. It has done its optimal pruning and de-cluttering. She feels herself in optimality and can see the message the morning has sent for her. She also notices; her mobile phone is also blinking. A message awaits her there too!

‘I am sorry. I probably burdened you too much too soon. I shouldn’t have. I wish, you just feel happy and fulfilled. I am home all day. We can talk whenever you feel like. I just wish to tell you; it takes years for a relationship to show up utility and worth. When you were born, you didn’t know your parents would be such a huge asset for you. You and I may have born to each other only now but, I am already sure of your worth for me and wish to assure you, when we sit and talk, you shall journey many years in just a few hours with me. Give me and this probability a chance.’

She reads his message and cannot resist a smile. She is amazed, how much he knows about her. He already has her personal mobile phone number. Once again questions start cropping up in her mind – how, where, when etc. However, she successfully resists them. After reading his message, she has begun to accept that he is not unknown to her. She is also beginning to be sure what she has to do. Probably, she has smelt the fragrance of simplicity and innocence, which define what this man says, does and makes her feel like. She has accepted; she shall read the whole book. She shall be there to witness what the author outlines and ends with.

She picks up her phone and calls her best friend, who she has known since childhood to check whether she remembered anyone by his name from their childhood list of acquaintances. She also wished to share all this with her and know her take on what she would do, if she were in her situation. She finds her phone switched off. She drops her a message. Next, she calls her secretary to inform that she wouldn’t be coming to office.

As she finishes her tea, she sits relaxed and thinks of her life so far. She had a tough life. She had many strange situations and precarious periods in her life but she never thought of any need to have a partner in life. Her parents supported her and her childhood best friend remained by her side to make her emerge winner in all situations. Her intelligence, her innate cognitive capability to see and accept the root causalities in whatever happened in her life, stood her in good stead. She is not only successful but also well poised and extremely settled in her life. However, never ever in her life she was faced with what she had to last night. She still has to connect so many loose ends. But, her poise has accepted the singular and simple approach to the issue at hand. Compassion and innocence are the elements that define her at her age.

Often, people confuse readiness with a state of committing to a particular reality. Being ready, usually delineates a person’s endowment and possession of specific tangible and intangible elements to face the reality best. However, in true and holistic sense of term; readiness essentially means being compassionately and sincerely open and receptive to any reality or situation, which comes. The water is in perfect and true readiness. It is ready for any reality – a glass, a bottle, a bowl or a straw. It has the readiness for acceptance of any shape and size; still retaining 100 percent essence of its true being-ness. Humans cannot be in true readiness ever. They instinctively seek specifics from the probable reality or situation and stupidly assume that they have the suitable and matching elements of the same specific. It seldom happens. Reality is hugely randomized and heuristic. The only readiness is nothingness – the vacuum of specifics. She is still not in this readiness but has consciously accepted to arrive at it. This is what shall help her the most. This preparedness is the sincere and optimal precursor of the avowed readiness.

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As the door bell rings, she expects him to be there…

‘Good morning! You may have doubts that I know everything about you and that is why I have come up with an opportunity to validate it. I have prepared your favorite breakfast and exactly the way you cook it. You check and taste it. If it is the same, you shall have the reason to believe me.’

She can see, he already has a big tray with plates covered in his hands. She has no reason to disbelieve him. She makes way for him and he heads towards the dining table. He puts the plates exactly where she always sat around the table. As if he had already been to her house, he enters the kitchen and within seconds comes back with spoons, forks and the glasses. She has no reason to disbelieve what is on the plate beneath the cover. It has been cooked even better than she usually manages…

She thanks him but also complains he should not have taken trouble for her.

‘Two corrections here. First, I have not done it for you but for myself. Secondly, it is not a trouble; it is an expression of joy for myself. Everything worthy and of any utility is always within us. It is absolutely cognitive. There can be billions of dollars in the bank and someone sure has palpable joy in it. Someone however may derive equal or more joy and satisfaction in making favorite breakfast for someone whom he values beyond all possessions and attainments. Reality is never singular as different consciousnesses have different cognitions and therefore different sense of worth and utility.’

‘If you value the person so much, why are you not allowing her the liberty to ask questions and seek answers?’

‘It is because she is much more valuable than questions and answers, which anyway have no relevance, if she sees and accepts the reality from my end. I told you, it is all cognitive. From where you are, you see value and worth in questions about some facts. I am at tree-level consciousness and cognition and I have a singular worth and utility in and about the person. If the person, I value more than everything I have in my life, accepts the primary hypothesis that she can allow me continuity of communication, the answers she seeks are just minutes away.’

She says nothing; finishes her breakfast, takes the plate to kitchen and stays there for a while. She takes few long breathes and returns to the stage to deliver not the character but her real and true self.

She takes his hand and leads him to his flat, locking up her own flat. Inside his flat, she makes him sit on the carpet mat and positions herself on the floor, facing him. This milieu suits her. The emptiness of the open and uncluttered space extends her the maneuverability of communication and expression. She needs herself to be in her elemental best.

‘Let us drop all questions and all answers. Let us also drop all propositions and all issues of worth and utility. Let us talk you and me. You are you and I am me. Then, there is this huge space of life-living where you and I can visualize and position ourselves as. The spaces have specificities. These specificities have nomenclatures and some sort of cultural identities. These identities have specificities of benchmarks and appropriates. These appropriates shape up individual or personal behaviors and actions. I know you understand what I am talking about. This is a complex and correlated chain of cyclic situations. I truly understand and appreciate that you wish and propose that you and I should stand beyond this cyclicality and accept an open space of being-ness, where what matters; what has singular worth is only you and I. Am I right?’

‘Keep going… you are the author and I am now the reader. I am there till the end of the book…’

‘Okay. The small trouble is; or you can say the small issue is; everyone is always specific to and in constant relationship with his or her ambient milieus. So, your consciousness is in relationship with your own milieu, which I have no information about and my consciousness is relative to my own milieu, which you say and I believe you know everything about. You may have completely divorced and dissociated from your milieu to be in an open and completely new space with me. Or, probably you already belong to the new milieu you have designed as per your consciousness and cognition. However, I am still married to and somehow deeply associated with the milieu I have been with for so many years. Your hypothesis is about me agreeing to divorce and dissociate and then seek information about the proposed new space where you and I are supposed to move in. But, you can see, it is not an easy thing and not doable within hours or days. It is going to be a slow and steady process, requiring loads of appropriate information about so many things. I hope you agree.’

‘It is surely not about me agreeing. It is about you arriving to an agreement. Where you have to arrive is not about divorce and dissociation. My hypothesis does not seek that. You have very beautifully painted the situation we stand now. The only missing color is that of your simple expression that you are open to this probability about a possible divorce and dissociation; given that I process all possible information, which you shall seek.’

‘But your hypothesis is also imminently linked to an entirely novel situation I have never ever contemplated. It is one thing to believe you and accept association with you and altogether different thing to also agree to leave the milieu I have been settled with for decades. And then, there is entirely different issue of moving to a new and completely unknown milieu, which I have never ever visualized me being into. It is not easy. It is a layered situation and requires layered judgment of different factors.’

‘Yes. I accept the scenario exactly the way you have expressed. That is why I insisted that we move from one step to another. The first step is your acceptance of association with me and a readiness to an audience and detailed discussion over all other probabilities of subsequent steps. I just wish you to say, I am not closing doors; I am open to probabilities you present for my consideration. I do not need to tell you that I value you beyond anything and therefore, very naturally, when I seek you and your association for rest of my life, I shall only be too happy and proud to align all probabilities to the best of your satisfaction and bliss.’

This brings shine and smile in her eyes. He can see the mischief building up in her eyes. She is enjoying the conversation.

‘You are trapped now. You just said, only those probabilities shall be accepted by you, which shall have my seal of satisfaction and bliss because you value me more than anything. You said that, I heard you right. Then, it is to my primary and utmost satisfaction and bliss that you tell me right now everything about you and how could you get to know everything about me. You said you value me beyond anything. Then, you cannot deny me my bliss.’

He can clearly see her innocence and simplicity raining from her expressions. He can feel she has already accepted him and is willing to journey with