No place like hell - H.N. S (e ink epub reader .TXT) 📗

see Jack, but Simon in front of me and my instincts just took over.
I started to cry and beg for my release as my body shrunk to protect my body from any attack.

-Jack's P.O.V-

I could feel her tensing beneath me and it saddened me that she still didn't trust me so i reached out and put my hand on her shoulder to try and comfort her but she jumped away from me and seemed even more scared. I mentally kicked myself for the fear i saw in her eyes, i never wanted to see that again.

"Just because i was forced to tutor you doesn't mean we're friends and definitely doesn't mean you can just willingly touch me whenever you want.." Her words were like a knife to my heart, she was right she was forced to be here with me but i don't care, i had never felt this way about anyone before. I put my hands up in a defensive way as my eyes mirrored the pain i was feeling from her words, and i stepped forward, i just wanted to cage her in my arms and keep her in my protection forever. To show her that everything was alright.

Her hand flew up as she stepped back, stopping me in my tracks and closed her eyes. Tears started to blur my vision but stopped when i zoomed in on her hands. They were covered in scars, both old ones and fresh ones and i lost control of my body, i wanted to know who had caused these, to who had damaged what is mine.

I ran to her and grabbed her hand and pulled it closer to me so i could examine it closer. "WHAT IS THIS?" I didn't mean to shout but i want to know so i could kill whoever the bastard was!

Her eyes were tearing up as she looked at me with pure fear and her eyes darkened. I snapped out of my anger as she started to shrink towards the floor and cried for me to let her go.

I released her arm, but before she could hit the floor i wrapped my arms around her waist and sat her on my lap. She started to hit and push me away, but she belonged in my arms.

"I’m sorry, i'm so so sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you, i'm sorry" I tried to apologise because it killed me to see her like this. She stopped hitting me as i cradled her closer, her head fell and rested on my shoulder and her unsteady warm breathing hit my neck.

After sitting like this for a while, she started to calm down and her crying turned into a whimper. If i thought she couldn't be more attractive and it made me think back to her warning me about never touching her again but i will always touch her, because she’s mine!

Just holding her petite body close to mine had my body acting on its own and i could feel my cock getting semi-hard. I heard her let out a small giggle, so cute and sexy, i had now become completely hard.

She lifted her head up and stared at me with her puffy red eyes. "Maybe you should sort that out" I followed her eyes down to the bulge in my pants. I blushed and got up, with her still in my arms. I didn't want to let go, but i could see i was making her uncomfortable.

"Erm.. i'm just going to get a shower.. just start on the work i'll be a sec."

I ran into the bathroom and turned the shower on cold and let it run over my body, but i couldn't stop thinking about her, about her in my arms, and i went hard again.

-Emma's P.O.V-

Jack had been in the shower for a while and every time i thought about being close to him i blushed. When we were cuddling i could resist noticing that he smelt like lavender and the warmth from his body wrapped around my body, comforted me. While he held me, just for a moment, i had forgotten everything bad in my life. Jack has been the second person i thought i could let my guard down to, but i can't because if he gets too close he will find out about what Simon does to me and i know he will be disgusted and never want to see me again.

Just the thought of not being close to Jack made my eyes start to water, and what’s more is that if Simon thinks i'm getting too close to Jack, he will harm us both. But i held the tears back and repeated in my head 'it's fine Emma, just stay away and no-one will be harmed! not again..

I was ripped from my thoughts as Jack walked back into the room.. topless!! A drop of water fell from his sexy wet brown hair and down his perfectly chiseled abs and through his snail trail then absorbed into the towel tied low on his waste.
I swallowed the lust away and bit my lip as my eyes started to travel back up, until my eyes met his. He was looking at me and i blushed.

"like what you see?" He raised his eye brow

"pushhhh, w..what? no..." i turned my head away from the awkwardness and heat filled my cheeks.

Jack chuckled as he rustled through his walk in wardrobe before re-appearing fully dressed and i sighed with disappointment. Wow, what’s happening? i can't think this way!
Chapter 5- Is the cat out of the bag??

For the rest of the day we sat at his desk and worked on poetry, and i was grateful that we acting as if my little break down didn't happen.

I leaned over to turn the page when Jack reached and placed his soft yet strong hand in mine. Shocked i quickly turned, my eyes met his as he leaned in closer, my nose was now filled with the lavender smell radiating off of him.

"please tell me how you got these scars on your hand" he whispered and his lips brushed my ear. His question surprised me, and i quickly searched my brain for a believable excuse..

"erm.. when i get nervous... i press my nails into my palm.. i guess i don't realise how hard i press sometimes.." its was true, just not completely true. I couldn't look at him as my eyes started to fill with tears.

"Why do you get so nervous? some of these are fresh.." he traced his finger over the line of freshly broken skin "..did you do this when you were with me" His voice broke and i could feel that he was hurt and didn't want to know the true answer. I couldn't find my voice so i just nodded for 'yes'.

He gripped my hand tighter "i'm sorry, please don't.." he whispered and a tear fell on my arm. I looked up to see tears fall from Jacks eyes, something i never thought i would see someone like Jack do.

A sudden flush of feelings filled me and i never wanted Jack to cry over me but i wanted him to wrap his arms around me again so i can feel protected and safe in his arms.

"don't be... its not your fault.. i just get nervous”

Jack put his hand under my chin, lifting my face up so that we were looking into each other’s eyes and leaving only a small space between us. Before i could turn away Jack closed the inch between us, softly brushing his lips against mine. At first he was gentle with me as if i was fragile and easily breakable, but soon he deepened the warm kiss and it got rougher.

We separated momentarily, both of us gasping for air, “S..stop...” was all i was able to say before our lips connected again. Jack had one hand snaked around my waist whilst the other was in my hair pushing me closer to his muscular, warm body.

He traced his tongue across my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter my mouth but i kept my lips shut. I wanted him, i needed him! But i couldn’t, i didn’t want Jack to get hurt just because he wants another fuck buddy and i didn’t want to be hurt just because i was added to Jack’s list of the many sluts he has slept with. So with all the strength i had i started to hit my fist into his hard chest trying to push him away but he only moved his hands from my waist to my wrists to stop me from hitting him.

I winced again at the pain shooting from my bruised wrist and hot tears began to run down my cheeks and onto Jacks. He pulled away and i took that chance to grab my things and run out the room and down the stairs.

I was just about to reach the front door before i felt a familiar grasp on my elbow pulling be back and into a warm embrace. “I’m sorry, i keep hurting you..”

I pulled away, my anger helped me ignore his upset expression. “stop.. just stop apologising! I know you don’t really mean it!” It started as a whisper but I finished it shouting at him.

“I do mean it, i care about you Emma!” His 6ft4 figure drowned my 5ft5 body, but i still kept my ground.

“ha! Is that what you tell all the girls so you can get them into bed with you!”

Jack looked down at his feet and whispered “I admit i’ve slept around, but you’re different!” He now looked up at me, square in the eyes with fire burning in his and full of confidence “I’ve never felt this way about someone before! Just from the way you concentrate in class makes my heart beat faster and for god’s sake i got a hard on just from being close to you!” What he said blew me back. I wanted to believe him, but he’s just like every other guy.

I looked away “can you just take me home..”

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The ride home was quiet and awkward, although i appreciated the silence and concentrated more on keeping my nerves under control, using the only method i knew how to.. i guess i’m going to have more scars on my hand.

We pulled up outside my house at 3:34pm. I sighed with relief when i saw that Simon wasn’t back either.

I went to open the door when Jack gently placed his hand on mine. I looked from his hand to his face and