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chest. Her eyes are slightly puffy so I'm assuming she was crying.

"Hey... Everything okay?" I asks looking between the father daughter duo.

"Yeah." She smiles at me. "Who's up for a run later? We could go to the waterfall with mom and Jackson's parents?" 

"I'm down." I say as soon as the suggestion leaves her dark pink lips. She smiles and then her dad agrees too. The others get home and they agree to it. We go to the waterfall and play around for a bit before we have to head back. Alex and I grumble at the same time causing everyone to laugh. "Race ya!" I say to Alex, already stating to run. I make it to the house and think I beat her, but as I look up the stairs, shes sitting there picking at her nails. My jaw drops and she laughs. "H...How??" I ask shocked.

"I'm faster and there is a back door." She laughs.

"Jerk."

 

Chapter eighteen

 ~Alex~

 

That night I slept alone and it was weird. Well, I guess I can't say slept, since I didn't sleep at all. I miss Jackson's warm embrace and his hot breath blowing my hair slightly. I miss him stroking my hair or back as I drift off to sleep. I just miss him. God... One week and I'm in deeper than ever. Its okay though... Three weeks of this, and then I wont. I'll only be attracted to my mate. Ugh. Who am I kidding? I'm counting on finding my mate right away but I might not. I've never liked anyone before Jackson. This is weird. So, so weird. I don't like it. I groan into my pillow and flip out of bed, ending up on the floor. A laugh comes from my door and I look up to see Jackson leaning in the doorway.

"That looked fun." I grumble in his direction and he laughs again. "What happened to the morning person I know?" 

"She died when she got no sleep." I mumble but he still hears it.

"Maybe it was something in the air. I couldn't either." 

'Thats what you think.' I think to myself. Although I'm not sure of his reason I do know mine. I'm a lovesick puppy. I groan again as I get up and walk to my closet. Grabbing my clothes I feel his eyes on me which makes me quite nervous but I shake it off.

"Can you drive me to school?" He asks.

"I do everyday you weirdo." I respond raising an eyebrow but not turning to him.

"I know... It's just some people said some things so I was wondering..." Now my head shoots to face him.

"What did they say???"

"Just that you were... well they said cheating on me... But we're dating... I mean not! Not dating... So it would technically be true. Sorry! I mean wouldn't. Shit." He whispers the last thing unlike the mess of what he said before. "I guess what I'm trying to say is I was wondering if you were going with your real boyfriend after or before school." I stand there frozen for a while, before going up to him and putting my hand on his chin to drag his gaze from the ground to mine.

"I dont have a boyfriend. And I find it kind of pointless considering I can find my mate in three weeks." I give him a weak smile while my mind goes to a dark place.

Well what about Jackson? You might not be here in three weeks. Just give up. No one would want you. You don't deserve anyone. Jackson will find someone perfect and you'll always be in love with him. He doesn't care about you. Its all an act. He's using you. Its all fake. You are nothing. Give. Up!

"Get out!!" I remove my hand from him and back up. He steps forward and reaches out to me while asking if I'm okay but I just scream for him to get out again.

"Alex..." 

"Out!!!" I scream louder. He looks hurt but gets out, slamming the door behind him. I go to the drawer and grab the blade. I hesitate with it over my skin as I ball my eyes out. I hear my door open and hit the wall but everything is a little hazy. The blade is taken away quickly as I faintly feel arms wrap around me. That is all before it all fades.

 

 

Chapter nineteen

 ~Jackson~

 

I'm hurt that she pushed me away so suddenly. What did I do? I slam her door and stalk over to my room. Dylan was running up the stairs as I shut my door but I ignore him. I go to my phone and start texting my friends before school, when Dylan yelling interrupts me.

"Someone call the doctor now!!!" I step out of my room annoyed but my heart drops. He's carrying a limp body in his arms bridal style. That limp body just happened to be the person I was in love with. Yeah yeah, that's a strong term but honestly it's true. I have my phone out and its ringing before Blair and my parents can get up the stairs. The pack doctor rushes over and has everyone except her dad leave the room. No one was happy about it but we did it anyways. About 20 minutes later Dylan comes out and sighs a sigh of relief.

"She's fine. She just passed out from... Stress. Blair can I talk to you?" They go downstairs and my parents go to their room for a bit. I decide to snoop and see what they are talking about so I follow them even though they've been down for about a minute already.

"What was it really?" Alexs mom asks.

"She had another lapse. I figured thats what it was but I had to be sure since... Shes going to be mad at me but I need to tell you something." He opens his mouth to say what, but then the doctor comes down the stairs noisily causing them to stop. Ugh. Lapse of what??

A few hours later Blair is upstairs talking to Alex after talking to Dylan again. I'm sitting on the couch with my parents and her dad watching the football game when Blair storms down the two sets of stairs and out the front door angrily.

"Mom! Mom wait! Please! Mom!" Alex runs after her barefoot. I get up to try to help but Dylan stands up and puts an arm in front of me.

"They need time. Blair will get over it soon. She's done this before and they come back fine."

"But-"

"Damn Jack. You're in deep." My dad says.

"Huh?"

"In looooovveee." He wiggles his eye brows suggestively and everyone laughs at my reddend cheeks.

 

Chapter twenty

 ~Alex~

 

I wake up to a pounding headache and a few minutes my mom comes in.

"Hey mo-"

"Show me your arms. Now." She demands. 

'Dad! What the hell???' I ask him.

'She had to know Alex. Even if shes mad it'll blow over soon. Just explain it to her. Now go.' I sigh and pull my hoodie off, leaving me in just a tank top. Her eyes drift to my arms and she gasps.

 "Alex! I thought your dad was lying! How could you?? You could have died!"

"Mom I wasn't pushing hard enough for that... It was just a release... It felt like that could let all the pain out! I'm sorry..." I respond, putting my sweater back on.

"Really?? We got you pills to help you! We were always there! What, is our family not enough for you?? Fine then! I'll leave!" She turn and starts out my door and down the stairs.

"No! That's not what I mean! Mom. Mom! Mom wait! Please! Mom!" I run out the front door after her, not caring that I was barefoot. I bolt down the driveway and in front of her, putting my hands on her shoulders to stop her. "Mom... I promise you that I'm okay. You and dad and Myah and Ashton and Jackson are all I need. I'm so... So sorry. I should have told you but I swear I won't cut too deep. I love you so much... Please don't leave me mama... Please..." I beg. She looks up at me and I see that ears are rolling down her face. I pull her into my arms and rest my chin on her head, using my two inches on her to my advantage.

"Baby I'm just so scared that I'll lose you!" She sobs. "You are the most important thing in my life... I swore to myself on the day I found out you would be coming that I would protect you with my life and I cant lose you!"

"Mama you won't lose me... I'm okay. I'm sorry that I'm a disappointment..." I murmur. She pulls away and rests her hands on my cheeks.

"Dont you ever think you are a disappointment young lady. You are so so important and deserve so much better than to be stuck with these stupid things." She hugs me and then we head back, arm in arm.

 

Chapter twenty-one

 ~Jackson~

 

They come back and both of their eyes are puffy