Let me Hate you by Anjaani (the reading list .TXT) 📗

Asmaira's decision

The next morning, when Asmaira woke up, she found the room to be empty. She felt hurt, thinking now that Amaan avoided her, whereas Amaan thought she might be scared to see him again in the morning, and he left early for the office.

It’s been a week since her pregnancy news came out, and Fariya already confined Asmaira to her room while Maya brought food to her room. Since it was Asmaira’s first pregnancy and seeing the lack of her enthusiasm over her health, Fariya herself set all the rules for her. Even Kabir was brought to her room, and Amber had to do all his chores instead of Asmaira.

It has been a week since their confrontation, and since then, she has never seen Amaan again. She was clueless that every night Amaan came back from the office and talked to her in her sleep. He didn’t want to make it more difficult for her than it was already. His presence will only make her uncomfortable; he chose not to come in front of her for some time. However, Asmaira thought he was angry with her for taking Raina’s place again.

“I know what I need to do,” Asmaira said while gazing towards the sky.

The next day Asmaira was surprised to see Amaan in their room. What surprised her more was he was packing his suitcase without turning to look at Asmaira, who was waiting for him to look in her direction; however, Amaan was in a hurry as he had to deal with an urgent meeting which he was flying to New York.

Seeing him walking towards the door, Asmaira couldn’t resist and asked, “Are you going somewhere because of me?”.

Her question made him halt in his track. Hearing her after so long, he had an urge to walk back and hug her. Still, he didn’t, thinking how his desire for her would make her scared. He simply replied, “No.”

Why does she blame herself? He couldn’t help but think.

With his blank reply, she was even more determined she was going to do the right thing.

“Asmaira, are you going somewhere?” Fariya asked, noticing her.

“Umm, I was thinking of going to mother’s house,” Asmaira felt guilty, but she had to lie.

“Kabir might be sleeping, let me ask Amber to wake him,” Fariya said, but Asmaira interrupted her; “it’s ok, I won’t take too long. I will be back before he awake”. Having said that, she quickly walked away to escape from Fariya’s question.

It has been 2 days since Amaan left, and Asmaira doesn’t even know when he will be back. Fariya was surprised when she noticed Asmaira’s driver.

“Where is Asmaira?” she questioned him, seeing the car empty.

“Mam insisted that she will go herself,” he answered.

“Why did you let her go alone? Don’t you know she is pregnant?”, Fariya was furious.

“Why didn’t you inform me before” she raised her voice.

Meanwhile, Asmaira was sitting on a bench and waiting when something occurred to her. She immediately took her phone out and called Amaan; to her dismay, it was switched off. She was still contemplating when a thought came into her mind. She was still fidgeting with her phone, pondering over her idea. However, she went ahead and typed a message to Amaan.

On the other side, Amaan’s flight landed, and he was collecting his luggage. When he turned his phone on, he received notifications. He smiled, seeing there were messages from Asmaira; however, soon, his smile vanished, and he dropped his suitcase in shock.

I know you don’t want to talk to me but please, once you read my messages.

I know you are angry with me, and you have every right to be. After all, it was my mistake. You were right when you said I was taking Raina’s place.

But I swear I never ever intended to do that, please don’t hate me. I can’t stand your hatred for me. I know I can’t change what happened that night, but surely I won’t make you suffer by binding you to me with our child.

Amaan’s heart started beating rapidly, reading her message, and he had a notion that something terrible was going to happen, and her last message proved it right.

I now am fully aware of my place as Kabir’s mother, and I will only be Kabir’s mother.

He frantically dialed Asmaira’s number; much to his horror, it was going through her voice mail. Meanwhile, Asmaira was going through her scan and was requested to turn off her phone.

Amaan immediately called Fariya to check on Asmaira, and to his utter shock, Fariya told him about her going to meet her mother alone. He knew she would not go to her mother’s house, leaving Kabir at home.

“Asmaira, please just don’t do anything before talking to me,” he prayed while trying to call her again.

“Mam, the doctor will see you now,” the receptionist informed Asmaira.

“The baby seems to be healthy, is there any reason for abortion?” the female doctor said in her professional tone.

“It was unplanned, and my son is still very young. I can’t handle two babies right now,” Asmaira said with a neutral expression.

“Well, your reports don’t look good to me. We need to conduct some tests to make sure your body is prepared for abortion,” she said.

“I heard in early stages, I can abort the child with a pill,” Asmaira asked.

It looked like Asmaira was eager to abort the child to the doctor, but only Asmaira knew she was dying with each minute she was nearing to kill her child.

I had to do it; I am so sorry, baby, she cried inwardly.

“Yes, but in your case, I won’t suggest you without going through a test. A risky abortion can lead to infertility, and we have to make sure it doesn’t affect your fertility”.

“How much time will it take to get the results?”, Asmaria gulped hard.

“Mostly 1 hour, and if reports are normal, you can take the pill as per your convenience, but it could be painful”. The doctor said without any emotions.

Asmaira simply nodded, not able to say anything. She was going to lose her child, the child she had with Amaan. She didn’t have the heart to decide, but whenever she saw Kabir, it reminded her of her betrayal to her dying sister.

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