I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Chapter Thirty Four

Jessica’s Pov

 

The sounds of birds chirping woke me up from my sleep. I looked around me and I noticed that I was in my room? But I remember sleeping at the balcony, how did I get here? I checked the time and it was almost twelve noon.

Oh no, did I sleep that long? I tried to get off my bed but the sharp pain I felt in my head stopped me.

“Arrghh” I groaned and held my head. I am lightweight. I only drank one glass of champagne. I heard the sound of the door opening and I looked towards it. It was Christian carrying a tray of sandwich and  a mug of probably coffee.

“You up already?”  He said as he walked towards me , placed the tray beside me and sat down on my bed.

If Christian did this about three months ago, I won’t be shocked because I am used to him being like this to me but the situation is different now. He is engaged. I am not complaining but the guilt I feel won’t let me. He cares for me so much but I am about to break his heart again because of my selfishness . I will try my possible best to bring them back together. Of course , after I break them up. But after this , I will back out and accept my fate of being just the best friend.

“What are you doing here?” I asked

“What do you mean what am I doing here?” He looked at me confused “I brought you food and drugs. You slept off at the balcony and was shivering when I saw you. You definitely have caught a cold. Here open your mouth” he said as forced my mouth open and put the pill in. He held the cup to my lips and helped me drink it. After I took the pill, he tried to feed me but I stopped him because I know how his actions get to me. I am scared that one day , I might not be able to control myself.

“I will eat by myself ” I rejected him  and eat the food myself.

He did not say anything afterwards  and just stared at me while I eat. When I was halfway done with the sandwich, he finally decided to break the silence.

“The others are preparing to go on a cruise. Don’t worry, I will stay home with you.”   Christian said and i stared at him shocked. Why does he keep doing this? His words, his actions and the way he treats me feels like a guy talking to a girl he loves. It confuses me.

I thought he would stop treating me like this when he started dating Evelyn but I was wrong. Although I love the way he treats me but it doesn’t help me to move on. It makes me crave him more when I know he can’t be mine. He acts like he loves me but that is where it ends. He doesn’t take any action. But if he loved me, why hasn’t he asked me out? Is it because of my family background? Even among the selected girls, Evelyn’s family background is the most outstanding. If I was rich, would he have asked me out?

Author’s Pov

“Christian, if Evelyn was poor and her family background wasn’t so good, would you still have chosen her?” Jessica did not reply him but instead changed the topic. She was curious.

She watched how Christian smiled before answering her  “Jessica, I did not choose Evelyn because of her family background. You know our history together and honestly among the selected girls, she is the closest to my heart. Sometimes I even think that she is too much for me and she deserves better. I am scared that I will not treat her well. If you are worried about our relationship, then you don’t have to be. I already promised her that I will stand by her and try as much as possible to make her happy “  As soon as Christian finished talking, Jessica felt an extreme pain engulf her heart.  

She felt so guilty and so hurt at the same time.  Guilty because She was about to break them up and hurt  because she didn’t realize that someone could mean so much to him. He had never talked about his exes like this.

She didn’t want him to stay in the room any longer so that he wouldn’t see her expression .

“I am glad that you two found each other. Also, you don’t have to stay with me, I will also go to the beach “ She said while forcing a smile.

“Are you sure ?” He looked at her concerned

“Yes Christian. Now excuse me, let me get ready “ She replied and he nodded.  He gave her another look filled with concern before stepping out of the room.

JESSICA’S POV

As soon as he went out of the room, my facial expression changed completely. I was sad again and this time I did not cry. I don’t think my eyes can produce more tears. I can only endure the immense pain I feel in my heart.

It’s not like I didn’t expect his reply but it just hurts to hear him talk about someone else so passionately.

I walked to my closet and took out a two piece shorts and top. It’s floral in color and gives off beach vibes. I am not in the mood to go to the beach or wear a bikini. I am only going because I don’t want to be left alone at home plus I don’t want Evelyn and Christian to miss a fun day together. He would have insisted on staying with me if I didn’t want to go. I am about to cause a glitch in their relationship, not interrupting their time together is the least I could do.

After dressing up for the cruise on the ship, I took my empty tray of food and left my room. On getting to the living room, I realized that they were all waiting for me. They were all talking and laughing and they didn’t notice my presence. Looking at how the three girls are in the arms of the boys made me feel a little jealous. I felt like I don’t fit in this friend group and I am just the odd one out.  I think I am going to be the lonely seventh wheel.

“Oh Jessica, you are ready” Molly finally noticed me while calling the attention of everyone towards me.  

“Uh yeah, sorry I was late “ I said as I walked towards the kitchen to drop my dirty dishes.  

“You are not putting on a swimsuit?” Molly asked as she sized up my outfit.

“No, I don’t think I am strong enough to go into the water. I am just going because I don’t want to be bored at home”  I replied.

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