I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Chapter Thirty Seven

Author’s Pov

 

Christian’s eyes fluttered open but he immediately shut it back due of the bright light.

“I will turn off the light” he heard a voice

“Babe you can open your eyes now” Evelyn said as she stroked his hair.

He opened his eyes and was greeted with the sight of his friends.  They were looking at him with concern. He tried to sit up but the sharp pain he felt in his head pushed him back to the bed.

“Don’t try to stand up” both Jessica and Evelyn said out of concern.  Jessica tried to hold him but she stepped back when Evelyn held him instead.

Evelyn took the pill and water from the side table. “Here you go babe, this will reduce the headache” He swallowed the pill and rested back on the bed.

“What happened?” he croaked

“You do not remember?” Jake asked. Jessica was beginning to panic. What if he remembers? Will he hate me? I could not leave him in that condition, no I could not.

“I don’t know, the last I remember was when I and Jess were on the beach. I started feeling really hot because…” Christian tried hard to remember “ the drink, yes the drink. That stupid son of a bitch tried to drug Jess but I took the drink instead” he explained as anger started filling him. Jessica on the other began to sweat . Oh no he remembers, oh please God no.

“You do not remember what happened afterwards?” Molly asked him

“No” Christian said after a minute of trying to remember. Relief washed over the panicking Jessica. He does not remember. A part of her was happy that he does not remember, a part of her wondered how he would react if he remembered.  She wanted to know if he enjoyed it as much as she did. A memory she will hold forever.

“Jess told us that as soon as you got to the room, you passed out” Jake informed him

“I did?” Christian asked while looking at Jess and she nodded

“So he wanted to rape Jess while she is unconscious?” He asked again “ I am not going to forgive that motherfucker” He said angrily and tried to get out of the bed .

“No Christian don’t, we have tried to track him down but he is no longer in Paris” Luke said while stopping him

“I will find him, I will not leave any country unturned. I don’t care if he is hiding under the mountains, I will find him” Christian said with rage as his eyes turned cold.

 

Jessica began to panic. “What will he do  if he finds Peter and he tells him that the drug does not knock people out? No this is bad, I have to do something. Something to distract him” She thought. She then remembered that today is the deadline that Mirabelle gave her before she reveals her secret. Ok first she will calm him down and then send the video to him to clear Peter off him mind. Once he sees the video, Mirabelle will delete the recording and then she will help them get back together. Ok yes, that is what she will do.

 

“Christian please calm down, nothing happened to me and that is what we should be thankful for. He knows what he did was wrong that is why he fled and I am sure he will never show his face again” I tried to calm him down

“But if I didn’t interfere, he would have….” He tried to explain but I cut him off

“I know Christian, I know. But talking about it makes me think about what would have happened to me. I just want to forget everything that has happened and talking about it won’t help”  I explained to him and I watched him calm down.

“I am sorry Jess, I didn’t know you felt that way” he looked guilty and that hurt me.

“Uhm I need some fresh, I will be back soon “ I said and quickly left the room before anyone could stop me.

JESSICA’S POV

After I left the hotel, I immediately went to a supermarket to get a prepaid sim card. Of course I will not send the video with my sim card, I can’t risk being exposed. I put the sim card in my phone and I stared at the video.

 

I was about press send but I couldn’t. My hands began trembling and my heart racing. This is not who I am.  I wanted to stop myself but the thought of Christian hating me just took over giving me the confidence to press send.  Immediately an unexplainable feeling washed over me. A feeling worse than fear, anxiety and sadness all put together.  

 

I started walking back from the supermarket with gloominess and my head hung low. I felt so ashamed of myself and regretful. What have I done?  I shouldn’t have done that. Suddenly my mind thought of last night and every shred of regret I felt dissipated. Nothing else can compare to what I felt last night. Yes, i wanted to wait for marriage but I know better. I know he will never be mine  but I want my first to be with him. If I had to make a choice last night, I would do the same thing over and over again. I gave myself to the person I love for the first time ever.

 

I suddenly stopped in my tracks, I had my first time yesterday ….without protection??? Oh no, this is bad, this is really bad. I checked the time and it was two pm. I quickly turned around and ran back to the supermarket.

I quickly went to the pharmacy section and explained my situation to the sales lady . She gave me a drug and it’s prescription. She asked me if I wanted to start birth control but I refused. I know I will not be having an intimate relationship very soon. If it’s not Christian, then it’s nobody and having a relationship like that with him can only happen in my dreams. I quickly bought a bottle of water and took the drug. I can’t imagine how my life would be if I was secretly pregnant with Christian’s child and I am unable to tell him. No, i don’t think I will be able to handle that kind of pain. Oh thank God, thank you so much.

It’s being an hour since I sent the video but nobody has called me, maybe Christian has not seen it yet. It’s time to end this drama. Immediately, I went to Mirabelle’s contact on my phone and called her.  She answered on the first ring, wow desperate much.

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