Lonely Bride by Shikha A (pdf e book reader .txt) 📗

For the first time, I feel numb.

I am feeling a pain that I never felt before. Not even when the last person I called mine, my Granny who passed away leaving me alone in this world to fight.

It feels as if so many bullets have pierced my heart and now I am bleeding. I am bleeding so badly and my blood is coming out of my body in the form of tears.

‘What have I done with people? Why does everyone want to take advantage of me?’ I thought about walking in a windy street.

I know why he wants an heir so he can take the complete in-charge of the property my grandpa left for me.

But he could’ve asked me. I would’ve given him everything happily. Why do this drama of love, care, attachment, and all?

And now he wants my innocent child also in his scheme?

I think people are too practical and they are true. I am too emotional for my own good but what they don’t know is, it’s not for good it’s for bad.

My feet took me to my granny and I sat there while cleaning the dray leaf which I cleared yesterday only.

Yesterday's smiling flowers have sadness on them of dryness just like my heart.

The sadness of death.

Just like I am dying.

“Do you remember granny? I told you yesterday how happy I am?” I said while sitting on the ground while putting my head to her tomb, closing my eyes.

This made me feel like I was in her lap.

“I was lying not because I wanted to lie to you but because I was a myth.
The myth of being with someone.
The myth of being loved.
The myth of not being lonely anymore.” I started laughing like a maniac while tears strolled down my cheeks towards my chest.

“But you know, the Almighty has written my destiny with a sour mood I guess. He was so busy putting so much pain that he forgot a small amount of happiness.” I said and a hiccup leached out of my mouth.

“It hurts granny, it hurts a lot,” I said while hugging her tomb.

“It hurts here granny.” I showed her my heart.

“Why are you not calling me granny? Why are you not talking to the Almighty? He will listen to you because as usual he hates me and he will never listen to me.” I tighten my hold on the tomb.

“This all is fake. People are fake. I don’t want to be part of this world anymore granny, please call me to your world please.” I pleaded to her while sobbing as loud as I could.

Right now I don't want to worry about my surroundings. I want to cry my heart out.  
                                      
“Do you know I have become the one you wanted? I made my name the way you wanted? But now I have nothing to do in my life. I had only a dream to fulfill was your dream. And now I am done with my duty. Please call me, please granny.” I whined like a child.

She is the only one I had and still have. Though she isn’t with me, still I could feel that she is always around me. 
I know she is watching me. 
I know she is taking care of me. 
I know she will never let me feel as lonely as I can be.

“I have never thought you will be selfish like others. Now you also want to discard me the way everyone did in my life?” I said bitterly

“You also want to make me feel how unwanted I am in this world?” I asked her. My lips quivered and my body shivered.

“Can you not do that please granny? Can you please be with me forever and ever?” I begged her 

“I just want to hold you in my arms once. Please let me in your world granny please.” I beseech her. I know she is listening to me. I know that.

“Sarah my child.” I look around with blurry eyes hearing the voice I never forget in this life.

And I saw her...

She is sitting beside me wearing a peach sundress looking as elegant as ever.

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I will be updationg the next chpt tonight or tomorrow.

Love & Care 

Shikha A