Meant (To Be Yours) - Anaya Phoenix (list of ebook readers .txt) 📗

mirrors when it comes to actually being a goddess.” Marissa said, lilting her voice ever so slightly.
“You shouldn’t talk bad about her like that.” Sarah defended with a frown.
“Let me ask you a question. Do you know what she’s done to you, what she’s made you, how screwed she’s made your life now?” Rosa asked at a rapid fire and Sarah was at a loss of words.

“Exactly, we don’t even truly know what she’s done to you. As far as we know you’re just some kick ass assassin. The best fighter, strongest wolf alongside us, and basically the sweetest girl out of the three of us. That’s all. You are an instrument to help her win the war that’s coming up, and that’s all she ever wanted you for. I’m sorry to be so harsh but it’s the truth. Our mates are in this thing and ticks me off to no end, but I cannot go against her. I was created by her to be who I am, or who I will become when I am of age. A kick ass Luna who takes no shit from anybody, as was Marissa. You’re a killing machine, you can’t even get hurt. Go ahead try it nest time you’re alone, try cutting yourself and watch what happens. Trust me.” Rosa said anger alighting her little green eyes. Sarah but her lip and looked down, everything she’d said was true, she didn’t know what Mother Moon did to her, or what she’d made her. She hoped her creator hadn’t screwed her life up on purpose. That thought spiked anger in her so she closed her eyes and cracked her neck.

“Let’s go downstairs.” Marissa said through the thick tension.
“Yes, lets.” Sara quipped quickly and stormed out the room. She wasn’t thinking as she went down the stairs and into the kitchen, she wasn’t thinking when she slammed into a massive chest, and she wasn’t thinking when she let him kiss her.

His lips tasted so good, like cinnamon and pumpkin. Her will quickly faltered as he pushed her against a wall. Danger!! Danger!!! He killed your father!! Warning bells went off in her mind and her eyes popped open. He tensed and forced himself on her, using his body as a blocker and letting her feel his erection. Groaning at her stubbornness she pushed him off of her. She wiped her mouth and struggled to keep her body’s aroused state down.
“Don’t touch me, you’ve got no right.” She said and cursed internally when her voice quivered.
“I said I was sorry, this was years ago!” He pleaded, tears shining in his black eyes.
“I was 13 Drew! I was still growing! So unless you’ve got a greater answer than he hurt your feelings, just stop trying. You’re not going to win me over, for you to think you would be able to is scary.” She said and wiped angry tears from her face. In a flash he was in front of her, his hands on either side of her face and tears spilling out of his eyes.
“I know I’ve made a mistake, my wolf’s been put through hell and back. But she has your wolf, I don’t have you to comfort me and I completely understand that you’re not ready yet. Just… please don’t shut me out. I’ve been through too much and I don’t think I would be able to take it if you left me, the one person that was designed to love me flaws and all.” It broke her heart to know she was the reason he was crying.
“Baby, I’m so sorry. I can’t. You killed him, then you told me you’d never killed anyone. But you killed the one, the only one that loved me. I can’t love someone like that. Please stop crying, don’t shed your tears over me. I’m messed up, you don’t deserve me. I wish things could be different, I really do.” She told him, tears streaming down her face as she walked around him. he sobbed and grabbed her arm, he brought her back to his body. He slammed his lips against his but she didn’t kiss him back, she wouldn’t lead him on. He sobbed again and kissed her with more fervor.
“Kiss me back! Sarah please kiss me back, don’t do this!” He sobbed and she tasted his salty lips on her lips as she shook her head.
“Baby I’m sorry.” She said as she walked into the kitchen. She wiped the tears from her eyes and looked to Molly who looked at her with an understanding frown.
“It hurts at first, but then you sort of go numb. If you still wanna do this, I’m sure Thomas would be able to break the mating. I’m not asking him until you’re completely serious about this.” She told her softly as she got up and hugged her friend.
“I can’t do it Molly. Every time I look at him, I just see my father, smiling down at me. And i-it hurts so much Molly.” She sobbed and Molly [at her back, not saying anything but being comforting.
“Didn’t pan out well, huh?” Rosa asked and more tears flowed down her cheek. She didn’t answer, not trusting her voice anymore. Seems like she couldn’t trust anything anymore.

She trained with the Luna’s everyday, trying desperately to take her mind off of Drew. The Luna’s still wouldn’t tell her what was coming but she had a feeling it was something big. She and Carol were practically inseparable. When they were little they trained with each other, they had code names for what they’re attacks were gonna be and they attacked in synch. The funny part about the attacks were that they were named after old school rock songs. Like they had one that was called “Highway To Hell” when one of them announced it they only attacked with their feet. The ending strike was a kick to the side of the hood which could snap their neck. It was pretty kick ass and it was Sarah’s favorite attack. Carol’s favorite attack, however, was the one she named and designed herself. That attack was called “Seven Nation Army”. The attack basically enabled you to go ape shit on someone, but do it to the beat of Seven Nation Army. Not the original one though, which was why it took her so long to create it. Her life brightened up when some group of people called “The Glitch Mob” amped it up. They practiced it for a whole week. They ruined several punching bags in the process and their bodies were sore. They enjoyed showing their attacks to the Luna’s it gave them a sense of self pride. They smiled as they collapsed on the living room floor, gasping for air.
“They… Loved… It.” Carol gasped out and Sarah laughed airily.
“Hell… Yeah… What’s not… To love?” Sarah gasped confidently and they broke into a fit of giggles.
“Alpha Jeb want’s to see you Sarah.” Jared called out as he passed the girls and went to the kitchen.
“Ungh, and I just got to rest.” She mumbled as she got up. Carol reached up and slapped her ass, she squeaked then laughed when Carol winked up at her.
“Stop complaining and get your sweet ass up the stairs.” She said and pushed her calves.
“Fine, fine. Pushy, pushy.” She lilted as she trudged up the stairs. She smelled him before she got to the door but pushed herself to go closer.
“You asked for me Alpha?” She asked, poking her little red head through the door.
“Yes. You seem to actually conversate with Luna, and she’s been acting strange… Stranger than normal. We were wondering if there’s anything we should be worried about?” She bit her lip and stepped into the room. She crossed her arms over her bared stomach and fidgeted.
“They said something about a war. I don’t know when or where it’s gonna happen. I don’t even know who the attack is from. They said I’ll know soon enough, that I’ll be shown, but I’ve no idea what that means.” She explained then her cheeks flamed when she realized his eyes were on her. On nothing else but her.
“She’s not telling the complete truth. There’s something she’s leaving out.” He said his eyes narrowing on her. She glared at him and settled her jaw.
“I’m not telling. The Luna’s made me swear, and I’m not breaking my swear. I’m not a welcher.” She growled at him and his eyes flashed in pain before they settled on anger.
“He’s your Alpha, you can’t just defy him-“
“The Luna’s have more power than him and you know it. So shut the fuck up and mind your damn business rogue.” She spat at him and he growled. She snarled and her anger roused around her.
“How can you even speak to him like that? He’s your mate, shouldn’t that hurt you?” Heb asked and she looked to him.
“He killed my father Jeb, he’s hurt me a lot more than a few words will harm him.” She said, struggling to keep her tone respectful.
“What aren’t you telling me? Please, I need to know. To better prepare the pack.” He begged and Sarah’s will crumbled.
“We believe it’s against the hunters, but the rogues as well. They’ve paired up together. We don’t know why but… we’re training our best.” She said, sighing and feeling much older than her ripe age of 27.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner!?” He boomed and she almost winced. Almost. She snarled and clenched her fist.
“Because we knew you’d do this exact thing you’re doing now!! You’re blowing a huge fucking hissy fit because we didn’t tell you one fucking thing!” She yelled and his face grew red with rage.
“You missed out on the most important detail in the whole fucking operation!!! How am I supposed to help protect the pack if I don’t know what we’re fighting against SarahJane Montgomery!?” She gasped and stomped closer to him raising a finger in his face.
“Don’t, don’t you dare use my full name. I dropped it the moment my father died and you know it!” She yelled and he snarled.
“Sarah, please. Just tell me the rest of what we’re fighting against.” He said, pinching his nose bridge tightly.
“Hunters, probably rogues, a few vampires, fey. They’ve made a lot of allies since the last war, strong ones.” She sighed and Drew made an annoyed sound.
“I’ve got to go. I’m taking the rest of the rogues with me.” Her heart leaped forward and before she could stop herself she reached out and grabbed his forearm, stopping him.
“W-wait. You can’t go… And take all of the rogues with you. Jake has to stay here for Sammy.” She said, quickly covering up her tracks. She hadn’t seen those two in a while, she’d have to visit them later.
“I won’t take Jake then, just the adults.” He said as pain flashed in his eyes. He ripped her hand off of his arm and stormed off slamming the door behind him. She flinched and closed her eyes.
“You shouldn’t have been so hard on him.” Her emotions then hardened and anger reigned over her again. damn, her emotions were everywhere.
“He shouldn’t have killed my father.” She said coldly before leaving the room.

Chapter 8

She paced her room ripping her fingers through her hair. How