By Shore and Sedge - Bret Harte (recommended ebook reader .txt) 📗

“I’ll put up my horse first,” said Gideon gently.

“So do,” responded the widow briefly.

Gideon led his horse across the inclosure, stumbling over the heaps of rubbish, dried chips, and weather-beaten shavings with which it was strewn, until he reached the unfinished barn, where he temporarily bestowed his beast. Then taking a rusty axe, by the faint light of the stars, he attacked one of the fallen trees with such energy that at the end of ten minutes he reappeared at the door with an armful of cut boughs and chips, which he quietly deposited behind the stove. Observing that he was still standing as if looking for something, the widow lifted her eyes and said, “Ef it’s the bucket, I reckon ye’ll find it at the spring, where one of them foolish Filgee boys left it. I’ve been that tuckered out sens sundown, I ain’t had the ambition to go and tote it back.” Without a word Gideon repaired to the spring, filled the missing bucket, replaced the hoop on the loosened staves of another he found lying useless beside it, and again returned to the house. The widow once more pointed to the chair, and Gideon sat down. “It’s quite a spell sens you wos here,” said the Widow Hiler, returning her foot to the cradle-rocker; “not sens yer was ordained. Be’n practicin’, I reckon, at the meetin’.”

A slight color came into his cheek. “My place is not there, Sister Hiler,” he said gently; “it’s for those with the gift o’ tongues. I go forth only a common laborer in the vineyard.” He stopped and hesitated; he might have said more, but the widow, who was familiar with that kind of humility as the ordinary perfunctory expression of her class, suggested no sympathetic interest in his mission.

“Thar’s a deal o’ talk over there,” she said dryly, “and thar’s folks ez thinks thar’s a deal o’ money spent in picnicking the Gospel that might be given to them ez wish to spread it, or to their widows and children. But that don’t consarn you, Brother Gideon. Sister Parsons hez money enough to settle her darter Meely comfortably on her own land; and I’ve heard tell that you and Meely was only waitin’ till you was ordained to be jined together. You’ll hev an easier time of it, Brother Gideon, than poor Marvin Hiler had,” she continued, suppressing her tears with a certain astringency that took the place of her lost pride; “but the Lord wills that some should be tried and some not.”

“But I am not going to marry Meely Parsons,” said Gideon quietly.

The widow took her foot from the rocker. “Not marry Meely!” she repeated vaguely. But relapsing into her despondent mood she continued: “Then I reckon it’s true what other folks sez of Brother Silas Braggley makin’ up to her and his powerful exhortin’ influence over her ma. Folks sez ez Sister Parsons hez just resigned her soul inter his keepin’.”

“Brother Silas hez a heavenly gift,” said the young man, with gentle enthusiasm; “and perhaps it may be so. If it is, it is the Lord’s will. But I do not marry Meely because my life and my ways henceforth must lie far beyond her sphere of strength. I oughtn’t to drag a young inexperienced soul with me to battle and struggle in the thorny paths that I must tread.”

“I reckon you know your own mind,” said Sister Hiler grimly. “But thar’s folks ez might allow that Meely Parsons ain’t any better than others, that she shouldn’t have her share o’ trials and keers and crosses. Riches and bringin’ up don’t exempt folks from the shadder. I married Marvin Hiler outer a house ez good ez Sister Parsons’, and at a time when old Cyrus Parsons hadn’t a roof to his head but the cover of the emigrant wagon he kem across the plains in. I might say ez Marvin knowed pretty well wot it was to have a helpmeet in his ministration, if it wasn’t vanity of sperit to say it now. But the flesh is weak, Brother Gideon.” Her influenza here resolved itself into unmistakable tears, which she wiped away with the first article that was accessible in the work-bag before her. As it chanced to be a black silk neckerchief of the deceased Hiler, the result was funereal, suggestive, but practically ineffective.

“You were a good wife to Brother Hiler,” said the young man gently. “Everybody knows that.”

“It’s suthin’ to think of since he’s gone,” continued the widow, bringing her work nearer to her eyes to adjust it to their tear-dimmed focus. “It’s suthin’ to lay to heart in the lonely days and nights when thar’s no man round to fetch water and wood and lend a hand to doin’ chores; it’s suthin’ to remember, with his three children to feed, and little Selby, the eldest, that vain and useless that he can’t even tote the baby round while I do the work of a hired man.”

“It’s a hard trial, Sister Hiler,” said Gideon, “but the Lord has His appointed time.”

Familiar as consolation by vague quotation was to Sister Hiler, there was an occult sympathy in the tone in which this was offered that lifted her for an instant out of her narrower self. She raised her eyes to his. The personal abstraction of the devotee had no place in the deep dark eyes that were lifted from the cradle to hers with a sad, discriminating, and almost womanly sympathy. Surprised out of her selfish preoccupation, she was reminded of her apparent callousness to what might be his present disappointment. Perhaps it seemed strange to her, too, that those tender eyes should go a-begging.

“Yer takin’ a Christian view of yer own disappointment, Brother Gideon,” she said, with less astringency of manner; “but every heart knoweth its own sorrer. I’ll be gettin’ supper now that the baby’s sleepin’ sound, and ye’ll sit by and eat.”

“If you let me help you, Sister Hiler,” said the young man with a cheerfulness that belied any overwhelming heart affection, and awakened in the widow a feminine curiosity as to his real feelings to Meely. But her further questioning was met with a frank, amiable, and simple brevity that was as puzzling as the most artful periphrase of tact. Accustomed as she was to the loquacity of grief and the confiding prolixity of disappointed lovers, she could not understand her guest’s quiescent attitude. Her curiosity, however, soon gave way to the habitual contemplation of her own sorrows, and she could not forego the opportune presence of a sympathizing auditor to whom she could relieve her feelings. The preparations for the evening meal were therefore accompanied by a dreary monotone of lamentation. She bewailed her lost youth, her brief courtship, the struggles of her early married life, her premature widowhood, her penurious and helpless existence, the disruption of all her present ties, the hopelessness of the future. She rehearsed the unending plaint of those long evenings, set to the music of the restless wind around her bleak dwelling, with something of its stridulous reiteration. The young man listened, and replied with softly assenting eyes, but without pausing in the material aid that he was quietly giving her. He had removed the cradle of the sleeping child to the bedroom, quieted the sudden wakefulness of “Pinkey,” rearranged the straggling furniture of the sitting-room with much order and tidiness, repaired the hinges of a rebellious shutter and the lock of an unyielding door, and yet had apparently retained an unabated interest in her spoken woes. Surprised once more into recognizing this devotion, Sister Hiler abruptly arrested her monologue.

“Well, if you ain’t the handiest man I ever seed about a house!”

“Am I?” said Gideon, with suddenly sparkling eyes. “Do you really think so?”

“I do.”

“Then you don’t know how glad I am.” His frank face so unmistakably showed his simple gratification that the widow, after gazing at him for a moment, was suddenly seized with a bewildering fancy. The first effect of it was the abrupt withdrawal of her eyes, then a sudden effusion of blood to her forehead that finally extended to her cheekbones, and then an interval of forgetfulness where she remained with a plate held vaguely in her hand. When she succeeded at last in putting it on the table instead of the young man’s lap, she said in a voice quite unlike her own,—

“Sho!”

“I mean it,” said Gideon, cheerfully. After a pause, in which he unostentatiously rearranged the table which the widow was abstractedly disorganizing, he said gently, “After tea, when you’re not so much flustered with work and worry, and more composed in spirit, we’ll have a little talk, Sister Hiler. I’m in no hurry to-night, and if you don’t mind I’ll make myself comfortable in the barn with my blanket until sun-up tomorrow. I can get up early enough to do some odd chores round the lot before I go.”

“You know best, Brother Gideon,” said the widow, faintly, “and if you think it’s the Lord’s will, and no speshal trouble to you, so do. But sakes alive! it’s time I tidied myself a little,” she continued, lifting one hand to her hair, while with the other she endeavored to fasten a buttonless collar; “leavin’ alone the vanities o’ dress, it’s ez much as one can do to keep a clean rag on with the children climbin’ over ye. Sit by, and I’ll be back in a minit.” She retired to the back room, and in a few moments returned with smoothed hair and a palm-leaf broche shawl thrown over her shoulders, which not only concealed the ravages made by time and maternity on the gown beneath, but to some extent gave her the suggestion of being a casual visitor in her own household. It must be confessed that for the rest of the evening Sister Hiler rather lent herself to this idea, possibly from the fact that it temporarily obliterated the children, and quite removed her from any responsibility in the unpicturesque household. This effect was only marred by the absence of any impression upon Gideon, who scarcely appeared to notice the change, and whose soft eyes seemed rather to identify the miserable woman under her forced disguise. He prefaced the meal with a fervent grace, to which the widow listened with something of the conscious attitude she had adopted at church during her late husband’s ministration, and during the meal she ate with a like consciousness of “company manners.”

Later that evening Selby Hiler woke up in his little truckle bed, listening to the rising midnight wind, which in his childish fancy he confounded with the sound of voices that came through the open door of the living-room. He recognized the deep voice of the young minister, Gideon, and the occasional tearful responses of his mother, and he was fancying himself again at church when he heard a step, and the young preacher seemed to enter the room, and going to the bed leaned over it and kissed him on the forehead, and then bent over his little brother and sister and kissed them too. Then he slowly re-entered the living-room. Lifting himself softly on his elbow, Selby saw him go up towards his mother, who was crying, with her head on the table, and kiss her also on the forehead. Then he said “Good-night,” and the front door closed, and Selby heard his footsteps crossing the lot towards the barn. His mother was still sitting with her face buried in her hands when he fell asleep.

She sat by the dying embers of the fire until the house was still again; then she rose and wiped her eyes. “Et’s a good thing,” she said, going to the bedroom door, and looking