A girl always needs a little love - Z. Timol (any book recommendations txt) 📗

friends. Even though we just met Marcus, he's a great guy. He's fun to hang out with. And I'm Linda and him will still have a friendship when I'm gone, if not more. I've had a lot of friends in my life but as they say, only a few true one's really stick around. We were on our 5th round of the game when we heard a scream then a thud from downstairs. We ran as fast as we could. Grandma was sitting on the floor with her back against the wall and some papers in her hand.

 

''GRANDMA! What happened?'' we asked

''Oh Elizabeth. This is terrible'' she sobbed

''What grandma? Linda, can you go get a glass of water please''

''Sure'' she ran to the kitchen

''Come on grandma, let's get you to the couch'' Marcus said

 

We pulled her up and took her to the couch, she drank the water and tried to stop the tears. I picked up the papers and set them aside for now.

 

''Breathe grandma. That's it. Now, please tell me what happened'' I pleaded

''Lizzie. Your...mother. She..she was....p..p..pregnant'' she whispered

 

I froze. I let it sunk in. Bit by bit. All of a sudden, I was the one trying to control my breathing. I fell onto my knees and tears started to flow. Not only had I lost my parents and Daisy, but also an unborn sibling. It registered to me that it had something to do with the papers so I picked them up, and sure enough there was it. The first ultrasound scan. Linda and Marcus also sat there, stunned. Grandma was still crying, and I was just staring at the pictures. Barely seeing anything, but you know it was there. A tiny little human being, a new life that was supposed to be brought into the world. It was too early to tell the sex of the baby, but it was my sibling, another addition to the family. And now what? It's gone, lost, hopeless, dead. 

 

''Where did you find this?'' I asked grandma after she stopped crying

''It was tucked behind that blue vase'' she said pointing to the vase lying on the table

''I can not believe this. It's too much already'' I said, more like shouted

''Ok Lizzie, calm down, honey, calm down'' Linda said, hugging me

''I'm tired of 'calming down'. This is too much for me''

 

I could start to feel my heart beating faster and my breathing getting heavier. My head was spinning, the whole room was spinning. I laid my head down on the floor and tried to calm down, once again. I couldn't let this happen again. I needed to be in control.

 

''Lizzie darling. Why don't you go rest a bit? I'll bring you something to eat in a while''

 

Without speaking, I stood up slowly and walked to my room with Linda behind me. When I sat on my bed, Linda gave me a long hug, telling me to let the tears fall. I cried and cried. She lay down beside me and whispered soothing word like 'it's going to be okay' and 'don't worry, we're here for you'. They all keep on saying that, and I let them. Even though my life's a damn mess, maybe one day, maybe, those words that I keep hearing from people will come true:

 

Everything will be okay.

 

 

 

 

 

Hardest goodbyes

The packing went gracefully. Linda stayed over and Marcus came up and down. It was fun, the four of us together. But all that just led to today. We weren't able to get everything done by Sunday so we postponed our move a week, so it gave us more time. Our boxes were packed and loaded, we just had our clothes with us. It was time for the yard sale and everything was set and ready, people even started coming in. We decided that we'll finish up the yard sale, go for ice cream and then head to the airport. I walked back in the house and looked around. It was so empty and alone. It looked bigger now that there was no furniture. 

 

''It'll miss you too''

''Mom?'' I turned around

''But you have to move on. The memories aren't here darling, they're all in your heart'' she smiled

''I know. It just seems so sad to leave all this behind'' I whispered

 

She was gone. Just when I want to give her a hug or something, she disappears.

 

''Who are you talking to?'' Linda asked walking in.

''Oh, nobody. Just wandering''

''It must be pretty hard for you. I'm sorry''

''Yeah well. There ain't nothing we can do about it''

''It'll all work out. You can come visit and I'll come visit you''

''But it's so far Linda. It's not down the road anymore. We can't see each other every day in school, or on weekends anymore. It's just not the same'' I cried

''Oh come on Lizzie. You'll make me cry, the tears are for last. Let's go start selling, we've got customers waiting'' she said

 

I wiped my eyes and followed her out. Hoping this will take it's time, the best things always seem to end quickly. I remember asking my mom why.

 

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''Come on Lizzie, daddy will be waiting at home for us and Daisy is getting really restless'' mom cried

''Just a few more minutes please mummy''

 

I had spent the afternoon at Linda's and we had a tea party, it was so much of fun. But mommy had to come and ruin it. I don't know why I couldn't stay over. Linda's mom says it's fine with her. After few minutes Daisy started crying and mom looked tired, so I picked up my bag, sulking, I walked to the front door.

 

''Now Lizzie, aren't you going to say goodbye to Linda and her mom. And thank them for the wonderful time?'' mom asked

''Thank you for the wonderful time. Goodbye''

''It was nice having you Lizzie darling. Maybe next time you can stay a bit longer'' Linda's mom hugged me

''Don't forget to bring your dolls'' Linda whispered in my ear

''These girls, I tell you. Linda, you must come and play with Lizzie.'' mom said

''She will. You can't keep these two apart for less than a week'' Mrs.Grey laughed

 

We said goodbye and drove off. I was silent the whole time, not saying anything. Daisy had fallen asleep the moment mom put her down into her car chair. Mom kept glancing at me, wanting to say something.

 

''Lizzie? Why the long face?'' she asked

''It's not fair mom. You always come so early to pick me up'' I whined

''It is not early, young lady. It's almost your bed time. The time just goes fast'' she sighed

''Yes, but whenever I'm having fun, it ends so quickly. Why? Why can't it last forever?''

''Oh Elizabeth. If I could make time stop, I would. I would stop time and sleep for days on end, But that's just how life works honey. Nothing lasts forever, things end in order for you to prepare for the next thing thats about to happen. There's going to be many more fun times in your life. And boring ones too, but you just have to bare it''

 

I just nodded and looked out the window. We were almost home and it was dark.

 

''Now, show me some teeth. Come on, smile!'' mom said tickling me with her one hand, while the other was on the steering.

''Mom! Stop it!'' I laughed

''That's my girl. Now you see, that kind of fun, we can have anytime'' she laughed

 

I nodded. We can.

 

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People were everywhere, asking prices, buying stuff. Everything was almost cleared out. Grandma and Mr.Marcus went to return the car that grandma hired, leaving the three of us in charge. Even Linda's mom and dad popped in.

 

''You guys got it going. Good job!'' they said

 

I even recognized some people from school, they asked me how I was doing, and how they're going to miss me. Yeah right. Even the triplets showed up like they promised.

 

''I really love this doll'' Sam said

''And I'm taking this'' Sally said, pointing to one of my diaries that I never used. It was still sealed.

''These pens are really cool'' Suzan smiled

''Yes they are, they have 5 different colours. All in one pen. I remember buying a few dozens of them to hand out on my last day of school last year. I had few extra'' I said

''Yeah, I still have mine'' Linda said

 

We even sold some of my old books that I had read too many times. After half an hour the place was cleared. All that was left was a pack of scented candles and a two of those pens.

 

''Here you can have these candles'' I said handing them to Linda ''And for you, this pen. It's really usefull'' I said giving it to Marco and tucking the other one in my pocket.

''Thanks'' they smiled

''Wow. You kids really sold stuff'' Mr.Mthew said

''I'm ever so proud of you three'' grandma said

''Thanks. Now, what about that ice cream?'' Marcus licked his lips

''Just one minute. I just want to lock up the house and then we can go''

''I'll come with grandma'' I said

 

We went in while the rest folded up the tables and cleared up the yard. I went up to my room, former room, and leaned against the wall. It was so hurtful. I could practically see all the fun times I had in here replaying in my mind. The walls were bare and the room had an echo effect. I heard a car bycyle pull up and some noises, then grandma called from downstairs saying she was locking up. I took one more look around and a quick peek in Daisy and my parents rooms and went downstairs.

 

 

''Who was that?'' I asked

''Just some boy who heard about the sale. But was too late'' Grandma said

''Poor thing'' I sighed

 

Grandma took a long look at the house and then turned the key, she handed it to Mr.Mathew. He was going to keep it untill the triplets and their parents were ready to move in, they would have to go and pick it up from him.

 

''Ice cream, here we come'' Marcus shouted

 

We all laughed and got into the car. I watched as we drove further and further away from my childhood place. Untill the very last blurry picture of it.

 

Then it was gone.

 

 

A new start

 It was really hard saying goodbye. We all stood there just crying. Linda and I wouldn't let go of each other.

 

''I'm really going to miss you'' I cried

''Me too. Please don't forget me''

''I would never Linda. We'll always keep in touch. Okay?''

''Okay'' she sniffed

''We're all going to miss you darling'' Mrs.Grey hugged me, even she was crying.

''Now, you be happy