Alive (Notes #5) - DeYtH Banger (best ereader for epub .txt) 📗

to kill him… if it's possible why:


EACH DAYYYYYYY MISERY GOES COMPILING IN MY LIFE IT LOWERS THE CHANCE OF GOING OVERVOT AGAIN?

PEOPLEEEEEE ARE A BULLSHITTERS… SAYING SOME FUCKED UP SCREW UP SHIT…


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I AM JUST AFRAID OF NOT DOING SOMETHING DIFFERENT 
… I CAN'T WALK ON THE STREET ON THE SAME OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND THEN THERE IS A PERIOD IN LIFE WHEN YOU DON'T GO THERE FOR FEW MONTHS AND 
THEN YOU COME OVER AND STARTING TO CON IT

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NO NEED TO BE A COLD FUCKER LIFE ISN'T GETTING BETTER … MESSAGE TO ALL PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT THEY GONNA GET UNFUCKED ONE DAY…


IN MY CASE… 

TODAY I AM ALIVE - GREAT
I HOPE TOMMOROW DIE - WISH

 

 

Part 2

 Life Of Me

Chapter - Zero Progress

 What should I say?
I am not sure as for am I helping anyone?
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I am not sure as for am I living the life... which I should be living?

(Note: Nobody in the end is going to say to you that life is painful... LIFE IN THE END IS ALL ABOUT COMING AND RECALLING SOME OLD MEMORIES... WHICH ARE FUCKED UP AS HELL...)


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In other words... I have been reading pleny of books... They have started making me more stable as person... but still I have one of those rough days in which I just hate my life... I feel I have not hEpping anyone... I feel like I am useless for this complicated, sophisticated world...

Chapter - Life

 I did pleny stuff in life because life is a constant sacrafice of bishop to queen.

Come on... Everything which I did there is a reason,... but still there is no reason to continue and to try to tell more and more stories... Life is not meant to be a story... you must live life... stop joking ruining life like all other people.

Chapter - Kill Yourself

 As on the way to kill myself because of constantly getting confused, because it's too expensive to get confused.... Once you get once you gonna twice and tripple... life continues and you can't allow yourself to experience such type of stories.

 

 

I put here some of my stories too look it the way I feel... it's not like a what I have written... but more likely how makes you feel.

 

In Reddit Collection... it goes as a story...  and life continues... Joke and joke. 

 

 

 

 

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I just was feeling like I am not helping anyone... I am not making any type of impact and once this is happening... why even bothering and doing something. After all the end result isn't anything.

 

 

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Life loses it's meaning once you lost the big "WHy" of life!

 

 

Chapter - Be Fuck

 Yeah be... fuck... Life is getting worser after all I am posting there and there my works... Really nothing interesting is happening, it's just...

it's like a movie in which nothing is happening... no killing... no shouting... no anger... nothing... it's just going and going and going and mysteries no suprises... 

If life was like that... like this type of movie... I ain't gonna participate.

 

 

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I would love some sauges after I tell you that pornography is fucking younger and more younger generations... life is getting more and more screw up. It's not like the way it is... but the way it feels....

 

 

People watch motivation and really nothing do... I watch motivation... because I have lost hope in life

Part 3

Sick as fuck

Chapter 1 - Criminal

Note: The resolution of each being can continue so far until an error stops it... a glitch comes... when it gets fixed it starts another circle of resolution.... The whole thing is paradox so do and your life.


Mr. Addiction: Life gets better
DeYtH: You are full of shit

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Mr. Addiction:

- Reading 37 Books is an addiction
- Horror fanatic


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Mr. Addiction: You go out from one addiction and another start playing in your mind.


DeYtH: SILENCE... REMOVE THIS PARADOX

Clap ... slap
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Jump


Mr. Addiction:

Obsession with
- Movies
- People
- Documentaries


All this are co-category of addiction. Obsession is the other name of addiction


DeYtH: Shape shifter...


Mr. Addiction: This which you do... won't help anyway.

This which you say seals forbidden thugs nothing else... your words have no weight at all.


Mr. Addiction: You don't need any words you are fine and without them


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Scene 2

(Wooden Cabin)


Mr. Addiction: Your words can't make anything on a coffin... you are hurried
60 Feet Under The ground.


"The Person who commands is me" - Mr. Addiction




Mr. Addiction: I have a name because you gave me one... the fun thing of this whole conversation I am one of you.

Mr. Addiction: You need a face for your addiction that's why you gave me a name.


Mr. Addiction: As weak as your father


DeYtH: This is not true


Mr. Addiction: Denial won't help you.

- Confess your sins


Mr. Addiction: I won't die... if you are alive so do I

DeYtH: I can control myself.... and I will kill you.


Mr. Addiction: This all here is an example of the most foolish determination a human has ever faced.


DeYtH: I am fool so What?

Mr. Addiction: SILENCE will destroy you

Mr. Addiction: When you are alone you read stories aboit heroes, but when you are around people you watch forbidden content you think that this is the way of socializing with different types of people.


Mr. Addiction:

You put that this forbidden content have negative sides - This helps you to stop it for a week... but after a week you again come back.

Negative sides don't stop you.


DeYtH: Forbidden content was stopped by all negative sides.

Mr. Addiction:

Humans are

- Weak
- Abusing alcohol (Addiction)
- Using Drugs (Addiction)
- Smoking (Addiction)

- Weak in (thinking that they have control... of their choices but this is a lie, everything is already written and it's on the paper... You can't change the inevitable..)

Abusing Alcohol

- Still curious how the fuck does this helping.

Drugs... and Smoking

- Just need a reason to take one... but then it comes an excuse for two and being apologetic to take five and letting be sentimental to take few more. Without 15 more what type of dessert eh it be?


Mr. Addiction: Once stress overcomes, you will come back again.

Chapter 2 - Why