ALL - CLARISSA ROMERO (pdf e book reader txt) 📗

HIM. AND THEN START OVER.I WANNA GO BACK TO THE BEGING START FRESH.OR GO BACK AND WISH I NEVER MET TJ.BUT IF I DID THAT I WOULD HAVE NEVER MEET.TAVIS,DANIEL,JJ,BRODY,BOBBY,AND TJ.THEN WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED.I WOULDN'T BE THE WAY I AM NOW.I WOULDN'T BE EMO AND I WOULDN'T BE ME.AND I LOVE BEING ME.SO I DON'T WANNA CHANGE A THING. BUT GO BACK AND STOP MYSELF FROM BREAKING EVERYONE'S HEARTS.BUT GO BACK AND TAKE BACK SAYING YES TO JOHN.I HATE JOHN.I DIDN'T EVEN SAY YES MY SISTER DID FOR ME.SO I WANNA GO BACK AND TELL TJ.I SHOULD.BUT WHAT DIFFRENTS WOULD THAT MAKE. HE STILL HATES ME.

WHOLE DATE-NOVEMBER 19,2011
MONTH-NOVEMBER
YEAR-2011
DAY19
PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I'M GONNA TELL.SOONER OR LATER.I DON'T WANNA RUAIN ANYTHING.I WONT HIM BACK.BUT I DON'T NOW IF I CAN.HE SAID I CAN'T.BUT I STILL WONT MY ROMEO BACK.HE DISERVE'S TO HAVE HIS JULIET BACK.

DAY I FIGURED OUT HOW MUCH I NEED TJ

WELL ITS BEEN TWO WEEKS SINCE ME AND TJ BROKE UP. AND ITS BEEN KILLING ME.I CANT GO BACK TO SCHOOL. I CANT FACE HIM.I MISS HIM MORE THEN ANYHING.IM KINDA LEARING HOW TO COPE WITH THE FACT THAT IM NOT WITH HIM.I'VE BEEN WRITING THESE POEMS.AND I DIDNT NOW THEY HAVE TO DO WITH TJ TILL I WENT AND READ THEM.I STILL WISH I COULD START OVER.LIKE A DO OVER.I'D TAKE BACK ALL THE THING LIKE CALLING TJ “TGAY,AND I DONT NOW IF HE GOT MAD CAUSE I CALLED HIM METAL MOUTH” BUT TRUTH BE TOLD.I LOVE GUY'S WITH BREASE'S.I DONT NOW WHY.BUT ITS LIKE FUCKEN SEXY MAN.I SHOULE'VE TOLD HIM THAT.BUT I DIDNT.(I'D KILL FOR TJ.OR EVEN HURT MY FAMILY ANYTHING) I WISH GOD COULD HELP ME WITH ALL MY PROMBLEMS.WELL THAT'S THAT EXCEPT THAT FACT THAT MY LIFE IS OVER.

PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,
I'D KILL FOR TJ.OR EVEN HURT MY FAMILY ANYTHING. HE'S NOT THE SAME.HE'S DIFFRENT.AND THATS WUT I LOVE ABOUT HIM :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

FIRST TIMES WITH TJ

FIRST TIME ME AND TJ HELD HANDS-FIRST TIME WE HELD HANDS WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHIKEN TO HOLD MY HAND.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.

WHEN-FIRST TIME WE HELD HANDS WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHIKEN TO HOLD MY HAND.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.

DATE :SEPTEMBER 16,2011
WHEN :IN THE MORNIG
MONTH :SETEMBER
YEAR :2011
DAY :16TH


FIRST TIME WE KISSED – WELL WE WERE BEHIND THE SCHOOL LIKE ALWAYS AND IT WAS THE TIME THAT WE ALWAYS HEDE OUT.AND BOBBYS SAID “MAYBE WE SHOULD START HEDING OUT.”THEN TJ SAID “WE'LL START HEDING OUT AFTER I DO THIS” AND THEN HE KISSED ME.IT WAS TODALY UNCALLED FOR WHICH MAD IT WAY MORE ROMANTIC.OH AND I WAS WARING HIS HAT.
DATE:SEPTEMBER 21,2011
WHEN:AT LUNCH
MONTH:SEPTEMBER
YEAR:2011
DAY:21ST


FIRST DAY WE STARED DATEING -WAS WHEN I MET HIM THE DAY BEFORE.AND I ASKED BOBBY TO ASK HIM OUT FOR ME.AND HE SAID HE HAD TO THINK CAUSE HE'S NEVER BEEN ASKED OUT HE ALWAYS ASKED GIRLS OUT.BUT THEN AT KUNCH I HAD BOBBY GO ASK HIM WUT HIS ANSWER WAS.AND HE SAID YES.BUT I DIDN'T BELIEVE HIM SO BOBBY WENT AND TOOK HIS LAPTOP AND PUT IT NEXT TO ME SO HE SAT BY ME.THEN MARCAS G. ASKED HIM IF HE WAS DATING ME AND HE SAID YES.SO THATS WHEN WE STARED DATING.

DATE:SEPTEMBER 14,2011
WHEN:AT LUNCH
MONTH:SEPTEMBER
YEAR:2011
DAY:14TH


FIRST TIME HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND MY NECK-WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHICKEN TO HOLD.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.
DATE:SEPTEMBER 16 2011
WHEN:IN THE MORNING WHEN WE WERE GOING IN TO THE BUILDING.AND WHEN HE WAS GOING TO WALK ME TO CLASS.
MONTH:SEPTEMBER
YEAR:2011
DAY:16TH


THE FIRST TIME I DISITED TO CHEAT ON TJ: WAS WHEN JOHN ASKED ME OUT AND I COULDN'T HELP BUT SAY YES IM SO SCARD TJ'S GOING TO FIND OUT.
DATE:OCTOBER 13,2011
WHEN :AFTER MUSIC IN S.S. WHEN ME AND TRAVIS WERE WORKING TOGETHER.AND LONG AFTER I ASKED HIM IF HE WONTED TO BE MORE THEN FRIENDS AND THAT HE WAS GOING HATF TO ASK ME.

MONTH:OCTOBER
YEAR:2011
DAY:13TH


FIRST TIME I DISITED TO BREAK UP WITH TJ:WAS WHEN JOHN ASKED IF HE COULD GET MY NAME TATTOED ON TO HIS CHEST.AND THE DAY HE STOLE MY HEART.

DATE:OCTOBER 17,2011

WHEN:AFTER SCHOOL ON A HAFT DAY.

MONTH:OCTOBER
YEAR:2011
DAY:17TH


FIRST TIME ME AND TJ BROKE UP-WAS WHEN I WAS GONE IN BEISBE.CAUSE MY CUSIN DIED.AND I DON'T NOW WHAT HAPPENED .ALL HE DID WAS EMAIL ME ASKING FOR HIS HATS BACK.

DATE-NOV. 11,2011

WHEN-WAS WHEN I WENT TO GET MY HOMEWORK OFF MY MOODLE AND I HAD AN EMAIL FORM HIM AND IT SAID “I'M SORRY SHADOW BUT I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU”.I STARTED TO CRY.I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING.MY LIFE WAS OVER.I LOST THE GUY THAT I LOVE MORE THEN ANYONE,OR ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.

MONTH-NOVEMBER
YEAR-2011
DAY-11TH

FIRST TIME I REALASIZE I SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN SAID YES TO JOHN-WAS WHEN I FOUND OUT TJ WAS CHEATING ON ME.AND WHEN I FOUND OUT TJ WAS DATING ALEXIS. AND WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT TJ. AND THE TIME WHEN I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET GO OF THE ONE GUY THAT MEAN'S THE WORLD TO ME.AND THE DAY I REALIZIED THAT I DON'T DISERVE A GUY LIKE TJ.

DATE-NOVEMBER 18,2011

WHEN-WHEN I FOUND OUT HE WAS DATING ALEXIS.AND I REALIZED THAT I LOST THE ONLY THING I LOVE MORE THEN ANYTHING.
MONTH-NOVEMBER
YEAR-2011
DAY-18


FIRST TIME I REALASIZE HOW MUCH I MISS TJ-2 WEEKS AFTER HE BROKE UP WITH ME.AND I THINK IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.IM NOT GOOD WITH PAIN.

DATE-NOVEMBER 24,2011

WHEN-2 WEEKS AFTER HE BROKE UP WITH ME.AND I THINK IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.IM NOT GOOD WITH PAIN.


MONTH-NOVEMBER
YEAR-2011
DAY-24
TIME WRITEN Bobby

“SEC. 3 BOBBY”

ME AND BOBBY HELD HANDS
SO TODAY WAS THE FEASTAVOL OF LIGHTS.AND ME,BOBBY,CHRIS,AND MY SISTER.WERE HANGING OUT.AND THEN WELL I'M JUST SKIPING TO IT.WELL FIRST HE HIT ME IN THE JGA.OK MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE SUPOSTO KISS BUT I WAS SITING ON THE WALL RIGHT THERE AND BOBBY WAS BUGING THE FUCK OUT OF ME CAUSE I WOULDN'T LET HIM HOLD MY HAND.BUT THEN I THINK HE'S ALL “DO I HAVE TO”.AND I'M ALL “OH MY GOD FINE BOBBY FINE”. THEN HE TOLD MY SISTER AND CHRIS TO JUST FUCKEN DO THERE DARE ALRETY.CHRIS IS ALL “WHY” AND BOBBY'S ALL “I GOT MY WISH”.THEN CHRIS IS ALL “SHE'S LETTING YOU HOLD HER HAND”BOBBY SAID “YES”SO THEN CHRIS TOLD US TO GO.THEN THE PIRADE STARTED AND WE WONTED TO GO WHATCH IT BUT CHRIS DIDN'T.SO WE WENT HATF WAY SO WE COULD SEE.THEN BOBBY WAS TRYING TO KISS ME BUT I WOULDN'T LET HIM.SO WE WERE PLAYING FOLLOW THE LEADER CAUSE HE WOULDN'T LET ME GO.THEN HE KEPT ALMOST MAKING ME FALL.THEN HE FUCKEN HIT ME IN THE NOSE.AND IT FUCKEN HURT LIKE HELL.BUT HE SAID HE WAS SORRY LIKE ABILLION TIME'S.BUT THEN NO MATTER WHAT I WOULDN'T LET HIM KISS ME.THEN HE HAD TO GO.SO YA.THAT'S THAT.
PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,
WELL MY SISTER AND CHRIS GOT BACK TOGETHER WITCH LEAVE'S ME WITH A BIG PROMLOM.CAUSE I TOLD TJ THAT WHEN MY SISTER BREAK'S UP WITH HIM WE CAN GO BACK OUT.THAT WAS THE PLANE BUT I FOUND OUT HOW MUCH I LOVE BOBBY.SO I CAN'T BREAK UP WITH HIM.I REALLY REALLY LOVE BOBBY THOUGH.SO HAHA TJ'S JUST GONNA HAVE TO WAIT.I LOVE BOBBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we got back together im so happy
12/13/11

FRIST TIME'S WITH BOBBY

FIRST TIME ME AND BOBBY HELD HANDS-AT THE FESTAVIL OF LIGHT'S WHEN MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE BE HIND THE WALL AND I WAS LOOKING AT THEM HE JUST GRABED MY HAND LOL.

WHEN-AT THE FESTAVIL OF LIGHT'S WHNE MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE BE HIND THE WALL AND I WAS LOOKING AT THEM.

DATE :12/3/2011
WHEN :AT THE FESTIAVL OF LIGHTS
MONTH :DECEMBER
YEAR :2011
DAY :3RD

FIRST TIME ME AND BOBBY BROKE UP-WAS WHEN I WAS MESSING AROUND WITH HIM ON THE PHONE.AND TOLD HIM THAT MY CUZIN SAW HIM HOLDING HANDS WITH ANOTHER GIRL.AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS WITH JACKIE. AND THAT IT JUST HAPPENED.DUDE I BEGGED HIM NOT TO.I TOLD HIM IT WAS FINE BUT HE SAID NO ITS NOT THEN HE HAD TYLER BREAK UP WITH ME FOR HIM.

WHEN-WAS WHEN I WAS MESSING AROUND WITH HIM ON THE PHONE.AND TOLD HIM THAT MY CUZIN SAW HIM HOLDING HANDS WITH ANOTHER GIRL.AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS WITH JACKIE. AND THAT IT JUST HAPPENED.DUDE I BEGGED HIM NOT TO.I TOLD HIM IT WAS FINE BUT HE SAID NO ITS NOT THE HAD TYLER BREAK UP WITH ME FOR HIM.
DATE :12/13/2011
WHEN :OVER THE PHONE
MONTH :DECEMBER
YEAR :2011
DAY :13TH