essay 1 - Antwanette Howard (books like beach read .TXT) 📗

09/12/2016

Sometimes I feel like I am wasting my time away…. I feel like there is no need to try in life. I hate feeling that way because I always try my best but I feel that my best is not enough at times. I feel as if I am repeating my whole life in a circle. I don’t want to be thankful of what God did for me but I want more in life for myself and not have to worry about If I am going to be fired or not. I want to own things in life. I want the freedom of having my weekends off and do what I want without having someone to tell me I have to come in for work. I hate not having enough money and I hate when I do not the freedom financially to do certain things I want to do. Everybody seems to be having a good time except for me and everybody else seems to love their life except for me. I am tired of looking at my life of snoozing.

Maybe I should do something different and try something different… but where am I going get the time and money? Hell who knows, but all I am saying is that god has to do something do me. I am sure when God created me he knew I wasn’t meant to be broke…Right? I just want to know what God is up to in my life because there has got be something special he is doing, because I have went through too much hell just for something good not happen to me! I hope God sees me up there in heaven and knows that I am in need of his miracle and love. I hope he also sees that I am trying to reach for something bigger than me. I just only hope and believe!!

Text: Antwanette Howard
Images: Bookrix
Editing: Antwanette Howard
Publication Date: 09-12-2016

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Dedication:
I dedicate this to God..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................